hi peeps... i flyin off on mondae... so dun bother msgin or callin mi... back on 9th dec... 12:40 am... if ani kind soul is willin to send mi off, i haf 2 reach e airport by 5.15am =)... somehow dun feel lyk goin lei... missin e whole wk of ygms... missin ctsb gatherin... missin band fest rehearsal... missin my family... missin my frens... haiz... missin out on sooooooooooo mani things... wad 2 do... aiyo...

kenny wanted to join asd logistics for chingay 2006... duno if rachel brought him... shld haf la...

will bring gifts back... ^_^

gona miss u loads... but i guess e feelin aint mutual... oh well... haha... tc...

jz read some archie comics... read abt archie and betty... n it jz suddenly occurred to mi... y doesnt archie jz choose betty? jz my own opinion la... but i feel tt betty is such a much more nicer gal... ronnie jz seems more of a spoilt brat to mi... sure, ron's gort more chic and looks... but betty's way nicer on e inside... haha... reli super bo liao... to tink abt all dis... but hey... jz my two cents' worth...

mummy's gort a small growth next to her throat... somewhere there la... and she's gort fatty deposits in her liver... GOSH!!! nearly cried my eyes out when i heard tt... reli veri dangerous... e chinese physician's given her some magic (medicinal) powder to help remove it frm e liver... but takes time... reli muz pray she'll make a complete recovery... she's bin chanting a lot too... i noe i shldnt worry... but hey, itz natural k...

goin china on monday... reli dun wana leave her... considerin e condition she's in rite now... reli muz chant veri hard and pray tt she'll reli haf e lifeforce to reli fite dis... and im sure she has... hey, she's my mom after all... haha...

itz e little things in life tt reli touch u... dey may nt seem much... but dey mean much much more... ^_^

dreams... had one a couple of days back... but i guess it'l remain a dream... =)

suddenly felt lyk writin sth... nt a blog en3... but prose... budden decided against it... crappin wif van again now... great gal... always can crap wif her non-stop de...

today finally went to catch harry potter and the goblet of fire wif e others... quite a cool movie... but i wish it'd stick closer to e bk... so mani things cut off... haha... nv cld appreciate myrtle's "nearly all the bubbles had gone" by jz reading... onli 2dae when i saw e movie den i cld finally understand... hahahaha... for those hu haven watched it... shan't spoil it... impact wise... ok ba... but i still sae it wuz a gr8 movie... haha... katie leung's pretty cute... tho she onli appeared in lyk 4 scenes? and emma watson's gettin prettier too... e yule ball reli emphasised it... haha... okok... no nid to -.- at my entry... haha... hope e 5th one comes out soon... lolz...

i nid to work out... i nid to exercise... =S -.-

goin china nxt wk... gettin a bit of e jitters... hope i can return a day earlier to b in time for e first band fest rehearsal... >.<

wonder how you feel after watching it...

today wuz e asd frenship mtg... haiz... none out of e 4 frens i asked cld come... but de wei asked mi to tell him if we still gort dis kinda thing comin up... mite invite him to e youth gm... but i wun b in s'pore... haiz... played tong hua wif qi sheng... a lot of mistakes... haha... but still sounded nice... lolz... mei ming said she wuz inspired by mi to plae e flute... reli hope she will... ^_^...

afta tt went wif hui zi, geng li n boon han to makan at tm... i onli ate a packet of fries... surprisingly... haha... oso ate bh's fries... but yeah... guess e chicken rice for lunch... well... let's jz sae a bit too heavy on e rice le ba? hahaha... greedy as usual... talked a lot wif dem... went to dance para para at e arcade... hahaha... hui zi wuz amazed... den later went over to shop for a sweater for bh... mi n hui zi were teasin him lyk mad abt e colour... ^5 gal!!! but in e end he din buy la...

tml's rachel's gohonzon conferrment (did i spell it rite?)... shld i go? betta go la... otherwise she's nv gona forgive mi... lolz...

gave out all e tix for e band fest today to e gakkai peeps... surprisingly my section now wants to go... duno if i haf enuff tix or nt...

let go? i dun want to... and i dun tink i can either... unfortunately, i dun let go so easily... wish i cld... but i cant...

