jz typed a heck of a long entry out of wadeva im feelin n it had to delete itself... wtf?

mood swing... zzzz... simple harmonic motion... wheeeeeeeeee~ siaoz... no pt tryin to curb it... if it reli wans to come, let it...

i wonder...

e testimonial jih yang gave mi quite encouragin... hmmm...

like van said... life's like a straw now...

new specs suck... kip pressin against my temples... so painful...

wuz such a long entry... now no more feelin to type le... wadeva...

kelvin's gona start chantin... ^_^

haha... finally managed to fix e modem... actualli nth wrong wif it la... jz e line n adaptor faulty... nt bad sia... managed to do it by myself, considerin i noe nuts abt dis kinda thing... which is a shame, as my father is such a gr8 electrician n technician... but tt's beside e pt...

TODAY NO SCHOOL~! so shuang... but spent most of it doin e bio spa skill A wif e others lorz... sianz... take so long... den ppl lyk yi yi go dere, laze ard n do nth... in e end drag n drag n drag...

went for medical checkup ytd... startin to feel reli reli scared... muz start working out (how mani times haf i said tt?)... now currently pes D... still pending... cuz of my asthma n moderate bld pressure... kip my fingers crossed ba... didnt see ani familiar faces there... pity... but at least i managed to chat wif sum1 there... sum1 quite a number of yrs older den mi... he bin thru 2 yrs le... but disrupted... den now gotta serve e remainder... oso nt veri sure abt his situation... he's one of e last few batches to serve more den 2 yrs of ns... tt's suay... lolz... but reli can see ns is gona b one of e toughest times im gona hafta endure thru... nt jz physical challenges wor... mental n emotional too... tt's gd la... gotta train myself up...

again, i caught star catchers on tv jz now... and again, e plot is still jz as cliche... but still caught it... haha... tho i can lyk write out their script now la... shld haf sth new... but im still bo liao enuff to watch it...

i hate to love and i'd love to hate... but i can't...

first time i ate so little for dinner... let's see... wad did i haf? missed dinner afta havin to rush frm jj to outram... den at rf's hse ate a small plate of beehoon n 2 small bowls of salad n 2 cups of ribena n a cup of water... miracle... today's daimokukai oso wuz quite enjoyable~ nt cuz of e food la... but our topic of discussion reli quite interestin... family... reli makes mi appreciate my family a whole lot more... ^_^

den alex has finally agreed n confirmed wif mi on performing for SD concert... YAY!!! haha... asked mi if he cld bring new frens somemore... woots~! he seems to haf a severe case of nerves... gotta try n help him out wif tt... but he reli plays wonderfully... the canon in D...

bin chattin wif wei han again... e poor dude reli kena victimised by mi for too mani times le... hahaha... wad to do? he's ez to tok to...

knockin out... 1 am le...

hi peeps... dis is gona b another long, bitchy post... so do haf e patience to read it thru... if nt... simply click e cross at the top right-hand corner of dis page...

tt woman is reli goin overboard... she knew we had bio makeup prac today yet she enforced tt all e scholars had to go for her gp remedial clz... so now itz bein postponed to tml... i'll end at 6... wun haf time to go to ctss's last speech day b4 it moves to e temporary campus n i'll hafta rush over to rf's hse for daimokukai... wtf? she's reli goin overboard... yes we noe abt e testimonial... we noe abt how itz gona affect us... saein it once or twice, at most 3 times will do le... there's no nid for u to kip repeatin urself over n over n over n over again lyk a parrot... even a parrot gets tired... sheesh... sure, we noe u can't massage e ego all e time but there's no nid to kip stabbin it wif a dagger sharpened on both ends... we haf our frustrations too u noe... nearly exploded when pui khuan announced there wuz no prac today... urgh~

but heng sia... gona c my flute section on saturday... wonder if andrew is goin... hope so... haven seen him for quite some time le... gona thrash (or is it trash? haha) up chloe's hse... wahaha... duno if i'll haf enuff money to pay for it tho... c how ba...

jz watched meng ping tu on tv jz now... sure, the story's touchin n all but can e stories nt b so cliche? itz lyk so i-can-tell-the-story-before-you-even-act-it-out... haha... oh well... see how it proceeds ba...

phy test tml... maths quiz tml... gettin back chem test tml...

wonder if alex is willin to perform for e sd concert... he seemed quite ok wif it... kip fingers crossed ba... haha...

im sposed to b studyin... wad's wrong wif mi... i cant afford to do badly dis yr...

nt as ez as i tot it wld b... tot i cld... guess i cant... nt yet aniwae...

i reli shldnt b bitchin abt dis but j2 life is reli stressed... let's see... tml gort NAPFA... which im doomed to failure... n itz gona drag till 6pm where i'm gona miss out at least 2 precious hours desperately tryin to revise for my bio test on wed... which is gona include 5 topics, none of which i haf revised for yet... isnt tt jz wonderful? den band is gona drag n drag till abt 8pm on wed evenin and i've gort NA quiz n phy test on thurs... tt's gr8~!

