Went for SYF Concert Band Presentation at Esplanade yesterday. I really must highlight some of the players there.
ACS(I) Percussionist and PiccoloistThe piccoloist really had an excellent tone with very strong support. I could hear it so clearly and well-pitched right from the back of the hall. Really great!
The percussionist looked like a crab! He handled 4 mallets at one shot and played the xylophone and the bells at the same time! And he juggled between 4 different instruments at one time. I think nobody was looking at the wind band. Everyone had their attention locked onto that percussionist and I dare say 70% of the cheers and claps at the end of the performance were for him.
AJC PiccoloistI'm in love with the AJC Piccoloist! Omg, her tone and pitching were really nothing short of excellent. I really can't believe that AJ band's standard has rocketed to this kind of extent in such a short time! I think Alvin Seville must really be swelling with pride.
NJC FlautistNJ flautist who played the solos in Celebration had a great tone too! And the vibrato he employed in his solos was really something else too. Penny was swooning over how good his solos were too. And guess what, he's my junior, Darrin! XD
I think on the whole, it was a pretty good performance. Apart from listening, there was a fair bit to watch too. Many bands had plenty of movement, solos and goodness knows what. First time I saw electric guitars being used in a concert band performance. LOLZ! But on the flip side, it was also painful to hear clarinets and oboes squeak, trumpets mispitch and what not. Especially when that instrument is playing a solo and it becomes painfully obvious. Haiz. I think towards the end, the high mood got dragged down quite a fair bit by NJ band, since every other band had lots of movement and things to watch but NJ band's performance was rather high-brow, so I feel the mood got dragged down a little.
Been feeling extremely tired recently, as I've been sleeping at midnight and waking up at 5.30am, owing to the fact that I've started work. Working as an admin staff in CTSS isn't really all that tough. It's just the darned fact that I've gotta wake up so early every morning. Yawnz.
And I've finally got my wish! I'm having my 21st birthday party on 21 September at Chevrons chalet! To all who are free, please do come k? Drop me a mail or sms and let me know that you can make it so I can cater food for you all! It's a public holiday in lieu, so technically all should be free. You're free to stay overnight as well if you want. For people in NUS, that week is recess week!
Ok, shall sign off here. Blogging at work. Don't wanna get stared at by my other colleagues. =P
To all who have parents who play mahjong, never, I repeat, NEVER, introduce them to Viwawa! Omg, for the first time in my life I'm fighting over the computer with my MOM, of all people! But I have to hand it to her, she really is good (what else can I say? older people are usually better at stuff like this =P). She pushed me up 4 levels in 2 days. @.@
Ok, I've finally more or less recovered from my bout of flu, thank goodness, though my breathing is still slightly impaired but I'm sure it'll be fine. Starting work next week. Can't believe it la, people resigning or getting ready to resign but I'm just starting work. Lolz. Well, at least I'm going back to CTSS and it'll only be for about 2.5 weeks, so I guess it should be fine.
Been invited to a lot of 21st birthday parties recently and I really want one for myself too. But just thinking about the logistics gives me the shudders. I really do want this, though. Haven't had a decent party in the whole 2 decades of my life. Lolz.
Supposed to memorise a part of the script and prepare a song for SYM audition tomorrow, both of which I have yet to do. Woots.
Didn't manage to get into a hall for NUS. Disappointed? Surprisingly, I am. I claimed to be resisting the idea of staying in hall but now that I've done so much preparation, physically and mentally, to stay in hall, not being given the chance suddenly makes me feel disappointed. Lolz.
A lot of money to be spent very soon. New phone (I'm still using my army phone), new laptop (MacBook doesn't come cheap) and birthday party. Wow. Wonder where all this money is going to come from. >.<
I hate these feelings. Yes, multiple feelings.
