how shld i post dis entry? oso duno... so mani things haf bin happenin dis few days... i've bin overwhelmed? i spose so... asthma actin up again... fcuk...
my stamina has finally reached rock bottom... i start to feel tired even when i climb stairs... ani1 willin to come run wif mi dis hols? i nid someone to discipline mi... HELP!!!
bought new hp... haha... belated bdae present frm my parents... nokia 3230... quite a nice hp... same as e one found in dis yr's ndp fun pack... tho of coz mine nt torch la...
had chinese 'AO' 2dae... sux lyk shit... gort an impendin feelin of doom tt'll i'll haf 2 retake... EEKS!!! pls jz lemme get my A1 or A2 and get it over wif... i wld seriously b super sad if i get a B3 and below... pls tolong dun let history repeat itself... gona hafta chant super duper hyper ultra hard... will reli cry if i dun get my A... my chinese all e while quite strong de la... my languages all e while haf bin pretty much ok... jz had to b dis once tt i had to do badly... ARGH!!! vanessa said it mite nt b tt bad... we'll see how... in abt 5 mths time yeah? in e time... to hell wif chinese...
playing second flute sux... can some kind soul gif mi my first flute for this band fest? i wan my melodies and high notes... :'(
life condition at an all time low... reli haf no energy to fight on animore... reli feel lyk jz throwin in e towel...
you can do it... i noe u can... i will be here for u... i always will be... my hand is always there... as long as u r willing to reach out for it... my shoulder is always there... as long as u r willing to lean on it...
Just got e posting for the band festival today. I playing in the Barnes band... Second flute... Dammit la... i wana plae 1st flute de lorz... hope some kind soul will b willin to change wif mi... but quite happy... finally gona plae challengin pieces again... hi ppl of good earth... tix r goin at $10 each... for stall seats... $15 for circle seats... peeps itz at esplanade concert hall... worth e money de... since itz esplanade... how often u pay tt measly price for a concert there? hahaha... peeps goin as a couple will get a special discount frm mi k? take it as an incentive to go... if u buy stall seats as a couple, i'll charge u $15 for 2 tix... if u buy circle seats, i'll charge u $20 for 2 tix... worth it rite? so shld u buy? OF COURSE muz buy... haha... so hurry while stocks last!!!
today went for appeal... after hearin wad mr chua said... ignts le... reli... haiz... jz hope i can take back my 4 subs... dammit...
hope you'll be there. it'll reli mean a lot to mi... i mean it... reli...
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Can't take 4 subs animore... All cuz phy gort a fcuking E... i love my combi... tho i sae it sux most of e time... reli felt lyk cryin when ms wun told mi i had to consider droppin one sub... no doubt i'd love to kiss phy gdbye... gd riddance, i'd sae... but... sigh... i nid 4 sub for a gd scholarship... nt 2 mention a gd cca record and a gd testimonial, wif s papers...
today sth hilarious happened during bio lecture... ms wun wuz givin out e awards for e various classes... den when pui khuan went down to collect her prize and came up... a guy called robert frm s9 went down... dey met at e isle and robert suddenly slipped and fell and gripped onto pui khuan... lolz... e entire LT was lookin at dem la... den ms wun saw and her mouth open so big sia... den needless to sae... e entire LT went "wooooooooooo..." and poor pui khuan wuz teased e rest of e dae until she gort pissed... muriel oso veri bad sia... cuz s9 had maths tutorial nxt to us when we were havin ours... den when we came out... robert wuz wif his clz outside den she said so loudly "byyyyyeeeeeeee robert..." make pui khuan sho paiseh again... lolz...
still down in the dumps over dropping a sub... gona appeal... reli gona appeal... make sure i take back my 4 subs...
we can pull thru dis tgt... wait a min... we? =S
i'm veri happi todae... hahaha... ^_^Y =p
bin a bz wkend... pw sux... rushin abt lyk mad cuz of pw and stressin myself out... so i haf decided to slack... e others r gona kill mi... but heck care la... saw derry's gf's pics in his laptop... he reacted so violently... hahaha... but hey, im a nice guy... it'll b worse if rakesh, vishnu or worst of all, yi yi, saw it... derry's a goner by den... LOLZ...
den jz now went for asd core mtg... i tink im e earliest one home... gort lift frm kian chye... haha, thx dude!!! sposed 2 meet e others at hbf at 6 but i wuz 10 mins late... went of wif jiyang and james first... left qi sheng and rachel behind to wait for benny... reached vincent's hse le den finished my mac meal... haha... elvin c le den call benny to help him buy... msged rf to c if she comin... den she said debrah gave her e wrong timing... den no1 meet her she duno how 2 go... in e end went down to meet her and bring her up... she down wif flu n cough... den she gd la... durin e meetin still eat 3 packets of m&m's... haiz... den durin meetin e whole grp wuz luffin at choon huat's age... kian chye sit at e side veri quiet... heng he nv kena... he same age as choon huat but nv kena cuz he veri quiet 2dae... smart sia...
