today has really been just a great day!!! our ASD May Institution Meeting really has been a tremendous success!!! true, my actors fluffed a few lines here n there... n din reli follow my stage directions v carefully but on e whole i must say it reli was a fantastic show! i'm reli touched by how my actors reli haf slogged at memorising their lines and saying dem in e appropriate way, apart frm jz reciting them... lolz... especially my dear shin'ichi... when he first read his lines i reli nearly fainted... reli pure recitation...

i reli reli will miss rehearsals (tho admittedly we didnt have many...) n i reli hope u guys haf taken sth away frm dis... e way u guys crap during break time... e way u all laugh at each other... lolz... esp ytd when joel kept laughin like crazy over toda's moustache... reli reli hope u all treasure dis v much... above all, reli hope dis has sparked off interest in u to continue to read e Human Revolution...

wonder when our nxt big thing is gona happen... reli dun wana lose dis momentum... jz wana kip goin till asd has no choice but to kick me into nussd nxt yr...

sigh... reli tired... but itz a fulfilled sense of exhaustion... been havin rehearsals these few days n i've reli enjoyed myself... haha... directing reli is fun... tho my poor asd jrs haf reli bin barked at by mi for duno hw long le...

i guess i've gotten over e fact tt we're nt usin e 3rd floor... i reli can work so much betta there... but i can understand where e iics r comin frm... so i'm nt gona get myself into a fix again... jz work towards dis sat joyfully ba!

NOTE TO ALL ASD ALUMNI!!! PLEASE COME DOWN TO JURONG KAIKAN ON 24TH MAY 2008 FOR OUR MAY INSTITUTION MEETING!!! lolz... reli nid ur support n oso do come down to c some of e new faces tt haf surfaced frm fd... =)

shall stop here for today... still got loads of things nt done...

i can't help it... i still feel extremely disappointed tt we're not using the third floor... now it's not so much of the attendance... it's really the venue!!! i can work so much magic with the stage... y can't dey c it frm my pt of view? i reli reli reli can do loads wif e stage n nw dey still insist on e hall of wisdom... e lights in IPA reli can do wonders for our skit... it reli will make it a formal production~!!! hello...... i reli reli want to make dis a production... can somebody out there understand tat? can ANYBODY out there understand tat? wif e stage, it wuz EXACTLY e way tt i portrayed it... mayb except for e curtains... but e lights alone can and WILL do wonders!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i tink my actors will oso b excited abt performin on stage too~! we'll haf so much freedom on stage, in terms of space, lights and effects!!!

i concede tt hall of wisdom is large enuff to house our target audience... but it's flat ground, for heaven's sake... i oso understand tt e audience is closer in e hall of wisdom... haiz... so itz nice n cosy hall of wisdom VS formal production in IPA... nt tt we're gona haf a fight in e 1st place... cuz i tink we're jz gona go along wif hall of wisdom... i will still do dis asd prdtn... n i will do so v joyfully wif my members, cuz dey reli r puttin in a lot of effort for all dis... n i oso luv directing plays n skits... reli enjoy it... but in terms of venue, jz bear in mind i onli concede... i nv willingly chose it... which reli is a great pity... dis obstinacy of mine... reli does haf to change... but i reli c tt it will b a great production if we haf it on e 3rd floor... it'll b really really really terrific... i reli reli tink so... WHEN WILL ASD GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO DO SO? WHEN WILL I HAVE THE CHANCE TO LEAD ASD ONTO A MAJOR STAGE PRODUCTION LIKE I'VE ENVISIONED? I REALLY WANT TO DO SO MUCH!!!

i nid to chant...

it's another super slack day here in the office... cuz mr ng is nt in office to arrow mi, thus i'm feelin super free today... well actually i feel super free everyday... which gave me some time to talk to shan shan just now...

sigh... discussin abt our beloved hr fest... both of us reli want it to work out... we reli want it to be an absolute success! but just wanting simply isn't enough... we reli gotta work it out~!

looks like i get to kip my script as it is... itz alr bin painful enuff for me to rip out certain parts of it... i seriously draw the line at cutting out any particular act in it...

