Tuesday, February 27, 2007
i finally believe in the saying "Good things come to those who wait"... but oso cuz my prayers r strong la... i'm finally goin back to ctss to teach le!!! teach chem some more!!! wahaha... but i guess dis time i reli irritated mr murali too much le... oops...
A's results release dis fri... OFFICIAL!!! haha... 2.30pm... sooooooooo freakin nervous... tink abt wad i wrote for a's and shudder...
bin talkin to jiun jia a lot recently... hey gal if u read dis muz jia you k? =D
meetin andrew tml... haha...
Saturday, February 24, 2007
isn't it high time that i let go of this obsession for teaching and look for another job sensibly? but given my character, i noe won't b able to achieve it... nt tat i want to in e 1st place... i reli wana go back to teaching... love tt job... is it a crime to want to do sth tt i love so so so much? i noe i've been pesterin murali too much to help mi ask if i can haf choon mei's job... actually nt reli a lot wad... i mean... an sms once in a while shldnt b a lot rite? i jz wana teach for these 2 mths b4 i enlist... -.- and now tt dey've gort a maths n chem tchr leavin, it'll b e best post for mi to fill, considerin those r e subs tt i eventually wana teach... i've grown to like to teach maths... o lvl maths aniwae... i reli wana get a taste of teachin chemistry... i REALLY REALLY REALLY jz wana go back to ctss to teach... argh... i noe to all u guys out there, u muz b tinkin y is dis idiot so obsessed wif teachin? is teachin so fun? to mi it is... IT IS!!! lolz...
bin slackin at home most of e time nowadays... waitin for my a's to arrive... sam's bin pressurisin mi to gif him a treat if i gort 4 A's... tt's wad i'd wana get... tt's wad every1 wld wana get... 4 A's...
after readin kai liang's blog suddenly find myself missing my sec 4 class so much... still rmb our last captain ball game in sch... haha... pe period overlap into history but tt day ms low i tink absent... den we played for 3 periods solid... omg... tt wuz like e most shuang game i've ever played... den finally at e end durin recess we jz collapsed at e tree outside e canteen nxt to e quadrangle... brings back so mani memories... >.< pity i dun haf tt mani fond memories wif my s8... sad...
may my A's results come quick and may my A's come with it...
Thursday, February 22, 2007
The familiar sulphurous smell wafted around him, ensnaring him, binding him in its deathly grip. He struggles with all his might, fighting it, unwilling to yield to it. A blood-curdling laugh resonates around him, draining his strength with fear. At last, with a billow of the dark cloak, the Grimreaper materialises. The Grimreaper raises a hand, curls a finger, moving him nearer, exuding evil of the purest kind with every movement. With a rattling breath, the Grimreaper inhales, taking his soul, bit by bit. Pain gnaws at every single bit of flesh on his body, as his soul is ripped brutally from him. The corners of the Grimreaper's lips twitch, dripping evil from each. With the billow of dark cloak and smell from hell, the Grimreaper vanishes.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
itz kinda late... but anyway... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!! hahaha... dis yr, as usual, nt exactly eventful... tho goin over to my paternal grandmother's hse on e 2nd dae totally rox my world~!!! lolz... my paternal side's gort quite a large number of ppl... den my newly wed cousin n my new... er... how shld i address her... cousin-in-law? lolz... aniwae her name's geraldine... she looks like esther lee la can... den yalor... dis time chatted more wif my female cousins... talked a lot wif wan fen dis time round... seldom sae more den 2 sentences wif her lei... haha... dis yr duno y suddenly gort lots of things to talk abt... LOVE MY FAMILY!!! wan yan brought her bf too... i tink he gort scared by my family's high spirits le la...
feel all moody all of a sudden... bin watchin n tinkin too much le la... haf i lost faith in relationships? HAHAHA... wad m i saein... hu m i to sae tt when i've nv even bin in one b4? but seriously... as i look at my surroundings... i start losing faith in ever seein a happy ending... =S y do i kip boggling my mind abt all dis? are fat, podgy guys doomed to loneliness? must ppl always shun u when dey see tt u ooze n ooze? sure, dey always sae... u'll find e one for u... yeah sure...
actually i wldnt mind bein an agony aunt... it's a nice feelin when ppl trust and are willin to come to u to talk abt their troubles... i'm more den willin to lend an ear... both if necessary... n if dey want it... i'd b glad to offer my advice too... =) had dis experience quite a few times le... n i like it... haha...
when are the A's results gona b released? urgh...
i still can't believe i'm doing this... is this the result of the pain that's been inflicted on me? if it is, you have to shoulder part, if not all, of the responsibility...
Saturday, February 17, 2007
can't help but feel i've gort dis gaping hole inside mi now tt i've finally put e full stop in... oh well... i'm sure this feelin will pass soon enough... jz hope number 3 doesnt come along so soon...
haven gone for asd activities for veri long time... recently dun haf i tink... ya... onli exciting thing comin up i guess wld b chingay ba... dis yr soka's in e finale item again~!!! hahaha... dis yr nv get involved in it at all... haha... so dun feel attached to it... but shld b worth watchin... it always is!!!
the green-eyed monster rears its ugly head yet again... tryin to slay it... but it's lifespan seems inexplicably long... try to keep it under control ba...
agony aunt? nah... jz willin to offer advice if they want it...
rumour tt a's will b released on fri... Disclaimer: RUMOUR!!! nth official yet... freaking nervous...
i can't chat wif zhenning... totally freezes over man... i can chat wif jiun jia np... but... lolz...
