Monday, February 27, 2006
jz realised how deeply i miss gakkai peeps... sunday wuz fun~! actualli nt reli in e mood to blog now... but still... im here... haha...
talked wif xiao mei for abt 40 mins ytd... free incoming ma... hee~ jiayou for exams wor xiao mei~! den today in sch... again din go for gp content module... ms p sae no nid le ma... 2 hr break... haha... mr fei tot we pon... whr gort lorz... we veri guai de k..
bin tryin to do up my bro's n-gage qd... sigh... nt e beautiful picture i painted for myself... loads n loads of trouble... zzzz...
trying to cope wif school work... trying to cope wif band... woes of a jc student... hahaha...
and trying to cope wif u nt bein by my side... e pain do u feel? e misery do u feel? e longing to u understand? never...
Sunday, February 26, 2006
why muz i b trapped in dis way? tears will fall... i assure you...
Friday, February 24, 2006
for the whole of dis wk i've had e song we danced to for e asd dance for sd anniversary stuck in my head... i cld b e one... jz plaes itself over n over n over n over again... cant stop it la... lolz... severe withdrawl symptoms from asd... sheesh... addicted liaoz... thank GOODNESS e wkend is finally here n we're gona mug out at syc tgt... den go back for 4th div mtg... sun oso muggin out... flip side? nt spendin enuff time wif family... sigh...
no pt wallowing in self-pity... it ain't gona get u aniwhr... bear tt in mind for gdness sake... n shut tt trap of urs yeah? u've gort a bee in ur bonnet abt how poor a state ure in now n i tell u it buzzes too loudly n too often... so for gdness's sake get a grip~! no doubt itz yr 2... but shake yrself... cry if u haf to... slack off when u nid to (tho nt always la)... n push urself... listen to ms wun's advice!!! gif urself a tight slap n wake up!!!
i luv tt little bk of mine... writin in it helps to kip mi so calm n collected n when i read back at all tt i've written... i smile to myself... i laugh at myself... i ponder over stuff tt's alr gone by... it aint useless k... i learn a lot thru all dis... mei yin oso does dis i tink... nt veri sure... it reli helps a person in wadeva ways it may...
bio spa today... did ok la i spose... tho i knew e qn inside out... kept writing urease instead of lipase...
phy spa nxt wk... gona die le...
tinkin of u? duh~ lolz...
Sunday, February 19, 2006
SD anniversary ROCKS!!! haha... reli had a lot of fun man... e dance rocked... e ppl rocked... e spirit rocked... woots... danced e couple dance wif xuelian (is tt her name? shame on mi... dance wif her for quite a number of practices le still duno how to spell her name...)... at e back part i kept steppin on e speaker stand (OUCH!!!) but still managed to pull off a gd show la... saw quite a number of people whom i haven seen for quite a long time... let's see... hmm... yee hoong wuz one... haven seen him since last yr... saw timothy too... nv see tt guy for so long liaoz... jefferson too... so nan de get to come tgt for events like dis... >.<... hahaha... e dance practices were quite gd... danced n danced n danced till i soaked my t-shirt thru... heng i had e sense to bring an extra... rf popped by too... but her slippers snapped den she rushed home to get a new pair (i tink... =p)... den of coz... shitty things haf to happen... my asthma had to come up after i finished e dance... quite heng la... imagine if it had triggered off
during the dance... e horror... hmm... den oso met a couple of new frens and caught up wif a couple of old ones... ppl lyk jun jie... haven seen him eva since he disappeared for his A's... missed him a lot... haha... he joined mi in e dance grp on e first trainin... still rmb veri clearly... den met e new batch of yr 1s... junwen... nicholas... joel... let's see... onli gort to noe dixon later on i tink... and a number of others... junwen n his dance partner (forgot her name =P reli veri shi bai) dis time reli scandalous sia, lyk rachel said... hahaha... i've reli grown a lot frm dis sd anniversary too... all thnx to all my ics and frens... reli reli appreciate and love u all... *bear hugz...
i noe i've left out a lot of stuff... but due to e jaded state my brain is now... shall stop here for e time being...
school tml... BUMMER~
had a new haircut... a small bald patch can b seen... wanna bet yi yi's gona bitch abt it as soon as he sees it...
ain't gonna happen... it juz ain't gonna happen... ='(
Friday, February 17, 2006
woots... been goin for sd anniversary prep 3 out of 5 days today... veri bz n veri tired... but oso veri veri happy... if nt for gakkai, i'd haf shrivelled up like a prune spiritually... reli nourished mi a lot... school jz does all these horrible things to u... I LOVE GAKKAI!!! gakkai reli made mi grow a lot...
jz finished alumni meeting... talked abt quite a lot of stuff... e new graduands were surprisingly veri enthusiastic abt it... =D... leave it to dem to plod away at it ba...
acjc funfair tml... sd anniversary tml... bz bz bz... haha... but i dun mind!!! cuz it ain't sch work... lalala~
tired...
miss u...
