was thinking about my sudden craze for Jack Skellington collectibles... is it because i'm seeking to find something to complete myself? i dunno... the idea suddenly just came to me... and i felt like penning it down... i mean, especially since i'm this size, i'd want to find something to complete me and perhaps that to me is finding something totally opposite to me to complete myself... and most aptly, i love Jack Skellington... He's this skinny (well, what do u expect? he's a skeleton), hilarious, caring, gold-hearted cartoon character... and i'm fat, cold... u get the pattern... haha... oh well, i ain't gonna stop till i find that Jack Skellington plushie!!! somehow i just don't really like the one they had at harbourfront... sure the keychains and handphone straps were cool and all but the plushie just doesn't appeal to me... talk about picky...
got back my maths results today, together with bio and phy mcq... for the second time in my life, i actually performed better in phy den in bio... i can't believe it... guess the work and time i poured into my phy actually paid off... unlike my bio... i passed my maths... literally... 50/100... actually i'm quite shocked with some of my classmates... some of them usually ace their maths but this time they actually didn't get their expected grades... quite impressed with divya's grade this time... she's been rather weak in her maths but this time she managed to scrape a pass... hard work does pay off!!! haha, happy for her too... haiz... i guess it's really time to get that ass moving faster, cuz it ain't moving at the speed it should be... about 10 weeks to prelims... this is terrible... i've said it before and i'll say it again... i refuse to compromise on my grades!!!
i want to be a good friend and be able to offer him good advice which he really will have the wisdom to understand, accept and follow... but to do that i must have the wisdom to understand fully what he's going through and see what i have to say... my experience is kinda similar i guess but not exactly the same... must have the wisdom to know the difference... if i'm not the one to offer him the advice and help he needs, then may he meet his shoten zenjin soon... gonna send daimoku to him!!!
it's onli been a day and i have so much to crap about? lolz...
today van's last paper... haha, hope she pulled through fine... shld b ok la... she's got it in her... lolz...
am i getting addicted to apple cider? feel so uncomfortable when i can't get it... maybe it's just a psychological thing ba... the fear of my arteries getting clogged up ba... now i'm even afraid to go consult Dr. Ling about my blood pressure... i fear the answer... >.<
will i become schizophrenic? lolz... dunno why... suddenly thought about it... cuz i used to have this habit of talking to myself... nowadays not so often le la... and was thinking to myself... if this is to continue without control, will it develop to something more serious? cuz i dun think anybody in the right sense of mind goes around talking to himself... speaking of which... i rmb one of boon han's earliest ideas about his script for huang cheng... this schizophrenic guy sitting in a park with his face buried in his hands... then he suddenly feels someone tapping him on the shoulder and looks up to see this pretty girl looking down at him and asking him if he's all right... then they slowly become friends and eventually go into a relationship... the guy finds out he's schizophrenic only when he takes a photo with her sometime later... onli to find out that when the photo was developed onli he was there... the girl was merely created by his schizophrenia... eeks... haha...
maybe i'll write a play again someday... when i have the time and inspiration... hee~ ^_^
i've been observing this effect for some time le... every time i wanna do something right or useful... sansoshima sure to set in... i will feel lazy, my head will hurt, my stomach will hurt, something will crop up etc etc etc... when i force myself to overcome these obstacles and do what i believe is right, it usually benefits me... and now it seems, whenever i meet obstacles, a reflex action is immediately triggered off and i know it will be something that will definitely benefit me, be in the long run or short term...
the workload is already pouring in, despite today being the second day of the third term... tho it's really expected, now that the A's are inching uncomfortably... i really must start getting used to this amount of work... take it in my stride and stop whining...
i'm quite happy with my GP grade this time round for the common test... i improved quite a bit for my compo paper, considering that has always been my downfall, despite ms. p saying that it's supposed to be the easier paper to score in... oh well, going by her standards, what i got for my paper 2 is quite a good grade le... but can't stop here... must continue to improve... my paper 1 was the disappointing one... half expected it la... wrote out of point... quite impressed ms. p was still willing to give me that grade... but i'm finally beginning to see the light in GP le... i have hope! lolz...
