Couldn't think of anywhere else i could scream at, so i'm back here after more than 2 months. pretty sure nobody checks back here anymore, so i guess it should be safe to just unleash everything that's been plugged up inside me.

Why do NUS Chemistry students have to do soooooooo many lab reports? 1 per week is fine but when the deadline is delayed due to content not covered yet, they all crash together and in short, simply f*** my life upside down. I could be spending that precious time doing revision for my other modules, to write my crime fiction, to all sorts of important things...... no i've got to waste my time doing all these USELESS LAB REPORTS!!!! Not as if the TAs really do read what I write. Tick tick tick tick tick... As if everything I write there is correct like that =S

I'm really running very short of time now. Despite that, I'm still blogging now because I really need to unleash the stress that I've been feeling. And anyway, I feel that I've got a bit of time now since I've finished 1 lab report ahead of time, so I have a couple of minutes to spare to unwind before I really go crazy. I really lack a lot of practice for a lot of modules. I think worst is analytical chem... I'm only good in separation science and that's only cuz i taught it last holidays at NUS High. Thank goodness for that. I'm 3 weeks away from exams and I'm only this prepared? gg liaoz...

And as if to rub sand into my wounds, I have an inorg test coming up next week, and 3 tests the following week. Somebody please tell me how i'm supposed to survive that week? And how am I ever going to find enough time to revise?

And to cap it all off, I'm missing you. Yes YOU!!!! I don't care whether you know or not but the bare, naked truth is I REALLY MISS YOU!!!! SO SO SO MUCH!!!! i can't show it... but it really hurts inside... gnawing away inside of me... bit by bit by bit... drowning myself in work doesn't help sometimes... i still think of you... you appear in my mind... in my notes... everywhere!!! it's tough for me to hold it in...

I don't have the looks
I don't have the money
I don't have the charm
I don't have the good fortune
But I do know that all I want to do is to love you, protect you, shield you...