doubt any of u will read my blog but thanks for putting up tt wonderful performance on Saturday for our SD Anniversary!!! u guys beared thru my nagging, tekaning n shoutin n reli put up an amazing dance, even tho it wuz onli for a few minutes... reli reli appreciate it... hope u guys haf reli enjoyed urself n dun 4get wad wan xiang said, we mite perform it at another event some time soon so hope u all can come tgt again to perform another time!!!

dis wk is gona b another insane wk... gosh... saori changed our meetin time last min, which means i gotta reschedule my tuition wif justin... end up i cant go for e ctss alumni bbq le... sianz... haha... but no choice la... my jap test more impt... can always get e details frm someone else... nt tt impt aniwae im sure... tho it'd haf bin great if i cld haf gone back to see if any of my ex-students r there at tt kinda time, esp those in e uniformed grps cuz tt dae got speech dae rehearsal... wonder if i shld go back for speech day dis yr... no pt actualli la hor? i've drifted so far frm my ex-students liaoz... but hey, to those hu read my blog, it doesn't mean i dun rmb n dun miss u guys k... haha... but life goes on... regardless of whether we dwell on tt pt of time or choose to move along wif it... we all haf our own lives to lead n our own parts to play...

i'm reli gettin extremely sick of life in e army, even tho it reli is physically v slack... cant bliv i got more den a yr to go... urgh... jz tinkin abt it makes mi feel sick... i noe i shld b grateful tt i got such a gd postin n i've reli bin able to do a lot of things wif my time but there's no denyin tt i'd b doin a lot more things wifout army... sigh...

wonder if su xin is gona org kbox outin soon... cant wait la... whole bunch go kbox tgt... sing until e ppl come n chase us out... su xin jumpin on e seats... lolz... still rmb her hoggin e mike all aftanoon at sikang's 21st bdae party... hahaha... wifout her in asd life in asd seems tt much less lively... i mean it... hu else goes mad to tt extent in asd? lolz...

preparation for sd anniversary has reli bin loads of fun... rmb e last time we had a dance for sd anniversary... tt wuz like way back in 2005 or 06 i tink... we danced to stacie orrico's 'I could be the one'... still rmb most of e dance steps till dis day... in fact i put in one of e steps into my dance for dis yr's sd anniversary dance... tt time wuz choreographed by siyi n min ling... dis time wuz by mi n stacey... well, ok dis time i muz admit nt choreographed completely by mi n stacey, since i shamelessly plagiarised from jj's mass dance... but den again, i onli used wad i cld rmb, which wasnt a lot, considerin e last time i danced dis dance wuz in 2005, so i still ended up choreographin most of e dance steps myself... wif help frm stacey too of coz... =p so i spose it isnt complete plagiarism afta all... bleahx =p... asd is reli movin on... n growin up... but m i? sigh... lolz... stop feelin emo!

sometimes i stop n ask myself... wad is life all abt? we rush ard... doin wad we need... wad we have to... if we're lucky, we do wad we want to... but wad's e pt of all dis? wad is e ultimate meanin of life? r we reli truly born to die? yes i do tink abt these things every now and then... my email doesnt contain 'philosopher...' for nothing u noe... BHB!

such a long post... haha... hope u've enjoyed it... so long for nw...

oh ya, n i jz realised on sat boon han's learnin drivin from e exact same instructor as i m... haha... itz a small world...

is there anything wrong with being emo? sometimes, like wad suxin once said on her personal msg in chinese... feel like covering my ears and hiding in a corner... sometimes reli tink tt it'll feel reli great if i cld jz lie on my bed n cry... cry abt wad? i dun even noe wad's makin mi feel dis way... or do i? is it jz mi? but i wun deny... sometimes reli haf an incredible urge to jz hug my bolster n cry myself to slp... y m i feelin so emo? n e most cruel thing is... when i tink abt it... it reli seems to b my fault... sobz...