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Valentine's Day... first time i've written down so much in tt little book of mine... finally realised wad it is... it's my Pensieve... for those of u hu haf no idea wad it is... go read harry potter book 4/5/6... love is in the air... i suppose... tho i cant rmb havin a day when i felt more unloved... kept tinkin of stuff... gort rejected for chem 's' paper... e whole dae wuz jz shitty la... fcuk... tho my maths lecturer did mention sth abt valentine's day... she brought her new year goodies today and passed it ard e lt... haha... mia cldnt get enuff of e pistachios... she reli loves it a lot, e way i see it... e way
everybody sees it... hahaha... she oso mentioned a bit of her personal stuff... shall nt type it here... but wuz kinda moved by e way she took it... i duno... mayb u guys tink im siao, which i probably am... but i jz somehow felt moved by e way she wuz expressin herself...
im sposed to b studyin for my chem test tml... but im wastin my time here bloggin... im sposed to b at tsc rehearsing for e sd anniversary... but im wastin my time here bloggin... i seem to b losing my focus... time to seek personal guidance... haha...
onli handed in my hard copy of my grp's pw writeup today... my grp's one of e 'lucky' few who haf bin selected for e pw exhibition... spider silk condoms... imagine e reaction of e yr 1s when dey see it... hahaha...
valentine's day is sposed to b a joyful day... y is dis such a dismal entry?
thinking about stuff? what else can i possibly tink abt? make a smart guess... seeing couples tgt today has nt bin an ez task for mi to endure... neither has e constant reminder of valentine's day thru roses, cards, balloons and whatnot... itz hell tryin to endure it... no... i dun blame u... of coz i dun... i cant... and even if i cld, i wldnt... itz nt ur fault... whose fault is it? yours truly... thank gdness, valentine's day is ending soon... but alas, wad im goin thru isnt... itz gd to noe tho, tt ure still blissfully unaware of wad im feelin... n may it stay tt way...
Sunday, February 12, 2006
jz came back from asd gathering at jih yang's hse... managed to convince sky to go too... he din reli mingle as much as i wld liked to haf him too... but hey, i tink itz a terrific achievement for a first time... im determined to shakubuku u dude... =)... u cant run frm mi... wahaha...
sky still doesnt noe where he wants to go... i've always had e impression he wanted to go poly business course... cuz he mentioned it b4... now he saes he's interested in e arts course of jc... well... he's gort 20 pts, so he qualify... jz duno if jj will accept him or nt, assumin of coz, tt he chooses jj... pj i tink will accept la... he considered bankin and financials too... lolz... same course as timothy... mite ask tim to talk to him too...
asd gatherin at jih yang's hse... moderately fun ba... mayb cuz i a bit tired la... afta e vigourous dance practice at tsc... cant bliv im still bloggin now... talked a lot... reli a lot to sky... reli hope itz set him thinkin... cuz he reli doesnt haf a lot of time to tink... he kips tinkin he's nt gona b able to get eileen jz cuz his 'rival' got 8 pts... i dun bliv in tt... unless dis ger finds brains more attractive n e heart... well... ignts...
tryin desperately to copy e pics elvin sent to mi into e com rite now... sth wrong wif my fukin cd-rom drive...
and yes, jz lyk wad kenneth said... reli farnie how ironic life is... sometimes...
itz difficult... veri veri difficult... u cant blame mi for feelin dis way...
Thursday, February 09, 2006
had my chem spa today. i nv fail to screw up my spas every time... argh... itz gona b my downfall if i dun do sth to correct it... haiz...
life is goin downhill... reachin gradient = infinity soon... i reli feel veri dry spiritually... tot e sd anniversary wld pep mi up... but... haiz... all crash lyk mad... but i lyk e dance tho...
and guys, chem s paper not = to chem olympiad... =)
finally read "an acsian will die today part II"... for those hu duno wad im talkin abt... itz a webcomic at
www.studentssketchpad.blogspot.com... if u haven bin there... u haven bin aniwhr... itz e best place to laugh ur ass off at e stereotypes of ppl frm various famous sec schs... bliv mi... if u noe e stereotypes, dis webcomic will tickle ur funny bone till it hurts at e way it jacks off at e stereotypes... golden taps... hahaha...
oh b4 i forget... GOOD LUCK TO ALL GETTING 'O' LEVEL RESULTS TML!!! u guys can do it de la... i bliv in u guys.. =)
tml's my review at NSC... hopefully it'll b my final visit there...
i will get my 4 A's... nt B... nt C... 4 straight A's... i will get dem... n i swear i'll work my ass off to get dem...
i feel like doin wad mrs. leong did for e whole clz for all my other subjects... she printed out dis gr8 progress chart for all of us and we were supposed to plot down all our test grades... haiz... i've alr started out wif a B for first maths test le... muz work harder... one more mark to an A and e woman die oso refuse to gif mi... i shld do dis for my other subjects too... it'll reli help mi i feel...
duno y... constantly feelin nervous, tired, moody, etc... is dis jc life? still askin myself dis qn afta spendin a yr in one...