Firstly, the feeling of being uprooted from ASD and transplanted to NUSSD. I hate it I hate I HATE IT!!! Going to a new environment where I know practically nobody and yet having to push myself as far as I can to contribute. I HATE IT! I HATE THIS FEELING OF AWKWARDNESS! The forced smile, the acute solitude... HOW AM I GOING TO MAKE THIS ENVIRONMENT FEEL LIKE ASD AGAIN? HELP ME! No offence though, I don't hate NUSSD. I hate the fact that I'm new in NUS and have to adapt. I SUCK AT ADAPTING! ASD I MISS YOU ALL LIKE CRAZY!!! I really hope Connexion comes soon and lasts forever. I really really hope, cuz I'm going to die without ASD sooner or later!!!!!!!!!!!
Secondly, the feeling of not being able to see you. I hate it. I only have that number of chances to see you and now that particular one was taken away from me. It really bothers me, especially when I don't have many chances to begin with. Darn this feeling. >=(
Thirdly, the feeling of apprehension I'm having now about entering NUS. New environment, new life, new study material. Back to mugging. Omg. 2 years never mug liaoz, don't know if I still know how. I need to maintain my CAP score at a bare minimum of 3.5. Can I do it? >.<
Solution to my feelings? Human revolution. My own human revolution.
Speaking of which, to those who have yet to sign up for the SSA Youth Musical 2010, please go sign up by clicking
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Suddenly recalled something from the band outing which I felt so compelled to blog about. Vanessa can mimic Korean actresses on tv to PERFECTION! The other day when she mimicked one of the actresses complaining to her father I nearly died of laughter la... Pity I didn't have a chance to record it down... Maybe next time I should use my Filipino accent too... LOLZ! Ok, I really miss band haha...
Ok, so it's a bit late to blog about the weekend that just passed but i'm still gonna blog about it anyway, cuz I LOVED IT!!!
30 May
Morning: Met Jocelyn, You Shun and Vanessa (arranged in order of arrival =P) at City Hall MRT Station. Supposed to meet at 10am but apparently waking up early on a holiday takes a toll on everybody, including myself. Hahaha! So after everyone was there, we trudged over to Mint Museum of Toys. Had quite a good time there. ALL THE TOYS OVERWHELMED ME WITH NOSTALGIA LA! Seeing toys of cartoons like Popeye really made my day. Hahaha! I'm bone-lazy, hence please view all the pictures taken at my Facebook. ^_^
Afternoon: Following Mint Museum, we went Sushi Tei for lunch. Food was a little expensive but it's always nice when eating with friends. Lolz. Cheng Ni came a little later but she didn't have much of an appetite, so she didn't eat. Jocelyn had to rush off to visit her grandmother, so the remaining 4 of us went over to Minds Cafe for games. TIKI TOPPLE!!! LOLZ!!! It's this game which is like a Tiki pole and you gotta knock off the Tiki parts one by one and leave the 3 that belong to you on top. No point explaining here la, you guys wouldn't get it anyway =DD We also played Blokus. That was fun too! But stupid You Shun kept blocking me. Grrrrr... I underestimated 5 hours of Minds Cafe. My legs were so sore after barely 4 hours. So we decided to end early and meet Weijie for dinner.
Evening: Cheng Ni went off to meet her mum, so ended up the remaining 4 of us having dinner together. Went Phin Steakhouse, which was surprisingly a good deal. The food was decent and we had a really great time just talking cock there and moaning about how old we're getting. Hahaha! Wan Ting came a bit later, so ended up with 5 people. Vanessa, You Shun and I were joking about how we seemed to be interviewing 4 people over the course of the entire day. First Jocelyn, then Cheng Ni and finally Weijie and Wan Ting =DD Guang Liang didn't want to come cuz Lai Kiu didn't come =.= Ended up going home at about 11+pm lolz...
31 MayMorning: Went for ASD Training for Rufu Run at Toa Payoh Park. Really had loads of fun there. So many runners got stuck my station, where I popped the trivia. Try harder next week guys! Pity I had to choke down my lunch at Mac to be in time for Guang Liang's concert. Urgh.
