Listening to 'Two Worlds' from Tarzan now... haha andrew jz sent mi... rox la... same version as wad ctsb played... but of coz sounds miles betta... LOLZ... finished liaoz... now listenin to doraemon... i nt childish k... jz reliving my childhood... xiao ding dang~! haha...

here r my grades for term 2 and term 3 combined...
Biology: D
Physics: E
Chemistry: A
Maths C: D
looks lyk a familiar word doesn't it? DEAD~! gohonzon is signallin to mi liaoz... muz pia veri veri hard for promos...

You're reli startin to fukin piss mi off... get off... or else... jz cuz i dun usually react doesnt mean i wun... class rep big la... can go ard criticisin and luffin at ppl la... wait till u get a taste of ur own medicine adminstered sharply... den u'll reli noe the meanin of pain... and no1 will haf 2 do it... u will eventually feed urself wif it... jz u watch... grrrrrr...

goin debrah's hse dis fri for zadankai... wonder how it'll b... debrah said e speaker's gona b gd...

goin sp band concert dis thurs... ys jj and zq goin oso... hu else har? it'd betta b gd... but sp band standard quite high... so shld b gd la... lolz... wonder if ??? is goin... =p

Haha, jz realised how i shld revise for bio... I muz teach it... tot stella wad i knew abt dna and e central dogma processes... now i haf quite a clear cut idea abt wad it is liaoz wor... yeah~!

Now muz pia bio, phy and maths liaoz... i noe i can do it... now tt i dun haf chem to wori abt... EXEMPTED!!! haha... i reli hope mdm tay will recommend mi to do 'S' paper... i desperately nid to do chem s paper... tgt wif another sci de s paper... hopefully bio... but mi frens all sae bio s paper veri diff... but i nid to do my s papers... otherwise how to get scholarship? i sound veri ambitious i noe... but i aint gort a choice... my parents reli cant afford to send 2 children to uni... one can la... but reli gotta tink of my bro...

haha... wuz tinkin of e first few daes spent in jj... i tink it wuz afta orientation ba... we ctss guys went over to nearby mac to stuff our faces afta orientation camp... had loadsa fun at camp... den jie sheng initially wuz tinkin of goin poly... but changed his mind afta goin thru camp... lolz... lucky he did... otherwise he and cj wld nv haf found each other... do i sense a tinge of envy? yes i guess im kinda envious... hee~ wadeva!!! now's nt e time to tink of dis kinda thing... promos... promos... promos... itz time to work my guts out... and how ironic... today had sexuality ed lesson 3... whole clz wuz luffin away and reli enjoyin ourselves cuz we were talkin abt PDA in terms of intimacy... haha... quite an interestin lesson...

veri angry wif my bio... actualli ish pass de lorz... but duno y mcq muz convert to 20% and paper 2 muz convert to 80%... i.e. i fail... veri veri disappointed... and somemore my mcq grade is quite a decent one u noe... 32/40... best of my 3 sciences de mcq la... freak... veri agitated...

now moan and whine oso no use la... now tt i finally bitched enuff abt it... time to start work... i shall conquer promos~!!! i can do it!

xiao mei finally come back frm m'sia cycling trip liaoz... missed u xiao mei!!! haha... y nv msg ur liu jie tt u came back liaoz...

Got back some of my common test results... Totalli farked up... I'm sooooo disappointed wif myself dis time... Failed physics by 1%... no... less den tt... 0.21% onli i tink... and afta all e hard work i put and piaed and piaed for it... fail... where is the justice... i dun tink i'll do well for bio either... wrote crap for a lot of qns... e s2pid essay wuz a friggin 20 marks... guess im gona score a single digit for tt... haf an impending feeling of doom tt im gona fail bio too... as for maths... it wuz nv a gd one, wuz it? nv did do well in maths... but i hope i'll pass... i shld la... considering all e practice i put in... as for chinese... worse still... first time gettin a C5 in paper 2 for Chinese in jc... but at least i scored 51/70 for my compo... but still damn sad la... i usually can depend on chinese for a gd grade de... dis time... jz totalli screwed it up... the onli bright spot abt dis common test? i scored an A for chemistry... wld haf done nth short of killin myself if i didnt... if i dun score for chemistry, wad else wld i score in? shld b exempted for chemistry ba... i reli nid to focus on my other subs... 6 wks left to study for promos... and still gort pw to bust my brain abt... s2pid EoM... life sux... no wait... i sux... how am i gona kip my 4 subs dis way? i reli dun wana let go of ani of my sciences, even tho i always sae i wana drop physics... i dun wana let go... 4 subs means a lot to mi... i reli nid it... *sobz...

reli feel as if im lettin everi1 down... lettin ms wun down... lettin my parents down... most of all, lettin myself down... i reli hate it... m i jz nt doin enuff? m i jz plain lazy? im sure i noe e answer... and im sure i noe wad i shld do to get myself betta grades durin promos...

study meetin dis fridae... ani1 goin?