wkend wuz fruitful... but veri tired...
i'm veri happi todae... hahaha... ^_^Y =p
Thursday, October 20, 2005
jz feel veri sad all of a sudden... ish benjamin losin interest and passion for band? last band prac he din wana come... tml's band prac he said gort bio olympiad trainin... ok... and band fest how? i mean... he's a new member afta all... he's gort e standard of a new sec 1... yet i cant teach him like a sec 1, neither can i teach him at e pace i teach a sec 1... and now he's reluctant to come for band prac... do i terrorise ppl tt badly to e extent tt dey lose interest in band? i noe im strict in sectionals and i seldom smile n all tt... but tt's e way i conduct my sectionals and i usually get my pt driven across... i reli jz wana help him... but he's reli makin things veri difficult for mi...
tml's gona b a bz dae... afta sch nid to go for NSC's appt... den nid to come back for band... afta tt gotta rush off for e concert... rushin abt lyk mad... but gona enjoy myself... haha...
charis din come ytd... hahaha... clz bonding time again... gort out e 2 laptops... wister's n zc's... GB!!! hahaha... mite sound lame... but itz quite fun... i beat wister and david FLAT... lalala~ long time nv plae le still haven lost my touch... nt bad nt bad... haha... BHB~!
look dude... no doubt i may appear lyk a senseless fat guy but i still haf feelins de k... jz cuz u tink u dun sae it doesnt mean i wun feel it... on e contrary i feel it even more strongly... =S yes i can feel it... esp when u dun express it dumbass...
i love you... i can't and won't deny it... itz jz so deeply entrenched inside mi... sadly, u're so near yet so far...
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
bought 'eldest' a couple of daes ago... provin to b quite a gd read... wonder if yvonne's bot e bk... haha... she loves eragon... dis time eldest she's sure to buy it...
had a long face-to-face chat wif sky todae... as usual... i did most of e talkin... haiz... haha... but nt bad la... he saes he rulz daytona... muz go learn frm him afta his o's... promised him a discount on tix if he managed to ask eileen out for e band festival... ganbatte!!!
not tinkin of u everyday has bcom an impossible task... dun u get tired of flittin across my mind lyk every other min of e day? i noe u'll nv b mine... but pls at least continue to b my fren... n jz let mi love u silently deep down inside... it'll hurt... but tt's e best way i see without u havin to realise, to ur utmost horror, tt i love u...
gona b a short entry dis time. quite late le. went out wif my family ytd. plannin to get new hp. nokia 7270 appeals to mi. ^_^. went for asd mtg. rain wuz terrible. took umbrellas out for rach, bh and rf dey all. drenched pants down. james ish a nice person to tok to. veri chatty, haha. =D
afta mtg went wif rach to jp to meet zb... had loadsa fun... talked and talked and talked... nice catchin up wif zb again... haven seen e dude since asd outin... afta tt went tgt to buy zb's present n rach's new hp pouch... hardly ani reli suited her... but still found one in e end... haha... den went arcade... IT ROX!!! zb ruled e initial d... i thrashed e para para... zb's gd at bishi bashi too... beat him in a couple of games... he beat mi in a couple... gona haf 2 win him b4 i can tink of beatin rf... rach played bishi bashi wif us... but onli watched e initial d and para and laughed... hahaha...
sposed to b a short entry. haha.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
is this wad band does to u? everyday when i go out or m jz doin nth in particular, i can b doin 1 of 2 things... one, my mind can b tinkin of sth... anithin... reli... it can jz wander far n wide n i can jz sit n stone until i noe i haf 2 do sth else... two, my mind turns to player mode and it starts playin all e music i've heard in my life... can b anithin... rangin frm a flute solo to a duet to jay chou to phantom of e opera... no nid mp3 player or walkman... haha... jz sit dere n let e melodies n tunes churn demselves out... im at peace wif e world...
band resumin dis wk... cant wait... reli miss those guys... band rox my world!!!
today's chi rox la... sat beside kenneth in e last row and he wuz crackin all those lame but still farnie jokes thruout e entire lesson... laughed until my asthma nearly came up again... den my chi tchr read chu long's essay n he himself wuz smilin n luffin while readin e essay... woots... haha... s8 rox la... pity we exist in cliques nt as an entire clz...
gort back gp today... paper 1 31.5/50... paper 2 26.5/50... total 58/100... sux lyk shit la... but quite pleased wif my paper 1... still managed to get dis score... nt too bad le la... jz nid to improve on my pts n structure ba...
if i were to die tomorrrow... my greatest regret would be that i nv told u how i felt abt u... but i noe veri well... u're out of my league... but u're still e ger i cant live without...