Suddenly after reading it... dunno lei... a whole horde of feelins jz came rushin in... woah... take it ez there... tt's as much as i can handle in such a short period of time... be it pain, laughter, sadness or excitement...

haiz... wanted to invite nai queen, andy and de wei to e frenship meetin dis sat de... nai queen goin out... andy gort odac kayaking course... cant get thru to de wei at all... nv chant enuff la...

hahaha... bored enuff to copy dis out... m i reduced to dis state le ma?

1. what is your favourite colour?
blue and white

2. what was your age 10 yrs ago?
7...............

3. fav bk?
harry potter... e whole series...

4. fav band?
clementi town symphonic band, jurong junior college symphonic band ^_^

5. fav food?
i eat practically everything edible...

6. fav drink?
coke light... emphasis on e light...

7. size?
er... DUH? if u noe mi wun u noe? haha...

8. hair?
er... a bit long now... farkin DM bitchin abt it le...

9. clothes?
more of white tees... like jeans...

10. yr job 10 years from now...
teaching... hope i still haf e zest to do so by den...

11. yr alarm clock?
my mom... haha...

12. listening to now?
Gui Ji...

13. last mood swing?
now...

14. last convo on msn?
wen hao

15. play any instruments?
flute (my first love)... piccolo (my second love)... xylophone marimba (my love-to-bes)...

16. frenster pals?
155... ^_^Y

17. last crush?
my bro... squashed him real bad

18. is yr room in a mess?
nt animore... wahahaha... all thnx to my mom and mi...

19. last time u cried?
er..... cant rmb...

20. last time u called some1?
an hr ago... tryin to get de wei to come for e asd frenship mtg...


yes... confirm guarantee + chop... im bored...

and hurt...

startin to wish i hadn't taken so mani tix for e band fest... i gotta pay for all of dem 1st... 25 tix... $275... well done... sold abt 17? i guess so...

2dae's band prac rocked... hahaha... we tried doin sectionals for band fest pieces... ended up playin phantom and shrek dance party... wen jun was smilin away when he heard we plaein shrek dance party... e Y.M.C.A. part all his melody la...

den went for e rehearsal for dis sat's asd frenship mtg... reli quite happy wif e results todae... e skit went pretty well... and altho e tong hua score has a blardy 6 sharps in it... but afta i scribbled down e notes it wuz pretty ok le la... hahaha... cheat ma... cun zai oso sounded gd too... ^_^... actualli cun zai wuz ezier... F major... onli one Bb... nt lyk tong hua F# major... but dey sae tong hua nicer... so tong hua lorz...

u wore tt top today... made mi quite happy... =)... still wish u cld come for it... boy m i selfish... hahaha...

jz came back frm s8 bbq... quite fun... tho i din reli enjoy myself to e maximum but yeah... still had fun... cant stand eunice's laughter... lolz...

tml gort e practice for e asd frenship mtg skit... elvin's hse again... haiyo... veri far lei... nvm... c if i can get choon huat to send mi back... otherwise gona take a super long time... and i dun fancy goin on tt trip alone... im afraid of bein alone... serious... itz a mental fear...

gona plae tong hua for e mtg too... gosh e piece gort 6 sharps... how e heck m i gona do it? oh well... for e sake of e mtg and all e new frens attendin... reli gotta buck up lorz... hahaha... wana bring mq and andy along for e mtg... muz chant a lot for dem la...

omg... lolz... din expect so mani ppl to b willin to go for e band fest... hope all e tix will b one long row... den all 11 of dem can sit tgt... woots... reli lookin forward to it...

argh... s2pid china trip... reli wanted to go for e ctsb bbq... but NO... thnx to dis china ednal trip i had to miss it... actualli i nt veri enthu abt it de lorz... suan le... sometimes gotta make sacrifices in life...

u can't come... nvm i can understand... but u can't expect mi nt to b disappointed... cuz i clearly am...

wish i cld to do sth abt my life... mummy's nt feelin well... nt as in sick... but her mood jz isnt rite... and she wun sae anithin... now i wish she'd scream n shout at mi... at least i'd noe she's normal... haiz... worry worry and worry...

i havent bin exactly concentratin during chantin either... esp jz now... kept tinkin and worryin abt a lot of things... things tt i care so much for... yet haf no control over... haiz... jz chant for e best of it ba...

once again... went to crap wif xiao mei ytd nite...

m i reli tt useless? ha...

band 2dae wuz quite fun... ^_^... gort quite a number of new and challenging pieces... quite fun... gort piccolo solo again... exciting!!!

haiz... i kip worryin for ppl... i pray tt dey wld b strong n brave... but how can i do tt if i myself m nt so? haha... feel so hypocritical...

y do u kip saein tt? r we not frens? do we not care?