Wow... had a reli gr8 wk!!! well i guess e first thing to tok abt wld b e slpover at jun jie's hse ba... haha... his hse damn big la... den we stayed over for a nite n made a hell lot of noise... his maid can speak chinese wor... well, one of dem la... e other one cant... let's see... wad did we do? we initially went his hse to celebrate qi sheng's bdae... well we did la... but at lyk e last minute of his bdae... den afta singin bdae song den we sae 'orh, over liaoz...'... haha... went downstairs for cake, cuz we sang e song upstairs... nobody reli wanted e cake lei... strange... had 2 pester ppl to eat it... but i tink we were all too excited abt playin pool and table soccer la (is tt wad u call it?)... jianli and i make a GREAT TEAM at pool... haha... e rest all kena thrashed by us... reli had a veri gd time... and i nid to improve on my table soccer skills... duno how 2 control so mani at one time sia... lolz... kena thrashed by jj's youngest bro... speakin of which, jj's bro's r quite cute... his youngest bro is... but accordin to jaymie, lao er a bit solemn-lookin? haha... jj's e onli one hu looks lyk his father lei... mayb cuz e other 2 wearin specs ba... den e whole family look veri wen xin in e family portrait... quan jia fu... yalor... den e whole time wuz mainly pool, table soccer and movie ba... watched scary movie 3 at nite... no wait, in e mornin.... veri veri early mornin... haha... show wuz quite lame... basically copy and paste frm other movies and modify to make it funny... or wad e producers tot wuz funny... den ard 3+ in e mornin we started gettin rdy for bed... but din slp till abt 4+... slept btw jun hui and jj... hope i din squash dem!!! hahaha... den gort super cold la... stole bh's blanket and covered mi and jh... we agreed to wake up at 8+... jj wuz rite... we needed buffer time... no1 woke up except mi when e alarm went off at 8... went downstairs to get my toothbrush...yee hoong alr awake... he said he woke up at 6.30... reli unbelievable... how can ani1 slp so little n still haf e energy? sia la... had breakfast wif yh afta brushin... finish le... den teck khoon wuz e nxt 2 wake up... den jh... followed by jj... e rest din wake up till 10+... and it wuz onli afta we 4 went up to wake dem up did dey reluctantly open their eyes... nua dere for anudder period of time... gort sian le den went downstairs to play soccer n pool again... so it wuz another gd 2 hrs b4 we set off for tampines... we arranged to meet yh at woodlands, since he left early to go hm to collect his costume... but cuz mrt wuz too slow... (it wuz alr ard 2.10 when we reached woodlands...), we took cab frm woodlands, afta wastin some time dere waitin for yh to show up, onli to find tt he'd oreddy taken bus dere by himself... -.- O.0... finally reached tampines... went upstairs afta changin... cldnt stay in e makeup rm for more den a min... all e hair spray and makeup floatin in e air... enuff to suffocate ani1... bunny wuz doin divination outside... a lot of crap to mi... future is for u to discover bit by bit... tt's e best and worst part of it, i tink... met kenny!!! haha... missed u man, kar-el... afta finally havin my make-up done, went upstairs for daimoku and den came downstairs again for run-thru... quite fun and cold... so din pespire as much... boarded e bus afta doin gongyo... block c split up... >=(... humpf... waited for quite a long time afta arrivin... dinner dis time wuz gd... den finally PERFORMANCE TIME!!! haha... kept wanting to hit e cameraman when i wuz dancing... s2pid... stand so near for wad... but i stood in e corner... so cldnt reli b seen... so sad... afta e performance den most of e fun began lorz... we all rushed here and there to see vincent ng, fiona xie and the fireworks... fireworks were reli damn beautiful la... den e echo frm e blocks of flats oso quite loud... haha... did i mention fiona xie wuz our star? she wuz dancin wif us in our bollywood item... so cool rite? den managed finally to GET HER SIGNATURE!!! duno y im so excited over dis... nt reli a veri big fan of her... saw vincent ng too... jz din manage to take pics wif either one of dem... haiz... there's still quite a big chunk of events happenin afta dis... but lazy to type la... fingers tired le... part 2 will come soon... haha... common test tml... haven study bio yet... jia lat... lolz... here're e pics for all i blogged above... chosen randomly de hor... haha...
Guys chillin out at the soccer table....
Qi Sheng's present... Notice the orange package? LOLZ...
Xiao Mei and Ba Ge...