hopefully my actors haf bin conscientiously committing their lines to memory... esp my shin'ichi and toda... cuz i tink even i wld haf problem memorising all those lines... itz gona b reli tough on dem... kudos to dem for puttin in e effort...

jz finished reading the bk jerry lent mi e other day... Train Man... well, all i can say is... Geeks of the world unite~! We still have hope~!!! hope mine will come along soon... but for now... gona enjoy singlehood... ;)

i feel like i'm going to collapse anytime now.

honestly, i know i have to struggle... but sometimes there's also a limit... i strive to be a disciple of Ikeda Sensei... to be a first-rate disciple... but right now i don't think i'm even a fifth-rate disciple...

for once i just don't want to think of the consequences and just rant it all out here... so if u ain't in the mood to listen to me bitch please scroll down and click on one of the links below or simply click the nice bright red cross at the top right-hand corner of the screen now...

i poured my heart and soul into writing out the script... i really did... i burnt goodness knows how much midnight oil and spent goodness knows how many hours in office rushing out the script and now they tell me they might want to TAKE OUT THE FIRST TWO ACTS OF MY SCRIPT?!?!?!?!?! honestly, when teck kiang and thai leong posed this possibility to me it really crushed me inside... the pains i went through to producing this skit... now i'm so ready to direct out this play together with kaiyi, to make this first asd production the best that i possibly can... and you tell me i'm going to have to rip out 50% of it? that's like asking me to rip out 50% of my heart man... i'm telling you here and now i cannot and will not do that and i will make sure i churn out the best production the whole of SD has ever seen... i've worked too hard for this for them to rip out such a huge chunk of it... it already pained me when siew hoon made the amendments she deemed fit... nobody told me she was going to make amendments... fine... i went along with them... crossed my heart and made the amendments... now they're telling me to rip out half of my script... then i'm telling you maybe you should take my script and direct it yourself as you deem fit... i don't care whether i appear immature or what... i'm human! i have feelings too... my life condition fluctuates within the ten worlds too! you can't expect me to remain up there now that you're telling me to make such a big change to my sweat and blood~! i'm sorry but if you're serious about telling me you want to take out the first two parts i can tell you on the spot maybe kaiyi should direct it on her own as it isn't my own work anymore...

i know i should be mature about this and learn to take it in my stride and cope with it... ppl say they understand they understand... do they really? when you worked this hard for something... the feelings you have for it is really just completely different... i tink shan shan is feeling the same way... the way the reach out comm n ics were changing the agenda like nobody's business... i'm sure she must have felt the same way... the way she was near breaking out just now...

not to say that everything's going wrong... for those actors and actresses who did come down today i think we did have a good time... we managed to have quite a good rehearsal and i think there was a good bit of laughter and whatnot so i'm really glad to see that my actors are really enjoying themselves...

i myself feel that i'm going to break down soon... taking up a director's role and being assigned to do reach out is really not a good combination...

THE HUMAN REVOLUTION: An ASD Production

today was the first rehearsal for our may institution mtg... frankly speaking im quite disappointed in the attendance... less den 10 members came for our rehearsal! has asd bin doing too little in terms of reach out? or has asd bin doin reach out wrongly? i'm reli so worried that we wun b able to put up dis hr fest... my programme comm has put in so much sweat n blood into planning for this event n i oso spent gdness noes how mani hours on my script... reli reli reli want it to b a tremendous and absolute success!!!

mayb dis is wad teck kiang wuz tellin mi abt... facin my own negativity... but sometimes itz reli difficult to haf faith tt dis whole thing will b a success... cuz by e looks of it at e moment... reli seems v v far frm it...

tml's epc cohesion... 7.30am at sentosa... hw to get down so early? even so, i doubt e internal transport in sentosa starts tt early!

makin further changes to my script... it reli kills me to take certain things out... but sometimes reli dun haf ani choice... i nid to consider viewpts of everybody... esp since if we're gona reach out to our new friends...

i'm so gona pass my driving test on e first attempt. WATCH ME!!!