Afternoon: Went to Singapore Conference Hall for NIE Band Concert. Saw Darrin there. Hahaha. Apparently the whole of NJ band turned up to support Prof Ho. But I think this time the NIE band didn't perform up to scratch. Really quite disappointed. The first half was quite good. But second half, after the band screwed up Fantasy Variations, I think their morale went down le. Went off with Guang Liang, Vanessa and You Shun for dinner at Just Acia after that. Had a really fun time talking with them again, even though it was the second time in 2 days. ^_^ Guang Liang wants to go into teaching too! Haha, I'm forever so excited whenever I find out another friend wants to go into teaching. Talked so long with Guang Liang about teaching. Apparently, he did relief teaching at Hong Kah Secondary School.
Sigh, relief teaching. Really hope I can still get a month's worth of it in July before I enter uni. I really don't want to do any other part-time job apart from them, which is why my mum and dad have become particularly irritated with me just bumming around at home like that. But I've seriously grown addicted to this lifestyle!!!
My 邱比特的失误 hasn't made progress for a loooooooooooooooooooong time... Time to get the creative juices flowing...
It's been more than a fortnight since I last blogged. Been busy? NOPE! Been too free? DEFINITELY! I need ways to kill boredom.
Just finished watching 模范棒棒堂 2008 where they had their graduation ceremony and I wonder if my own ASD graduation will be as tearful as that. Will I even have a graduation? Lolz, I hope so. It might be even more tearful, considering I spent 4.5 years there. Definitely very painful for me to leave. And I barely have like 1.5 months left there. Maybe it'll be better if I just go quietly to NUSSD and save the tears. But honestly, I really don't want to think about it. I daresay my body will go over to NUSSD but my soul will remain in ASD. Nobody in my batch, I can quite safely say, feels as attached, bonded and close to ASD as I do. My dear fellow ASD comrades, I've said it a lot of times and I'll say it again, I really love you all from the bottom of my heart and I really am going to miss you all like crazy.
But sad things aside, we also need to look forward. 4 years in NUS awaits me. Just applied for hostel stay a couple of days ago. Omg, a thousand over dollars for a year. >.< The room I'm getting had better be clean and the mattress had better be new and everything. Make sure everything is worth my money. Can you imagine, a thousand over dollars just like that? Zzz...
Anyway, sent Kazu off on Monday morning. Another teary farewell. First time seeing Kazu cry. Really hope he'll go back to Japan and do his best for kosen-rufu there. I'll go over and visit you in about two years time bro~!
And to round up my entry, I guess I can be a little emo ba. Like I told Sinyee (at least I think I did), nobody has more patience than paper (or something to that effect). Similarly, who has the patience to listen to emo talk or emo moods? Only paper. That's why I've translated all my emo-ness onto paper, in story form. Sad stories. Only paper will have the patience to let me write everything down in full, no matter how corny or how silly my stories are. ^_^ And the best part is, I wrote my stories in Chinese. Omg, don't know how many donkey years never write in Chinese liaoz. Really didn't want to lose touch with my mother tongue, so I tried my hand at it. Somehow I feel like I'm writing a script, given the amount of dialogue I put in my stories. Well, it's going to be a series, entitled 邱比特的失误. As you can probably tell, it's going to be a series of love stories. Actually, I've been saying stories stories stories. The fact is, it's only storY, at the moment, because I've barely finished writing one. Hahaha. I write only when my emo moods haunt me, so it's a good sign that I don't have a lot written, I guess. =)
Ok, it's 2am (yes I've been sleeping at around this time for the past 2-3 weeks ;) amazing, huh?). Need to get some shuteye. Ciaoz ppl.
Boredom kills. Period.
