Thursday, October 26, 2006
6 days left to GP... i really dunno how i want to feel now... really all mixed up inside... i dun even know how i should go about preparing for my GP... i've been reading up whatever i can... then today consulted ms. p... once again, i got tekaned by her... but i appreciate it... better now than later... yew hien and chee kiat said we're going her house this saturday... hmm... better go there prepared... and get ready for what she is going to say... i don't care how much she scolds or laughs or nags anymore... i need it... i'm desperate and i need to do well for this exam...
today consulted mr chu again... this time i think i really irritated him le... tho he never show it la... but somehow can tell... but he's really mr nice guy la... no matter what i asked him he has the patience to write out and explain to me... think i've said this umpteen times le... but i dun get tired of it... he's really been a great help... dun be afraid of long questions in maths... they just might be the easiest ones to do... dun let the long long lines of words cheese you off... keep calm... read the question properly and you'll be able to do it...
met chee kiat and yew hien after gp consultation... talked a bit about maths and gp... we need to bring up the queries and arguments to ms. p... but we still lack the courage... simply because we're still afraid of her shelling... LOLZ... actually no laughing matter la... must prepare and go in for the exam with the best state of mind...
again chatted with mummy for quite a while just now... as usual, she really inspired me and helped me see a lot of things... same with wan xiang yesterday... msged him after the asd daimokukai... he really also took the time to explain a lot of stuff and shared with me an experience which really inspired me la... very very grateful that i have this great good fortune to have these wonderful leaders around to guide me during this crucial period... i came to JJC on a mission... i did not leave ACJC for no good reason... i'm sure i came to JJC on a mission adn that mission is to shakubuku kelvin, bin hao and meng qing... just like i keeping praying everyday in my prayers... i must achieve ultimate victory in this examination... i must show this great infinite power of this mystic law... i will bring this faith to them by showing them this great actual proof which i will show through my success in this examination... that is the faith which i have...
there's still time... one week is still time... i will accomplish it~!!!
finally received my enlistment letter a few days ago... 27th april 2007 BMTC school 2... anyone else enlisted on that day can please tell me? urgh... so far haven't been able to find anyone else that has the same enlistment day as me lei... so far all of my friends enlisted in december or november... hmm... haiz... maybe cuz i pes C9? aiya whatever la... but just as well... i want to go into relief teaching in my 3.5 months of free time... see if i really want to make a career out of it...
mugged with vanessa and you shun today... haha... piaed gp and physics... urgh... must push my physics up much higher... really cannot afford to do badly in it... so little time left... i really am cutting it a little too finely le...
been falling sick quite frequently recently... the running nose has been coming on and off on and off... sianz... must be in tip top condition to sit for my exams... not getting enough rest... not surprising considering i've been sleeping late these few weeks...
starting to burn out as well... really getting very sick and tired of looking at my tys and notes and goodness knows what... i really just want to do this and be over with it...
on the bright side... got quite a number of activities lined up during the december hols... dunno if i've mentioned it... gort s8 chalet... gort 4d1 chalet... gort prom... dunno if they intend to have an after prom party... vanessa's clique going clubbing... wonder if s8 wants to go clubbing... haha... drag kelvin out of his house and go... LOLZ... really looking very forward to it... ^_^... oh and of course... before i forget... there's the sd kenshu... wahaha... last year at syc... this year migrate to jurong kaikan... hahaha... it's like THE place for me can? hope kalel can make it... last year's was fun!!! and this year i'm sure is gonna be even MORE fun and meaningful... just make sure i don't catch a cold like last year... =p i still haven't forgotten the tissue... hahaha...
i'm going to keep my spirits up... not going to sink into a state of worry... this is just 'A' levels... i'm going to emerge victorious... ULTIMATE VICTORY~!!!!!
just received my enlistment letter... 27th april... omg... so late... but just as well... now i can go into relieve teaching and see if i really want to make it my lifelong career... den can slowly tink abt it in my 2 yrs in army... hmm... also will determine my choice of course in uni...
muggin out wif van tml... reli hope it'll be constructive because i have already wasted so much time at home and i still don't feel worried about it...
my head is starting to spin again... is my blood pressure rising again? should be, i guess... especially since i've been doing nothing but eat and slack at home these few days... the only exercise i get is by walking to the kitchen...
i will achieve ultimate victory in my 'A' levels!!!