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL OUT THERE!!! if you're attached, hope you had a great day wif your partner today... if you're single like me, dun fret... let's celebrate our individuality!!! for 1 is nonetheless still a WHOLE number yah? haha... well it is, accordin to mei yin's msg... LOLZ...
i've finally mustered the courage to write it... haf i been cruel? been hurtful? i guess so... but it's a relief to finally be able to completely let go of it...
wonder if my 2A/B2 apologised to janet... they'd better, or they'll nv hear e last of it from mi...
Monday, February 12, 2007
i noe i shldnt complain... esp since i've gone back to my old workplace... but babysitting jz sucks big time man... u sit in there for hours doin nothing and kill urself wif boredom... no doubt i still earn e same amount but it's reli terrible... some more today relieving malay n tamil classes... mdm roseza and renuka nt in sch today... -.-''' hopefully dey'll gif mi sth i can teach tml...
jianli jz approached mi abt someone... shant sae much here... hopefully i can b of some help... i'm sure i can at least encourage dis person... =) yep...
gave junhong, chloe n anson a treat e other day at vila'ge... haha... my favourite haunt... but gettin sick of it liaoz... mayb ikea will b a betta choice nxt time ba... so proud of my juniors... shan't disclose their scores here... but i tink dey've reli done well!!!
i reli wana teach... literally teach... lolz...
haf i let go? nt totally... but i'm almost there... n when i'm there... i'll b able to write tt letter... i'll make sure i write it...
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY MEI YIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, February 08, 2007
m i reli becomin schizophrenic? i hear this little voice in my head all e time... u shld do dis... u shldn't do tt... u shld haf done e other... y did it come out dis way... sometimes i reli drive myself crazy...
i'm lettin myself drown in my memories... both gd and bad... i'm so convinced abt wad i tink tt ppl will find it easier to lick their elbows den to convince mi of another pt of view... life is nt abt e past... it's abt e present n future... i nid to learn to let go... ha... let go... something i've been tellin myself since lower sec... when haf i actually succeeded? i nid to do my human revolution...
i've been lookin forward to watchin e 9pm show on channel 8 nowadays... it doesn't bring across ani meaningful msg... it's nt even realistic... but i like it for all e silly shit itz got in it... frm e love between e 2 protagonists to e rivalry between all e big guys... what's wrong wif mi?
i can't believe i actually managed to go back to ctss to do relief teachin at e beginnin of dis yr... i can't believe i volunteered to go for the sec 2 ASPIRE camp... i can't believe i sang duets wif shiling at e camp... i can't believe i actually fell in love wif all my 4 classes tt i taught... i can't believe that i enjoyed missing lunch to prepare my lessons for jerks tt probably wun appreciate it anyway... i can't believe that i'm missing all of this soooooooooooooooo much...
i nid to tink abt sth else... a's results? kinda nervous abt it... esp my gp... dun haf gd impressions of wad i wrote for both papers... muz get a gd grade or i will die...
qi xun asked mi to pop over to syc tml... help gif e new graduands a preview of jc life... to b honest im nt exactly enthu abt it... esp since it wuz sprung on mi so last minute... but i noe i shldnt grumble... i cld haf said i dun wana go aniwae... but i noe e more reluctant i m abt sth... e greater e rewards later on...
it hurts to be me...
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
anxiety is thick in the air, as the 'O' level results are going to be released soon... mani sae itz dis fri... duno if official or nt... tinkin of popping by wif fiona... haha... haiz... tt means 'A' level results will b hot on itz heels... -.-''' dun even wana tink abt it rite now... jz chant n pray for it... more interested in my visit back to ctss dis fri tho... ppl go back c tchrs... i go back c students... well... i've said it b4 n i'll sae it again... i love teaching!!!
talked to junhong jz now oso... if i reli do go into teaching will i ever regret it? he told mi mr chiang regrettin it now... i agree... he told us so personally... jz cuz i love it now doesnt mean i'll come to love it 10 yrs down e road n by tt time will it b too late to back out? hmm... tt's y i wana haf a taste of how long-term teachin is like... im grateful for e 1st 3 wks of relief teachin... but i barely warmed e seat b4 i had to leave... reli muz get into relief teachin again for dis 2.5 mths left... reli nid dis experience... I MUST GET IT!!!
sigh... so mani events coming up soon... a's r gona b released soon, tho gdness noes when... valentine's day comin soon too... duno wad to get for my fellow RTs... lolz... CNY jz ard e corner too... urgh... tt means gainin another 3kg at least... lolz... not tt im not used to it... haha...
SD anniversary ytd was great!!! hahaha... saw so mani of my asd comrades again... forgot dixon's notes... as usual... haha... danced to lian ai-ing... had so much fun!!! went off to makan wif kaili, meiyi, min ling, nadia and stephanie afta tt... din noe dis ppl had so much madness in dem too... wahaha... talk abt drinkin, chalets, clubbin... hahaha... totally hilarious...
m i perfectionistic? yes, i guess i am... lolz... haha... whatever...
Friday, February 02, 2007
been chatting a lot wif my 3D1 recently... jiun jia... zhen ning... jz chatted like ages wif zhen ning jz now...
found out quite a bit about 3D1... they're not as innocent as they look afta all... wahaha... reli miss teaching dem so much!!! (ok, how mani times haf i said tt?) i muz prevent myself from throwing markers in class... guess tt's wad's gotten nicholas to dao mi so much... accordin to zhen ning... my fault...
dey bitched quite a bit abt some of their tchrs too... hmm... wun say anithin here... i still wana go back to do teaching u noe... =P
love fiesta tml!!! haha... goin wif my ct flute section... miss dem loads too... go back poke abt... see all my tchrs... see all my jrs... spend a lot of $$... haha...
i reli wana go back to ctss to do relief teaching... i love teaching. period.