Omg, I've got another 2+ months more time at home to kill. I think I'm gonna get killed before uni starts. Killed by Boredom. Boredom with a capital B. Well ok, I suppose it hasn't been 100% boring. Been entertaining myself with idol dramas and stuff. Lolz. Goes to show the extent of my boredom. And I've been chanting really very hard to down pes. I know I shouldn't be doing so but I really can't help it. I really don't want to do IPPT every year. IT'S A DRAG AND A PAIN IN THE ASS!!! But other than that, life's been pretty boring. Initially thought had that cambodia cip trip to look forward to but now that's been scraped too. Haiz. I suppose the next exciting thing is the induction programme for my scholarship ba. I really can't wait to get started. And I can't wait to buy my laptop! I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY MACBOOK PRO! WAIT FOR ME I'M COMING! Finally gonna own a laptop that belongs solely to me, myself and I. Can't wait to personalise it. ^_^
Life's also been quite boring now that Gakkai activities have been cancelled due to swine flu. ASD May Institution Meeting gone down the drain liaoz. I doubt we'll even have Connexion. I don't need to graduate from ASD liaoz hahaha.
Been cracking my brain over which hall to apply for in NUS too. Gonna apply same hall as Wei Han. Hopefully can get in, then at least got zhao ying ma. I heard hall also a good place to make friends and most importantly, have a space that I can really call my own. I really feel excited about getting my own room. I guess this is what getting my own flat will feel like in future ba? Hahaha! But I scared when I get my own room I'll just laze in my room all day. Those who know me well will know I have no qualms about locking myself in my room for hours on end if I have enough food and entertainment. Snacks and laptop = great way to spend in my room all day. Wahaha~! Ok, I know I sound like a couch potato. Well, face it. I AM!
Should I go get a job? NAH~! Enjoy a well-deserved break...
又到了我分享的时候了。。。不知道是不是最近偶像剧看太多了，心情跟着感性起来了。 说到偶像剧，它们会那么受欢迎是因为他们的剧情所描述的是大家心里所期盼的吗？男主角在人生发生了某些事情，而这时候女主角就正好出现在他的生命里。或刚好相反的，在女主角的生命里发生了什么事，而这时候男主角就会莫名其妙地出现来替她解围。如果不是解围，就可能是在她的身边默默地守着。当然，在偶像剧里怎么可能会少了三角恋呢？最终，男女主角会和好永远在一起，而第三者会被踢得远远的。这些情节，说实在的，如果是有看偶像剧的朋友， 都是一而再，再而三地重复。但为什么还是有那么多人会想要去看呢？是因为这都是我们私底下会希望发生在我们身上的事吧。谁不希望能够与上她的白马王子或他的真命天女呢？然后这样永远过着幸福的日子。但这种事情往往都不大有可能发生在我们身上吧。所以呢，大致上的人都会把幻想寄托在偶像剧里，然够由偶像剧来完成自己的幻想。当然，偶像剧里头的都一定是我们所追求的完美对象。我们也正好能够把自己幻想成偶像的对象和他对戏，又或者如果是一男一女的搭档组合，也能在银光幕上看见你所希望的配搭呈现在你眼前。我想这都是大家爱看偶像剧的原因吧。但看归看，事实和幻想还是总得画个清楚的界线，不要让自己陷得太深。这也算是对自己的一个警告吧。不要应为看了太多偶像剧而音响到自己的情绪。
可恶。。。怎么又开始感性起来了。。。算了，还是去想我的鬼鬼好了。。。^_^ 要看她的照片吗？
羡慕吧？她只小我一岁哦。。。不错吧？也让我好好地去幻想幻想吧。。。下次再聊吧~！
it's late but i feel like blogging~! hahaha... did i have a great day today? well, i guess you could say so ba... time spent with 4D1 '08 is always great~! ^_^
went for ctss carnival today... to be honest it wasn't really great la... so few stalls... den the weather was like so damn hot... i've heard of global warming but this is ridiculous... looks like mother nature is already dropping a few not-so-subtle hints... went for 2 rounds of lucky draws... didn't win anything... an old auntie won the grand prize... canon cybershot camera... lolz... some of the 4D1 people went to queue for the haunted house but seriously, the only thing that's scary about it was the queue... really horrible... i heard one of the parents telling her kid, "if they don't let you in, i'm going to complain until they let you in!" haha... cuz i think they queued for very long den still can't enter... n brandon told me aftawards there was nth exciting or scary abt it... met sinyee before going for the carnival... gave her jap tuition for about an hour before going over to the carnival... hope i didn't confuse her lolz... really a bit of information overload in that hour... hahaha... but she's very excited about learning it and i'm very excited about teaching it so ya... lolz... can get carried away hahaha... but it was fun teaching la... hopefully can get to teach again soon... so fun! afta we left the carnival, a grp of us trudged over to subway for dinner... i managed to get the student meal from subway... so i still look young after all! wahaha... den we stayed n crapped n laughed until my sides ached n cheeks cramped wif e guys until abt 8pm... tt's y i always love going out wif dem... i feel so relaxed n happy... reli can just talk cock wif dem... e gals beside oso... talking, singing and laughing away like siao za bor lidat... but tt's their nature la i spose... mother lau shin fen! hahaha...