Saturday, February 04, 2006
chingay tonight... abt 2 hrs ago... e guys muz haf had e time of their lives... can onli imagine yeah? haiz... y did i haf to fall sick at dis time? totalli sux man...
i've finally completed book 1 and im reli proud of it. no doubt it aint in tt gd a condition now as it wuz b4 i started writin it reli holds a lot of my memories in it. strange yeah? i mean, i wldnt call it a diary. it'll b one of e last things i'd call it. jz a place for mi to jot down my random thots and feelins as and when i feel lyk it. cld b more den once a day or cld b even less den once a month... most imptly, i actually managed to finish one book... amazing yeah? mayb i shld start a collection... yep... started book 2 ytd... wondered sometime b4 dis... wad if some1 were to read it? tt is if dey can, cuz i've bin usin tt same old beautiful handwritin again tt looks lyk worms wriggling across e page (literally) rather than words... well, nt all of it... i wrote veri neatly at e beginnin and some places here n there afta tt... but for mi... when i read it... reli wuz quite an enjoyable experience for mi... dis process has reli done mi a lot of gd... im sure i can complete book 2 jz as successfully... for those who haf read dis paragraph and haf gort dis expression on yr face: =_=??? dis is jz a book where i scribble my thots n feelins in as n when i feel lyk... and i've nv bin able to do it for a whole book so far, so dis has bin sth lyk an achievement for mi... yep... so yeah, u've jz wasted a couple of minutes of your life readin dis...
im laggin behind in maths, bio and phy... ie. everythin... i've missed e chem s paper selection test submission deadline... cuz i wuz on mc... hope ms goh is still willin to accept my paper... reli dun wan my effort to go down e drain, even tho i may nt qualify for it... at least gimme a chance yeah? tt's wad i luv abt chem... itz sooooo interestin!!! oops... sry... nerdy side showin again...
haiz... haven seen those peeps for such a long time le... miss dem... oh well... sd anniversary comin up... sure to meet dem up n haf loads of fun again!!! bleahx... love gakkai!!!
new year hasnt bin tt eventful... but nice to catch up wif all my cousins again... haha... my cousin's gf looks lyk esther lee!!! hahaha... harvest dis yr oso nt tt gd... haiz... economy nt gd? but i tink itz cuz my father side there gort lotsa cousins la... tt's y less lorz... adults strain u noe... haha... i love my grandma the best!!! my paternal side one... lolz... mayb cuz i lived there when i wuz young... but reli... gort dis veri deep sense of affection for her... she rox!!! haha... ^_^ she's always so carin and so concerned abt whether i've done well in my studies or whether im gettin along fine... well, sometimes gotta lie thru my teeth abt my studies... =P... but hey... itz a white lie... dun wana see her worried... there's love and beauty in tt face of hers... yep!!! my grandma's the BEST!!! haha...
still sick... duno if i can go mr chiang's hse tml... shld b fun!!! gona hear clarence and jun xian teasin mi again... woots...
talkin to van now... hao jiu mei liao le...
long post... if u reached here afta reli readin everythin... congrats!!! -.-'''
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006
in a family... when e parents quarrel or r nt hapi wif each other... hu suffers most? DUH~ e children... oh well... muz learn to accept it... it'll blow over soon... i hope...
fell sick liaoz... went to see dr ling today... imagine... temp 39.1 degrees... sheesh... den he checked my blood pressure too... nearly fainted... 145/80... reli reli reli nid to start losin weight le... no more unhealthy food for u dude... nt if u still want ur life... gort a 3-day mc... probably nt gona use it all... shld b goin to sch on fri... cant miss those 2 practical lessons... veri veri impt... tho now altho im still capable of bloggin... still feel lyk shit... the nites r becomin veri terrible to endure... haiz...
wish gakkai activities for asd wld resume soon... feelin reli bland and spiritually dry wifout dem... mcvin smsed mi couple of wks back abt asd skit for e sd anniversary... reli hope we'll start preparin for tt soon...
it'd b tt much easier wif u by my side...