Chingay is finally over!!! And i muz say dis has reli bin one of e best Chingays i've ever performed in so far... considering dis is my third one... u cant begin to imagine how high we were on e preview day n actual day... omg... all tt audience interaction... reli loved it to bits...

made so mani frens too... >.< caught up wif PC and melvis and liang ye... loads of dem la... shuli n xue lian... den e new frens i made include jellynn, saori, kanae n mani others... n mani thanks to saori n kanae, without which i wld nt haf bin able to do my jap shukudai (homework) every week so smoothly... haha... reli helps to haf frens hu speak e native language...

now wed n sun r gona seem so empty... sigh... no more holding of e fishes in our hands... no more dancing to tt music... reli makes mi feel so empty inside...

apart from chingay, sd anniversary oso has bin takin up quite a bit of my life... i nv knew choreographin a dance cld b so difficult... n itz equally difficult, if nt more, to tie down my dancers n get dem to come for trainings... but ytd wuz e second last trg n i muz say im reli v satisfied wif e rate dey're progressing... THANKS LOADS GUYS!!! to all hu haf yet to b informed, sd anniversary is on this coming sunday 24 feb 10am-12pm at syc... muz come k?

ctss alumni bbq on 29th feb... gosh... duno how to feel for tt... shld i feel excited? or shld i feel apprehensive... sigh... i noe none of my ex-students will b there since itz so late at nite... n it feels kinda awkward to go back esp since i wuz a tchr back there... duno la... c how ba... i wun deny it... till dis day i still miss my ex-students like mad... well if u guys read dis... i miss u guys loads k!!!

sigh... my colleague wuz rite abt bein mentally tired in e army... no doubt servin as a clerk is nt as physically challengin... in fact it isnt challenging at all... but it reli makes u so mentally tired... hu can blame nsfs for lookin forward to ord so eagerly? every wk i do e same thing over n over n over n over n over n over n over n over n over again... urgh...

wonder if cupid has bin firing his arrows any old how again recently... hope i haven't got hit... or at least i dun tink i haf... bin lookin at all dis talk abt pefect couples on tv... especially artistes actin in their shows... gong zhu xiao mei... ka fei wang zi yi hao dian... zzz... these r ideal situations ppl... so y do we still bliv in dem n harp on dem all e time? i'm in e position to criticise simply bcuz i do tt too... e media reli has an exceedingly large control over certain ppl's minds ya? hu can maintain a completely objective mind? if u tink im makin excuses, reflect upon urself n c if wad i've said is true... dun we all get influenced to certain extents, big or small? so back to wad i wuz sayin... mayb cupid hasnt bin firing arrows... more of tickling me wif e tip ba... n makin mi feel emo again... mayb itz jz my dear old fren tryin to trap in e vortex of his dark cloak again...

do we fall in love? or do we fall for the idea of being in love?

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!! haha...

so much has been happening in my life recently... barely had time to breathe... lolz...

jap clz seems to b gettin better... esp since i have saori n kanae in my chingay grp to help mi wif my shukudai(homewk)... furthermore i've bin understanding e lessons much better... but i still have to kip referring to my txtbk tho... haha... hope i can do well for my test dis time round...

chingay oso has been gettin on pretty well... tho itz comin to an end soon... all of u muz watch k? 16 Feb 8pm muz turn on ur tv cuz i'm in the first item... Singapore Soka Association - Ocean of Harmony!!! WOOHOO!!! haha... advertise a bit here... but e onli shitty thing abt dis is e makeup... reli irritatin to haf it on my face for so long... lolz... but otherwise itz bin a reli gr8 experience for me...

sd anniversary is oso comin up soon... first time i'm co-ordinating e dance item... choreograph dance steps... teach dance steps... tie down hu is in my item... lolz... reli feel tt im makin such a mess of it... nt unexpected, esp since when im such a disorganised person...

mrs chua oso approached some of e alumni to help coach some of e clementeens... sigh... i doubt dey will gif mi my 4d1 la... dey die oso wun trust alumni wif sec 4 de... somemore sec 4 express... but i reli miss dem to bits... somemore i set so mani qns for justin... wasted if dey onli go to one student...

wish feeling emo wld bcom a thing of e past... sometimes reli find it so irritatin... like wad johnson put on his msn nick... do we fall in love or fall for the idea of being in love? ever tot abt tt?

sora and kairi... roxas and namine... 2 parallels along the same line...