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
mummy just talked to me for so long... really very inspired by her... and i've finally learnt to let go of this heavy weight in my heart after so long... i'm not going to worry about my a levels anymore... i'm going to chant hard and mug to the best of my ability and go in for the exams... give it my best shot and don't regret... i still have the power to change my future... i must cherish it well... i'm sure i will walk the path that is most suitable for me in all aspects...
still haven't gotten my enlistment letter yet... sianzation... dunno why ar... i'm feeling so excited about receiving my enlistment letter... lolz... really hope i'll go in in january... mid or late january... not too late not too early...
can't help but feel envious at times... it's inevitable k...
meeting van this sat to mug... woohoo... haha... finally found a mugging mate... haven't seen her for such a long time le... hope she'll be a good one to mug with... i'm sure she will la... she wants good grades just as much as i do, i'm sure...
nerd alert... geek alert... haha...
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
can't believe i'm still blogging so often when i'm lagging behind so much... only did 3 papers today... i'm actually getting my maths papers done faster than my GP papers... woots...
and i've been getting these splitting headaches recently... urgh... just throbs and throbs like nobody's business... sanshoshima at work... i'll throttle it~!!!
i must learn to make love to the subjects i detest... GP... physics... maths... the more i detest them, the more i will embrace them and make love to them... know their every inch like the back of my hand and make sure i score like nobody's business in these papers... watch me~!!!
should i ask mdm chee for consultation this week? do i have anything to consult her on? plenty i believe... but like mr low said, i'd better collate my stuff first before going to him... not that i'll approach him anymore, for that matter... -.-''' still peeved with his attitude when he gives me consultation...
should i invite ms. p to go for the Gandhi, King, Ikeda exhibition? i think it's really an excellent exhibition for her to take a look at, considering that she teaches GP... speaking of which... an interview with Dr. Lawrence Edward Carter Senior was aired this morning on Primetime Morning... talked about whether peacekeeping through ways like dialogue is still relevant in today's world... then Dr. Carter aired his views about how Dr. Daisaku Ikeda was one of the most, if not the most, active people who has been promoting peace through peaceful measures such as dialogue since 1960 and he has been leading an entire organisation present in more than 188 countries and territories in the world in this movement for peace, known as the Soka Gakkai International, and has been carrying out actions for his beliefs towards peace, rather than NATO... and most people have overlooked or have refused to look at all that this great man has done... and just when Dr. Carter was getting into it, they cut him off, claiming that they had 'run out of time'... so you arrange with a famous professor from Georgia for an interview and you give him a measly 10 minutes? how sensible...
i will achieve ultimate victory!!!
first day of study break... went back to consult ah bee and wee yong... cleared up quite a number of doubts le... mr chu reli is veri generous wif his time... despite teaching j1 yet he's still willing to spare me time for consultation... m i feeling guilty? haha... but i like his teaching, cuz he's got the patience to explain every little silly thing to me... unlike mrs leong... haiz... same goes to mdm chee... i prefer going to her for consultation rather den mr low cuz he seems to be so impatient every time i consult him, while mdm chee always has the patience to explain every little thing i dun understand... mdm chee cant handle tutorials and large lecture groups la... but she's great when you go for one on one consultation wif her... she really has the patience to explain it to you and make sure all your doubts are clarified...
i really must be able to push myself so much more than this... i must achieve ultimate victory in my 'A' levels... not just any victory but an ultimate victory~!!!
some of my friends have gotten their enlistment letter liaoz... hope i dun get mine so soon... i dun wana go in so early... some time in january would be ideal la... preferably after the chinese new year... let me enjoy my december in peace and celebrate with my entire family before i go in and shave my head... am i scared of the army? guess so... go in and cry and lose weight... where else can you get a better deal? they pay me to slim down!!! hahaha... yeah sure... laugh all you want now... later go in le see how you cry...
"unhappiness arises not because of your adverse circumstances; it arises from your own negativity" - Daisaku Ikeda
just got news that a friend of mine has just lost his mother to cancer... so saddening... haiz... really makes me think of how delicate life is... ever since i came to jc i have come to encounter so many deaths around me... really makes me very sad when they occur and makes me appreciate my loved ones around me so much more... and i never fail to include a prayer to all those who have lost their close ones because i cannot even begin to imagine how it would be like and the pain they would experience, especially when you lose your mother or father or a sibling... i have never experienced that kind of pain and may i never experience it for years and years to come... to all those who have experienced it... Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo...
on a lighter note... i've finally changed my blog skin... suitable for viewing in 800 X 600... i know not many people view it in this resolution anymore but i do and i worked it out on this resolution, so yeah... having daniel radcliffe and emma watson staring into each other's eyes for too long isn't a good thing...
i actually managed to do the vjc 2006 GP prelim paper 1... not an easy paper... phew...
i will survive... i WILL emerge VICTORIOUS~!!!!!