Birthday Boy cutting the cake!!!

Smile!!! How come onli one candle?
Xiao Mei curling up on the couch

ytd went out wif ycf peeps to study again... quite unproductive... haha... but finally managed to thrash out part of my gravitation and a small part of circular motion... kudos to grace and valerie... hope i spelt ur names correctly... sigh... im reli veri weak in physics... duno if i'll do well for my common test dis time... jz downloaded a lot of stuff abt physics frm jj webby... hope it helps...

haha, speakin of jj, wonder if i can go wif e others to jj'se hse tonite or nt... reli want to... but i still haf my common tests to study for... wonder if mum'll let mi go or nt... mostly likely nt tho... but oh well... jz kip my fingers crossed yeah?

walked to outram wif jianli ytd afta gettin off e north-east line... had quite a gd and long chat... reli cleared up a lot of things in my mind... thnx a lot pal... ^_^

jz came back frm national day celebrations... quite shagged... owens won a couple of competitions... haha... yay!!!

I jz realised how shallow my frens make mi feel... dey make mi see so mani things abt life tat i nv had e wisdom to c b4 in my life... tim... rf... rach... haf these daes in chingay and ycf tot mi nth? haf i bin livin 2 gd a life?

is my level of confidence goin down? i guess so... eva since i started losin my hair, i seemed 2 b losin my self-esteem and self-confidence... i can no longer sae things wif full confidence animore... wadeva i tot... wadeva i wuz under e impression of... i've bin a fool... mayb all my fats r finally startin 2 flood my brain... retarded...

den in tt case... suan le... im e bouncer no more...

ytd has last ycf training... Kinda sucked... Thx to all who showed so much concern for mi... esp Timothy n Boon Han, hu showed mi so much concern... Tim even sent mi back to my doorstep... haiz so guilty and so touched... ^_^... thnx a lot guys... i reli appreciate all dis... =) but i still feel v guilty... so mani ppl worried over mi... thnx so much guys... lolz, startin to sound lyk a parrot... but reli... jz feel so grateful 2wards u guys...

tml's e post-ycf celebration and mummy's n bh's bdae... mummy dun wan mi 2 gif her anithin... but i noe she's bin eyein dis bag for quite a bit of time le... but reli quite ex... as for boonie... lolz... duno wad i shld get for him lei... muz go rack my brains...

Revision day. Quite a fun day. wore my acjc t-shirt afta such a long time. love it. ^_^ These guys reli rock my world. Din do much revision in e end tho. Haha. We kept asking JJ qns, i tink oso considered as helpin him revise his yr 1 topics la hor? hahaha... din end e way i wanted it to... hurts. it reli does. she doesnt noe it. but it does. im sry i eva opened my big mouth. but i spose im jz tactless. dun even wana tink abt it now. haiz. reli din mean to pick a fight. spose things wun b the same animore? reli hope it will still b, tho will take some time i guess. but her words did hurt. a lot. go and be a saint? tt stabs mi so deep in e heart... no joke. it reli does.

bio spa tml. no mood to read my notes now. ct nxt wk. fuked up. wanted to try for exemption. do i still haf hope? one wk left onli lei. i want my chem n bio s papers. suddenly lost all my zest. but shall nt let dis sansoshima defeat mi. i'm sure i can do my human revolution. im sure i can succeed. prob is i always dwell on e unhappy things. too much of an emotional person.

met up wif a few of e guys todae. did feel kinda uncomfy. atmosphere wasnt as cosy. my fault. again. as usual. hate myself now. but hey, since when haf i nt?

moral of e story? kip ur mouth shut.

life sux. esp when u haf a big mouth.