hectic week coming up... ORD IS FINALLY NEARING! FINALLY A SINGLE-DIGIT FIGHTER LE... omg waited so long for dis day to arrive... now nxt prob... i nid a job... anyone got lobang to recommend?
i've also decided i want to write a dark novel... maybe something to do with a killer or a reaper... something that can really unleash my dark side completely... let my imagination run loose for once... the WRITE programme in ctss was reli loads of fun for me... tt got me in touch with my dark side... actually knowing that such creative writing cld b employed... hahaha... of coz, u've gotta haf a crazy enuff tchr... ms tan yi ling... lolz... she reli taught me so much in creative writing... miss her lessons like crazy sometimes... in jc it was just essays essays n more essays... yucks~! my creative juices all dry up le...
炼狱天使的故事会继续吗？ 堕落的天使会继续用终生与人换取灵魂吗？ 炼狱天使能够再次找回白色的羽翼吗？ 炼狱天使如果找回了白色的羽翼会愿意再次接受它吗？
Ok, so many things have been happening recently and I need to compose myself to think it out clearly...
Firstly, Jasvinder's farewell... well, what can I say? Lolz... ok because of tuition with Melanzzo I was late meeting 4D1 '08... had a good time chatting with my pokemon gang on the bus to can't-remember-where but i know we walked to kenny rogers eventually, where we met up with more people... had a great time laughing my ass off with Chubby, Jasvinder and Mitchelle... 2B1 rocks~! ^_^ afta tt went over to talk to zhenning, darrin n e other guys... can't rmb wad we talked abt liaoz... =P but i think the most fun was when we actually entered Kenny Rogers... i sat at the end of the table with hansen, darrin, zhenning, nic wee, brandon and samuel... as usual, we threw our jokes around and i honestly laughed until my sides nearly split... am always so high whenever i go out with these guys... aven and yilin came much later, almost didn't haf enuff seats for them... we told dem to go sit outside where they had a 2-seater next to the fountain hahaha... n jasvinder said, " Oh now we know why they're late. She was busy MAKING her own shirt!" in case you're wondering, yilin was wearing this:
and another incredible laughing point was when grace hong arrived near the end of our meal and sat down at the guys end... she turned and looked at aven's shirt and said, "omg, your robot has a dick!" and if you guys don't believe me, here's what aven was wearing on that day:
ok enough of the sick shit... but all in all we really had a super fun day and jas, if you read this, i don't care how many times i've said it or how many times u've heard it but you're really going to be sorely missed... =\
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and recently i've been feeling down, even though ord is nearing... haiz... am i in the wrong? or are they? or are we both in the wrong? i really just feel so bitter inside... am i just unwilling to see the right thing? is my selfish desire clouding up my vision?
于是天使褪下了白色的羽翼， 变成了炼狱天使。 难道这就是我的宿命吗？ 难道我就想这个经不起火烧的炼狱天使吗？ 我知道我的白色羽翼有多么珍贵， 怎么能够这么轻易地褪下呢？ 但有时候我总觉得这就是最简单的办法。褪下羽翼吧， 把灵魂给我， 变得和我一样， 成为地狱的天使吧！
I hate feeling helpless. It's one of the worst things I can be made to feel in the world. Being unable to help myself. Being unable to help others. Being so out of control of things within and around me. My poor juniors struggling so badly with life and there's nothing I can do to help them. I think that personality test was so true. I really hate feeling helpless, feeling at a loss of what to do.