oh well... it's been almost a day since my birthday... thanks ever so much to all who remembered... reli reli touched tt u still bother to rmb despite e bz periods we're all goin thru now... haha... mummy bot mi 4 small slices of cake from coffeebean... love my tiramisu... rather den haf 1 big cake n onli haf 1 flavour which u mite nt reli enjoy... haha... love my family... ^_^
jia lat... m i startin to lose my momentum? i cant afford to do tt lei... damn... y is it so difficult to transit to other subs... did no work at all today... so totally wasted... sianz... n i still want my A's? u're reli NATO u noe tt?
tml's e sd mtg at tbsc n asd mooncake festival celebration at syc... lookin forward to it~!
the haze is reli choking me to death... if it continues to rise somemore i reli duno wad i'll do... im already havin to resort to wearing a mask at home otherwise my throat dries up n i cant breathe properly... damn... pls let e rains come... hail n snow if possible... urgh...
kelvin msged mi a couple of days ago n asked mi if i wanted to go runnin when e study break starts... shld i? sure i've gort loads of work to do but i cant possibly drown myself in my notes n tys 24/7? besides, my stamina currently is like negative le can...
dunno y... of all days to haf mood swing it had to be on my special day... to e extent i nearly cried... sheesh... oh well... nth has patience for self-pity except paper... so y bother...
e brain muz start thinking... e hand muz start writing... e paper muz start gettin filled up... e grades muz start goin up n hit e ceiling... break a hole in it if possible...
finally developed on boon han's idea and wrote a short play abt it couple of weeks back... pity it wasn't deep enough... but good enough for me, considering i haven written anything of this nature for years and i took onli 3 days to produce it... nt braggin hor... nth to brag abt aniwae... nth to b proud of... jz sth to vent my feelins on when i wasnt feelin too gd... so seeing sadistic stuff makes mi feel betta? hahaha...
i reli miss my instruments... love dem to bits... gonna buy dem as soon as i possibly can... an instrument isn't an instrument unless you own it, play it, clean it, cherish it, love it and let it stay by your side... i want a flute n piccolo of my own~!!! ^_^ hahaha... shld i join band fest this yr? see how ba, after e a's... last yr was still quite a gd experience for mi... dis yr muz b betta~!!!!!!!! tt is IF i join...
memories are dear things for you to hold on to and cherish when the big thundercloud is above n causes a ray of sunshine to peep out at u and make u hold on tt bit more longer before the rain clears...
i reli want that jack skellington plushie... hope i can get it tml at hbf... sigh...
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
itz reli nt gd to jz focus on one or two subs during revision... u reli nid to space out n move on to other subs... bin focussing way too much on maths n phy recently... muz move on to bio n chem soon... muz show actual proof wif my results... i will~!!!! WATCH ME~!
so tiring sometimes... yet i refuse to sleep early... -.-'''
oh well... time to get some shuteye... jz a random post...
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
itz gettin late but i reli feel veri compelled to make this blog entry... so angry wif wad ms p said today and after talkin to boon han n richard... suddenly i find tt what she said may nt always b right...
students in rjc clock a minimum of 500 hours of cip... sure enuff, we were stunned by the figure... but after talking to richard, find that she's reli talkin thru her hat... sure,
some of them do get it but not ALL for heaven's sake... boon han also had a pt... i mean... yeah sure they clock in 500 hours of cip... but how mani of those 500 hours were quality hours? did you reli mean dem? i can vouch for this esp since i'm guilty of it... im sure everyone is guilty of it, in some way or another... did u do tt cip willingly or begrudgingly? sure, everybody does flag day... but do we all feel the same way? do u jz collect a few coins and slack? or do you do your best to reach out to ppl and feel the sense of satisfaction when the collector feels the weight of your collecting tin, smiles at u and says "thanks! this is a very good tin!"? both give you 4 hours of cip... but was it quality time spent? of course, we're not all angels... i'm sure the unwillingness will come in at one point or another... it's onli natural... but it jz seems a pity that so mani ppl onli focus their sights on the quantity... hardly ani1 talks abt the quality of cip animore, except a rare few... haiz...
dunno why im suddenly so agitated abt dis... just sparked off by wad tt woman said i guess... aniwae, now a's more impt... shldnt b wasting my time n energy tinkin abt dis... but still... food for thought... does the heart no longer sell in singapre?
are there no good blogskins about band? haiz... bin trying so hard to find a good blogskin for flute or band as a whole... most are crappy or not my taste... sianz... what am i doing looking for a blogskin at this point of time? shouldn't i be revising? aiya, ppl oso nid to rest de ma...
bin chionging my phy n maths dis past wk... improvement? cant reli tell... but understand more things le la i spose... shld i shift my attention to bio dis wk? >.< abt 1 more mth to a's... will i make it?
speaking of instruments, i reli miss my flute and piccolo like mad... reli... haiz... cant wait till i buy my own instrument... >.< ^_^
i will fight on~! watch me... i will get my A's!!!