good health is never appreciated until it is lost... is it stress that is contributing to all these illnesses affecting me? or are these illnesses making me feel stressed out? well, whichever the chicken or egg, i really gotta do something about it soon...
being with S8 guys is more comfortable now... wonder if yi yi feels pugnacious... LOLZ... mayb nt in terms of the height ba... more of... oh well, private joke... haha...
for the first time in my life, i'm actually happy that the holidays are over... can't believe it, since when have holidays been so stressful? actually i shld consider myself very lucky le yeah? other ppl having common tests dis week but i've already finished mine... in fact, i got this sinking feeling chem mcq gonna get back tml... hope our class didnt disappoint mdm tay...
talked quite a bit to bin hao today... hope he's ok... reli goin thru a rough time now... walked wif him ard jp jz now lookin for pda... den talked lorz... hope wad i said made sense... n wuz constructive... hahaha...
brought junhong over to syc ytd too... hope he gort learn sth frm mi... conclusion: i suck at teaching maths... chem is still my strong sub...
while i might say so many things serve as a reminder for me... i believe it is ultimately myself who choose to see that these things serve as a reminder... it ultimately boils down to me... if i choose to see it that way, the victim ultimately will be me and nobody else...
i muz have true happiness in life... onli then can i go on to truly n sincerely experience other things in life...
listening to my discman brightens up my mood for the day!!! hahaha...
to all those who are takin common tests and still have the time to visit my blog... GOOD LUCK!!!
SD concert finally over!!! GREAT SUCCESS!!! haha... we've hit our targets for both the dialogues and the number of ppl attending the concert... so shuang~!!! i tink alex n i put up quite a gd show in our item... haha... a couple of mistakes here n there but i tink e overall effect wuz still gd... bleahx... hahaha... afta tt went back to bouganvillea room to watch e nus musical... dey rocked la~! omg... their performance so farnie n entertainin... dey meant e first part to sound old and dey reli did... changed to red tee for huo li dai dong later on... found out i wuz wearin e same shirt as tony, si yi's fren... haha... managed to get alex to participate in it too... found out tt he's quite a master of cold jokes... in between performances kept hearin him wif his cold jokes... *shivers... lolz... den he mesmerise e other gers wif his piano skills lorz... canon in d, the entertainer, moonlight sonata, guan huai fang shi... tt jukebox oso limited la haha... kept repeatin... den afta concert he rushed off, n we went over to mac for supper... den over there cool down a bit le la... ate a bit... chatted... waited for jiayang... haha... actualli quite bad of mi la... asked him to send mi home, cuz he reli lives nowhere near mi... but still asked him... den he sent those who lived out of e way home lorz... joel, rachel n mi... dun regret askin him to send mi home la... had a reli loooooooooooonnnnnnggggggg dialogue wif him afta he dropped off joel n rachel... continued for abt another 45 mins afta he reached my place... sat in his car n talked... he reli cleared up a lot of things in my mind lorz... n showed mi e way for mani things... reli reli helped mi so much... thnx ever so much jiayang... ure reli a veri gr8 fren... =)
common tests start tml... chem paper... so screwed... haha...
today's oprah winfrey show has bin other inspiring one... how can anyone weigh 763 pounds? tat's like abt 300 kg... omg... i saw e guy on tv n my jaw dropped... n he slimmed down allllllllll the way till he weighed onli abt 200 pounds? 500 pounds of weight lost!!! tt's lyk... abt 200 kg? if someone can do tt, why cant i even lose 2 kg? itz a decision u haf to make... once u say u try... u've failed... n tt's wad i've bin sayin all dis while... so guilty... but today's show reli inspired mi... there were other guests on her show too... oso wif weight problems of outrageous proportions... in e end bcom half my size... haha... my thighs look so petite now tt i've seen tt poor fella wif 763 pounds... makes mi shudder jz tinkin of it...
SD CONCERT COMING!!!!!!!! 17th n 18th june... dis comin sat n sun... pls do come down k? n come punctually, as im performin in e pre-show on e 18th... hahaha... feelin a bit nervous... but i tink alex feels even more so den i do i bliv... haha...