Finally finished PW... later gona hand in my I&R... den itz bye bye and gd riddance to pw... my op rocked... reli hope i can get a band 1 for my pw...

talked a lot wif xiao mei ytd nite... e poor ger had to listen to so much of my crap... but thnx a lot gal... u reli helped mi see a lot of things frm a diff pt of view... sigh... i still haf much much more to learn... sigh...

my breathing problems have been wif mi for some days le... hope it goes off quickly... reli veri xin ku at times...

well... hope my hair comes back soon... blardy dm still wants to trouble mi over dis... dude... u noe wad im sufferin frm... so pls dun bug mi animore can? argh...

Me and kenny...

haha... miss dis guy a lot... gort to talk to him over msn la... but jz aint e same wif meetin him face to face... e guy taking his o's now... hey kar-el... if u read dis... gd luck for ur o's k? u can do it!!!

pls do come... it'll mean so much to mi... i noe i shldnt kip my hopes up... but... yeah... hope u'll come...

jz gort back frm kenshu... IT ROX!!! reli had quite a gd time... tho my nose wuz dribbling away lyk mad... haha... i tink e lectures and sharing parts i din reli pay tt much attention... it wuz e personal guidance and asd dialogue at nite n in e veri early mornin tt reli struck mi... i signed up for personal guidance and wuz super fortunate to get wan xiang... veri guilty... haha... spent abt 2 hrs talkin to him 1 to 1... but reli helped... cleared up a lot of things in my mind... and answered quite a number of qns i had in my mind... gort to noe him quite a bit more thru tt 2 hr dialogue wif him... best part of e entire kenshu for mi... hahaha... thnx a lot wan xiang!!!

as for e asd dialogue... oso a lot of things said n discussed... as usual... my nose dribbling away lyk mad... haha... sikang wuz talkin abt typhoon in taiwan den i kept sneezin and blowing my nose... so naturally... my flu became e 'typhoon'... den i had to kip goin to e first floor toilet to get tissue... tore out a super long piece la... roll into a ball and stuffed it in2 my jacket pocket... den every time i nid jz pull a bit out and tear... rachel saw it and wuz lyk o.0... den gort once i came up wif e tissue in my hands... den choon huat saw le den said "he's reloaded..." den everyone laughed at mi la... -_-''' den stephanie lent mi her vicks to apply... i brought it home wif mi la... 4got to return her... =p...

all in all... dis kenshu rox!!! but pw doesnt... BLEAHX...

glad you enjoyed yrself... =)... tt's all tt matters... tc loads...

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Had another tiring dae... Kenshukai planning coming along fine... haha... worked out e music wif crystal quite well... onli to haf jiayang cut in later... actualli his music quite nice too... but e one for scene 2 too nice for bad guys le la... hahaha...

afta e meetin went to eat wif mcvin, sikang, elvin, qing de, benny, rachel and qi sheng... mcvin tt bunch quite fun to b ard wif... but nt 2 often la... dun tink i can take it if itz long-term...

celebratin nai queen's bdae dis sun... a dae late but bo bian... sat quite a no. of windies cant make it... reli lookin 4ward to seein all those guys again... ^_^

sposed 2 b doin e s2pid op thingy now... but as usual... SLACKER!!!

gona go trainin dis hols... keep saein it... but no action yet so far... see how ba yeah? lolz... mcvin suggested gettin sikang to go train wif mi... yeah... mayb i shld... my stamina reli sux now... jz now danced ycf dance once onli panting away lyk mad...

i'm reli worried for u... yes you... maybe i'm starting to prove myself as much of a pest as he did before... i dunno... but wad i do noe is tt i love you... i love you from e deepest of my hearts... yet i see that i haf nt proven myself to earn yr trust... it hurts mi? of course it does... it hurts lyk mad... it wuz jz all wishful thinking on my part... i knew frm e start... jz refused to accept it... will my tears flow? yes... inwards... i'll pray for you... i reli will... pls b happy... i reli hope u will b happy... dun smile wif ur mouth... smile wif ur eyes and heart... i noe u'll b able to overcome all troubles and struggles tt come yr way... u haf e strength in u... jiayou...