We were friends once before

We were friends once before
You thought that was all
But I wanted so much more

Unwittingly I showed you the poem
As I tried to act so solemn
You asked whom I desire
Your queries never tire
Reluctantly I gave my answer
Of whom I really admire
Much to your shock, disgrace and bother

Ever since we never talked
Out of our friendship you walked
Ever since we became apart
With you went my heart
All our friendship could do is stray
As you ignored me everyday
Which made me feel
If I should conceal
My love I should say
And wait for another day
But you asked so sincerely
To reveal my secrets so dearly
To say what is true
The one I love is you

But can you handle the fact
Because the same feeling you lack
As you treated me so cold
As I tried to be so bold
And now it seems the end
Of being EVEN your friend

But please girl, think about this
Of what I dearly miss
What damage have I done?
What mutiny have I won?
To make you hate so much
When I needed a friend as such
Have I hurt your pride?
Or some feelings reside?
Which rule I didn’t abide
It’s you who hurt me inside
Now I can only regret
My feelings out I let
And wait for Nature to set

Now there’s a guy in your life
Intending to make you his wife
What can I do but sigh?
As my dear friend passes me by
Not turning for a single look
Not a greeting you took
As I am left sadly behind
As memories clouded my mind
Of times we had together
Which I once hope were forever
But good things couldn’t last
Those things were now the past
Sliding down a single tear
Wishing you were near
Struggling so hard to cope
As I lost every one hope

Strangely I didn’t pretend
If you’re happy I’m content
I now wish you all the best
May your life with him be blessed
I know I’m just a pest
If I entered your fanatic fest
I’ll just stand away and cry
But if you’re happy so am I

Doesn’t matter now that you don’t care
Not a single grudge I’ll bear
As my feelings apart you tear
Times of hardship you didn’t share
And with that guy you pair
I’ll just wait for the feelings to wear
I now know why I’m not wanted
Why my hopes must be aborted
Of what seemed like an enigma
With a smile I left my dilemma
As I tried to act so brave
But thanks for the joys you gave
Though they were never meant to be
But it helped to make me see
What character was in me
And what a loser I turned out to be

Doesn't matter if you don't accept me
Doesn't matter if you don't see my way
Know that I'm always there
To hear what you say
Just give me a chance
To wait for you each day...
-Crixilver

My dear senior has very generously consented to loan me his poem... didn't write this... wish i had e talent to tho... haha...

so sry for not bloggin for so long... com died... onli saved by shi qi ytd... thnx a lot dude~!

gort e sudden urge to blog... miss it... so long nv blog liaoz... e hols r finally here!!! or wadeva tt's left of dem aniwae...

to all out there... hueva watches e 9pm channel 8 serial... pls do watch out for the blind gal acted by dawn yeoh... and do gif her all ur support yeah? newcomer... but bound to rise quickly... so do support her!!! she's my senior!!! hahaha... bliv? im serious... she used to b my flute senior in ctsb... ^_^Y so pls do extend ur support for her!!!

band prac tml... FINALLY!!! missed quite a number of band pracs due to certain reasons... stuff lyk my stomach flu... zzz... horrible experience... tml finally gonna c my darlings again... spirited away rocks!!! my solo rox!!! haha...

bin playin veri veri hapi n sweet memories over n over again in my mind b4 i go to bed recently... it reli helps a lot... free myself frm everythin...

went for bio field trip today... bukit timah nature reserve... 3 hrs of it... nt too bad la... tho i admit im reli quite shagged out afta it... learnt quite a number of things... even got to eat sth tt e forest offered... petals of a flower and a certain berry... quite ok la... played pokemon TCG on ck's n-gage while on e way there... dun luff... deprived childhood... haiz... haha...

dis wk's gona b hyper bz... hols? wad hols? haha...

i reli gotta b able to draw the line between reality n fantasy... nt ez for mi to do it...

well... e soka uni students flare has died down a bit... jz uploaded a couple of pics e other day... here r e shuai ges n mei nus tt came down all e way frm japan...



well, tt's all e pics im willin to upload now... reli a veri energetic bunch... muz learn to b more lyk dem... shldnt b as sloppy as i m now...

makin up for bio n chem test tml... meanin im gona leave sch at 5pm...

my stomach's still churnin... crappy stomach flu... dun wana b bedridden again... literally... when it comes out both ends n u jz dun haf e energy to even stand up n walk to take ur medication...

oh well... to cap off this entry... i'll leave some of e nicks tt yulun has bin postin up on msn as his display nicks... corny ones... so b prepared to get frozen at how cold dey r...