763 pounds!!! can u bliv it?get out of my life...
m i doomed to failure for my upcomin common tests? itz days away and a mountain load worth of revision awaits... gone case le... if i can pass everythin dis time i veri hapi le... well, mayb nt... let's see... chem muz definitely get my A... will shoot myself if i dun... maths... er... a C? *fingers crossed... physics can pass veri gd le... mayb a D or E ba... bio... i reli haf no idea... i luv bio... but so much to memorise... n i can nv seem to hit e keywords... i tink can get C or D veri gd le... oh no... looks like my promo grades~! CACE... eeks... learnt my lesson le... muz start preparin for prelims asap... mayb slack afta common tests r over for a wk... den start on my revision for prelims n a's le... reli veri veri late...
went out wif 4d1 '04 today... expended so much of my time... mei yin told mi we'd b eating pizza hut or jap food at clementi... in e end went to bugis for steamboat... urgh... sure gain another 3 kg... >.<... yuan xin came along wif us today... can anorexia haf such a drastic effect on someone? i cldnt recognise her when i 1st saw her today... she's reli extremely thin... she's so much more matured n health-conscious now... talked to her a bit on e train home... she's reli so freakin matured... haha... feel so self-conscious when i talked to her... but she's still nice... haha...
tryin hard to find a jack skellington plushie tt i lyk... call mi childish but i reli lyk him... haha... bought my 2 hp straps n key chain of jack skellington e other day... tied one to my pencil case... looks gr8~!!! tho it looks a bit lyk a name tag, esp wif e word 'Jack' at e back... but i tink itz looks cool... esp e one on my hp... saw a jack skellington wallet today... but decided against buyin it... gotta noe when to draw e line...
caught a few mins of x-men 2 when it aired... haven caught x-men 3 yet... tho i've heard plenty of spoilers... hahaha... hmm... x-men 2... wuz veri touchin when jean sacrificed herself... cyclops cried... felt like cryin myself... lolz... cant blame mi... itz touchin...
Event: Funkadelic - The Best of Every Decade
Date: 17th and 18th June 2006
Time: 7pm to 9.30 pm
Venue: Singapore Soka Association Headquarters (SSCC) located at Tampines St. 81
Cost: FOC!!! Although admission by ticket only...
ppl pls rmb to come for e sd concert!!! i've given all e details above... pls do come... if u nid tix pls do come n look for mi n i'll help u get dem... pls do come yeah?
jz added music to my blog... an all-time favourite of mine... those who played FF VIII shld find dis familiar... Eyes On Me by Faye Wong... woots... love it loads... haha...
today early mornin went for sd concert briefin... hu e heck plays canon in d at 'funkadelic'? :S... siao de... haha... hu else? yours truly... jia lat... SWE called mi up jz now... my audition dis comin sunday at 10.30 am... how? haiz... tink i'll screw it up... now tt a's r comin i dun tink i can commit aniwae... ctawe wuz already a lesson learnt... dun repeat it...
world cup fever has hit again... bets r spreadin round lyk mad... ppl r catchin e matches online if dey dun haf cable... stuff lidat... haha... i jz watch for fun la... those matches channel 5 airs... nt a veri big fan of soccer... still gort jio la, sometimes... but nt lyk all e siao frens ard mi... lolz... openin match coasta rica lost to germany 4-2... i wuz lyk -.-''' i predicted germany wld win la but by 2 goals? :S oh well... tt's old news... (oxymoron)... now gort so mani more matches comin up... reli haven gort e energy to go n jio all... somemore common tests inchin uncomfortably close to mi...
so sry wei han and su xin... haha... if u read dis u'll noe wad i mean... =P... lolz...
ever felt someone's gripping your head in a vice-like grip and spinning you round n round n round n round n round n...