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
bin chattin loads wif vanessa ytd... n chattin wif her again now... bin so nice to jz talk and talk and talk lyk we used to... haha... gr8 feelin...
sposed to do outline of op for shankar by tml... looks lyk itz jz gona b blank... sianz... lost my momentum for serious work afta promos ended... reli jz feel lyk slackin totalli rite now...
reli hope i can do well if i can take my 4 subs again nxt yr... muz work reli hard... jc life is terrible... dun wana get results lyk DEAD ever ever again... jolly well get betta results frm now on...
looked at chem promo paper... heng i nv take... hahaha =p
life's pretty slack now... bio spa screwed up a bit... but betta den my previous one... come to tink of it... my first 3 spas for each sci haf bin quite screwed... but oh well... cant do anithin abt it can i? jz make sure my future spas do a lot betta...
feel lyk cryin all of a sudden... wad's wrong wif mi?
not thinking of you everyday has already become an impossible task... so near yet so far... torture all right...
Jz gort back frm celebratin mr chiang's bdae... 4D1'04 ROX MY WORLD TOTALLY!!! missed u guys so so much and 2dae even tho we din do much, i still reli enjoyed myself... we reli jz slacked ard n had dinner tgt at sumoya (gosh tt place brings back memories) but still, itz e company tt counts... afta tt went home wif yi yi and jie sheng... but yi yi gort off at je... js took 242 wif mi... haha... thnx a lot dude... appreciate e company... talked a lot... mainly abt him n cheng joo... lolz... us guys oso were teasin n askin him lotsa things abt how it happened... >.<... so envious sia... tt devilish smile he sometimes has... LOLZ!!!
b4 tt had briefin abt China OUAP... sianz... we comin back a dae late for band fest rehearsal... tt means all e gd old intro and stuff over... mayb pickin of solos and duets oso gone... i wana plae!!! haha... BHB~! but reli... if i gort e chance to plae a solo in esplanade concert hall... *eyes mist over... im reli veri veri excited abt dis band fest... much more excited den i m for dis OUAP... goes to show how much i love band n my wife and mistress... my tone now sux lyk shit la... esp on my piccolo... nv plae my darlin for so long liaoz... till now starion still haven return mi... win liao lorz...
bio spa nxt wk... urgh... but life rox now... esp since promos are over...
thinking of you... pleasant torture...
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Today's my big day!!! hahaha... thnx to all hu remembered and haf sent mi their well wishes and greetings... haha... shant name u guys here... dun wana miss out ani1... cant sae thnx enuff times... reli appreciate it guys... touched...
all e same... itz reli super shitty to haf to study n mug on yr bdae!!! tml phy paper la... oso e end of my promos... mite b e end of my life too... duno... haha... still haven finish muggin... despite havin chem exemption... yi yi jz now still call mi to waste my time... well, now im still wastin my time... haha...
oh well... we'll see wad happens tml...
Maths was completely shitty... cant b blamed... i din study... but reli veri tedious... y do i always end up lyk dis for maths? i reli wana do veri well for my promos... now left onli phy... i reli wana jz pia for promos... i reli wana take back my 4 subs nxt yr... take my chem s paper... i luv chem... my mom tell mi nt to lose heart... geng li oso encouraged mi a lot ytd nite on e way to e mrt station and on e mrt... he reli talked and talked and talked a lot for such a long time... haha... but i reli appreciate it loads... geng li if u read dis thnx a lot for yr help... reli reli reli appreciate it... i will work!!! i will do my best for dis comin hols... siaoz la... obviously i nt gona try veri hard... hols ma... as long can kip my 4 subs den will slack... always lidat de... hate myself...
nitemare... haiz... i lyk doin parametric eqns... den pian pian 2dae duno how 2 do... f***... tt's y i dun lyk discussin e ans afta e paper... cuz i noe sure gort a lot of qns i gort wrong... n itz usually cuz of e s2pid s2pid careless mistakes... ARGH!!! and sometimes itz nt i duno how 2 do lorz... den will demoralise mi... den no more gung-ho spirit for e upcomin papers le...
talkin to lao da now... veri worried... haiz... y m i such a worrywart? but i haf cause to worry... cuz im nt disciplined enuff to whip myself into studyin... kip havin dis mindset... hu's gona gif a shit abt whether ure gona noe wad ish e sum of e arithmetic series in e future? hu's gona care if e ball retains itz kinetic energy afta collidin wif another ball? hu's gona care abt sin cos and tan animore? reli muz change my way of tinkin... strugglin lyk mad wif myself...
happy bdae clement!!! n early happy bdae to shawnrick!!!