1. How Long is a Chinese man.

2. I saw a magician walk down a street and turn into a drug store.

3. Some people don't have the Vegas idea on how to quit gambling.

4. Isn't the Great Canyon just gorges?

5. He put lipstick on his forehead to help him make up his mind.

hope u're freezin cold n completely lame by now... haha... goes to show how much time i haf to waste... wad a pity...

this sunday... hmm... i wonder... but i doubt it... haha... oh well...

should i withdraw from alumni exco? im seriously contributing negligibly... i cant attend mtgs... i cant churn out stuff on time... i cant do dis dat and e other... y did i agree nili to go in for dis position in e 1st place... haiz...

on e other hand, dis wkend reli has bin one of e greatest wkends i've experienced dis yr... y? cuz i spent time wif e students frm Soka University Japan!!! omg... these ppl r reli reli gr8... brought wif dem such a huge breath of fresh air... kudos to jih yang hu veri kindly called mi up when mcvin cldnt make it to ask mi to accompany dem... gort to noe so mani new frens... had a lot a lot of fun introducing dem to e food in singapore... and one thing abt dem ish their tremendous amount of energy tt dey haf... when dey were singing their soka uni song... den do e hand action lyk no nid energy one sia (of coz, dis is in perfect singlish... nvm... pls read on)... reli reli gr8... e gr8 fren i made, san-chan he asked us to call him, he loved spicy food... e guys introduced him to laksa, which i tink resembled e japanese ramen, and loads of other spicy food... sat beside him during lunch... so gort along wif him betta... went wif fumie n haruka for dinner... tgt wif mavis, jason and one other ger whom i haf forgotten her name... so sry... =p... these 2 chio bus cldnt take spicy food... so we jz made do wif e others and dey reli seemed to enjoy demselves veri veri much... veri veri glad to c tt... gort their emails and names and i'll make sure i'll kip in contact wif dem... made mi tink abt goin to SUJ too... haha... afta dinner went to tbsc for post-chingay celebrations... had a great time dere too... finally managed to pass rf her present, which wuz lyk belated how long? haha... e programme wuz great too... (but i still tink our chingay and post-chingay celebrations were betta... haha... =p)

chem bio n gp test on same day... SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!! WHERE IS THE JUSTICE?

what's goin on in there? wish i knew... haha... lyk tt's eva gona b possible...

still cant accept e fact tt i got a B3 for chinese... bin tryin to force myself to accept it... tryin to tell myself itz nt tt impt to go uni... pass can liaoz... but no! i jz cant bring myself to accept tt i haf such a fcuking shitty grade~! nt used to gettin dis kinda grade for my chinese, i guess... sure, u'll b rollin ur eyes or tinkin wad an arrogant bastard im bein... but im serious... i noe my strengths and chinese is one of dem... itz stuff lyk maths n physics which im weak in... jz cant take it lyin down tt i din get at least an A grade for chinese... even yi yi gort an A1... all right all right stop ur bitching... itz over... e grade is there printed on yr result slip n no amount of whining is gona change e 3 to a 2... so face it!!! haiz... itz reli bin a tight slap in my face n a LOUD wake up call for mi to reli start focussing on my studies and reli work hard n smart to achieve e grades i want at e end of dis yr... i reli dun wan to regret lyk i did dis time... history did repeat itself... i din get e grade i wanted for o's and retook it... now same for ao's... onli i aint gona waste time takin it again... b sensible... haf e wisdom to let go of ur pride n focus on something more impt...

if chinese ao results r hittin mi wif dis impact, i dun wana tink abt my a's... ='(

bitching does nth... sure u vent off wadeva frustration ure feelin rite now... but jz rmb to pick yrself up and continue walkin... n make sure u dun make e same mistake again... wake up... truly...

hate myself... urgh... B3 for chinese... tt's lyk so totalli shitty? even yi yi gort an A1... itz reli dealt mi a tight slap across e face dis time... reli muz wake up le... i muz work reli hard n smart to achieve my top grades... i MUST achieve dem... i noe i can do it... jz tt im damn lazy... reli dealt mi wif a veri heavy blow...

on e other hand, talentime 2006 is comin up... and i wuz tinkin mayb s8 cld join e group dance? i wuz tinkin of teachin dem e dance we danced at SD anniversary... but im nt gettin e feelin e response will b gd at all... hmm...

results... r we jz e slaves of it?