GP common test finally over... oh well... gave it my best shot... found out a bit abt my clzmates... their stomachs growl louder den mine... sat beside david durin e test... halfway thru paper 2... "Rrrr... Rrrr..." turned to him n gave him tt o.O look... haha... he jz grinned at mi n continued writin... chee kiat's stomach oso grumbled n he wuz sittin 2 seats away frm mi... -.-... cant u guys like grab a bite b4 e paper? lolz... quite hilarious tho...
this fear of nt havin enuff time to finish my revision for common test... sianzation... onli started maths today... forgotten ALL my differentiation... sianz... i still got phy n bio lei... n those r big subs... ='(... oh well... blame it all on mi... who ask mi to procastinate?
finally had our first practice for sd concert today... met alex at 3.20... went mei ming's hse... i sounded like shit... as always... gdness noes how im gona show myself in front of e audience 2 wks frm now... -.-
e area where my right kidney is hurtin... y do i haf so mani aches? cuz u dun exercise u dun drink enuff water u eat too much etc etc etc... get e picture?
ever felt someone's gripping your head in a vice-like grip and spinning you round n round n round n round n round n...
ASD CONNEXION~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!! had loads n loads of fun today, tho at a price... tho who've seen mi in person will noe wad i mean... haha... reached there a bit late... 9.45 am... den got briefed by ting ting... received my team leader tag and score card... paired up wif stella... haiz... veri sad... in e end nt enuff ppl came, so my team n rf's team n e team leaders jz merged into another team la... my team joined water, jj n min ling's grp... haha... nt bad la... had a lot of fun... ^_^... jj still as wacky as ever... LOLZ... pail game... wah... leg cramp... lolz... supported e pail for so long... den kept cheerin n singin song... haha... so high... den went on to findin numbers... urgh... spark team stole our number, otherwise we'd haf made it across so smoothly... den at jack n jill... qi sheng n i knocked each other out... -.-... but our team still won, kudos to chelsea and jj!!! den in water volley... we like filled out 500ml bottle wif one bag of water? hahaha... jianli rox~! but in e end we onli came in 3rd... but still veri happy... ^_^ afta tt... slacked... talked to daryl... rj alumni... haha... he's a TOTAL FREAK when it comes to band... first time c a person can get so hyped up abt BAND~! woohoo~! talked lyk nobody's business abt band wif him... den finally went to shower... e public one wuz totally packed, so we went to e one at jianli's academy... found another 2 freaks who, like me, can talk endlessly abt band... kaili and dixon... kaili is a trombonist... onli found out today... but seldom play le la... he oso quite siao abt band de wor... kan bu chu... lolz... hahaha... last yr hosted dis wif renna... dis yr carys n jingyi host... nt bad... ;) haha... haiz... still got loads of stuff to type... but reli lazy to type it all out...
gp common test dis tues... sian diaoz... -.-'''
nxt time, i'd appreciate it if u got e facts right first b4 givin mi tt kinda farkin attitude, you bitch...
my head feelin eva so tight again... if my mouth doesnt stop movin, den my organs reli will stop moving... ='( was watchin the Oprah Winfrey show jz now... she had dis guest, cant rmb her name, but she wrote this bk "French women don't get fat"... i watched n i started laughin but found tt wad she said actually made sense! we human beings eat 30% more than wad we actually need. so if n when u do eat, take your time to savour it. dun gobble it down. take ur time, savour it, smell it, enjoy it, let it ooze over tongue n tingle all ur tastebuds. ur stomach takes 20 mins to sense that you've actually eaten something, so give it time to react. *sheepish grinz... French ppl hardly get fat, despite limited exercise cuz dey WALK everywhere they go. gyms go out of business in France~! mayb dey do exercise a bit on their own but i dun recall hearin tt... if u wana indulge in wad u like, go ahead! but kip e proportions small... dun u feel that when u eat something in such a large portion, u get sick of it? it doesnt become so appealing animore. so cut back... shrink e proportion... slowly savour tt treat... it'll make it as appealing the nxt time u haf it, if nt more... i've got nothing to lose except fat, so gonna gif it a shot... y nt? haha... my bld pressure muz go down... muz hit at least 120 systolic...
band prac tml... gona practise wif alex for e concert b4 tt... hopefully an lt will b available... kudos to all hu haf answered my SOS... reli appreciate it... thnx so much...
Connexion dis sunday~!!!!!!!! so hapi!!! haha... hosted last yr's one wif renna... wonder hu's hostin it dis yr... j1s i expect...
why do i refuse to help myself, even though i noe e root of e problem?