ORD is finally round the corner. Really having mixed feelings towards it. Finally going to escape the clutches of the army on a long-term basis. But that means no more income for the next three months. Not that I'm saying it's a lot. Indeed, getting a job outside will easily earn me much more than what I'm earning in army now, especially since I'm in a non-combat vocation. But still, 3 months before I enter uni after ORD-ing, what can I do? Anyone got lobang?
My posts recently have been rather emo. Thanks to all who have expressed concern. Some readers don't tag but communicate in other ways instead, which surprised me a lot but touched me equally much, if not more.
Sit myself down in a corner, bring my knees to my chest and bury my face between my knees...
Addiction is scary. I'm seriously hooked onto watching 我爱黑涩会... started watching after i finished watching 霹雳MIT cuz I think 鬼鬼 is cute =P... my mum keeps screaming at me cuz she says it's a damn waste of time, which I fully agree but to all who know me, I'm one with little willpower to override my desires, hence I still have yet been able to curb this ^_^... btw I spent my half day leave yesterday at home watching before going for nationwide youth leaders meeting... hahaha...
speaking of which, ASD is FULL OF PANGSEH KINGS!!! i jio-ed so many people for dinner yesterday, then when nearing the time for meet up i started receiving smses from nearly 80% of the people telling me "eh, sorry I'll be late, you guys go ahead first..." "eh paiseh, i eating with my parents le, see you all there later" really don't know what to say le... end up having dinner with only min kit and junhao... ken guan came really late but at least he still came... lolz...
enjoyed watching the music challenge as well! loved the fact that i sat so near the koteikitai... cuz i saw my beloved flute and piccolo again! omg, nearly wanted to snatch the piccolo from the gal hu wuz playing it hahaha!!! and i've decided, i'm going to join NUS Band liaoz, regardless of how shitty my standard is now... my da laopo and xiao laopo awaits me!
留下来，留下来
在我心里住下来
想都别想我会让你开
Maybe I've watched too many corny idol dramas in the past, to the extent I see these cliched scenes play through my mind. The couple somehow has to undergo certain 'trials and tribulations' before they can come together, which they usually do. Audiences can't seem to take to well to unhappy endings, especially if they involve a certain idol they love. Scenes like when a couple walk into a shop and just so coincidentally bump into the female lead's ex-bf and you see the face of the male lead change on the spot. Or when the male lead gets injured trying to protect the female lead and the female lead cries her eyes out over him while he is unconscious and when he does wake up she wears herself out taking care of him or vice versa.
I think the reason why these scenes are cliched yet still attracts audiences is because it's a situation that we all fantasise ourselves in, especially teenagers. It's something ideal that will always and will only happen on tv screens. So I'm sure despite so many people criticising that all this is so cliche and everything, deep down inside, we still like to think about stuff like this...
Life is boring nowadays...
Feeling emo? I thought I was past that age already. Why should I feel emo? Lolz. Must due to disappointment ba. Promises. What promises? Ha.
Now got to settle all the admin stuff for my teaching scholarship. It really isn't easy trying to get the government's money. =S
I need to learn to see the grey, and not just the black and white. Not being so emotional does not mean being an emotionless freak. There is always a compromise.
The Grimreaper paces forward, robes swirling out in a dark mist. Fresh blood creeps along the ground, as if seeking refuge from its source. The Grimreaper's face stretches in an evil smirk. Feed of the day. The lone soul lingers above the lifeless body, almost as if beckoning to the Grimreaper. Take me. The Grimreaper raises a hand, curls a clawed finger. The soul dissolves like breath in mist, leaving the body spread across the cold, dark concrete. In a flash of dark fire, the Grimreaper becomes one with the velvet night. From behind the pillar, a lone, winged figure holding a bow sobs into his hands...
羡慕吧？她只小我一岁哦。。。不错吧？也让我好好地去幻想幻想吧。。。下次再聊吧~！