speakin of which... durin phy lecture today mr low n mr sin sat in front of mi n kept discussin abt analogue electronics while i wuz tryin to pay attention to mr phang lecture on magnetism n electromagnetism... -.-'''... mr low oso a bit guo fen sia... mr phang lecturin den he kept laughin at him... lolz... itz one thing for students to luff at tchrs la... but itz another for tchrs to luff at tchrs yeah? den when he sat down he put a leg over e other n his student jz turned ard "eh mr low... dun lidat la... can see inside liaoz..." den of all e things he did he had to pull out e white material inside... e one usually sewn to sport shorts n luffed... i went lyk omg... wad's wrong wif my phy tutor? zzz... haha... oh well... none of my business... den at e end of e lecture mr sin came and apologised den tok to mi lyk old fren lidat... haha... he's a veri nice guy... voice sounds a bit rough but veri ez guy to tok to...

woohoo... let's all fail NAPFA tgt tml...

sianz~

looooooong time since i updated... hope u guys haven missed mi... let's see... wad's bin happenin dis past few days?

had e most challengin chem test so far dis wk... i cld still handle it, despite e NMR spec... haha... always ticam e structure b4 i draw e table de... hahaha... works for mi... aniwae... hope i can still get an A for dis test... if i dun... i dun nid to stay in science stream le... considerin e shitty stage in which my bio n phy r in right now... haiz... maths oso... test on first o.d.e. sucked big time... if i can pass tt den it muz b cuz yew hien wuz sittin beside mi le... hahaha... duno wad ms chia wuz talkin abt last yr when she wuz teachin dis topic... wadeva... jz betta do betta for NA test when it comes ba...

went for tj's arts festival on thurs for performance... e ASD dance still rocked big time... haha... my hair, as usual, wuz e nightmare of e makeup auntie... haha...

had e campus dialogue tutorial e nxt dae mornin... to my horror, onli cics n iics came over... wtf wuz i sposed to do? i tot my hse quite near for jjcians? no? no j1s n j2s turned up la... thx a lot yeah? -.- as usual, information overload... teck kiang jz rattled on n on n on... i noe he means well la... but reli feel he nids to cut back on e info too... hmm... mayb i shld bring dis up yeah? lolz... e guy is forever so pompous but he's a reli nice guy... always lookin out for everybody... im sure tt's jz his way of expressin himself ba...

afta tt slacked at home for a couple of hours, neglectin e mountainload of hw awaitin mi... den set off for kalel's choir graduatin concert... first to reach there... waited for lyk 20 mins... den jackson arrived... chatted n caught up wif each other, while waitin veri impatiently for siyi to arrive wif e tix... den finally gort dem afta she arrived... waited again extremely impatiently for rachel, benny, jianli n stella to arrive... afta which dey finally did n we went up abt 15 mins late and missed half e video... but e choir performances were much more impt n wonderful la... esp e phantom of e opera... omg... totally mesmerised by e singin... woots... brings back so mani memories... >.<... afta e performance ended, which wuz surprisingly n unusually early, we hanged ard waitin for e GOH n finally left for supper... pls haf a conscience... how wld u feel n wad wld u do if tt happened to u? i tink u'd feel much much worse la... dammit...

den today went for institutional mtg... reli veri shagg liaoz... 3 consecutive daes... high time i devoted some time to my work... yay~! muggin out at syc tml... muz complete all my hw... esp ms p's... lest she blow up again... sianz...

breathing problems again... dun get paranoid now... pls...

auntie siew hua introduced mi to drinking apple cider a couple of weeks back... said it cld help prevent high blood pressure... n if e person alr has, can help to control it... >.< hope im nt too late... itz kinda sour... but im gettin used to e taste le... hope im still in time...

havin dance prac tml~! yippee!!! missed e sd dance sooooooo much... cant bliv im actually gona dance it again... but still... guess itz a bit of guilty pleasure... still gort tons of work left undone... eeks~! ms p's aq till now haven even touched it... actualli gort do la... but she rejected e whole clz's work... oh well... time to work tt pen again...

jz watched wei lian's mtv, chu mo, on tv jz now... a bit too melodramatic for mi... e way e female lead wuz suffocatin frm her asthma attack n e male lead carryin her in e rain n cryin buckets n in e end when e female lead died e male lead wuz pleadin e doctor lyk mad to save her... reli too melodramatic for mi... tong hua wuz betta... but oh well, hu m i to comment? e 3rd party wuz bad enuff too... took away her inhaler on purpose... somemore her gd fren lei... imagine if my inhaler got taken away n i had a serious asthma attack... ever seen her a lump of fat oozing oil? yep... there we go...

jz read pui khuan's blog... e way she expresses herself... woots... *bows...

still keepin a lot inside... wana express it out but somehow... e words dun wana flow... e thing i wrote abt e Grimreaper a couple of entries ago was able to come out simply cuz i jz let it flow... but somehow, wad i wana express how here jz doesnt come out... sigh...

had pc ytd... 5 mths bmt? tt's accordin to ng chor tan... i at most want 4 mths onli hor... tolong... wonder how jj, gengli and chun yiu r doin in dere... copin well i hope... gona miss dem... esp jj...

when fear grips your heart like a vice... when paranoia engulfs you like an endless mist... when despair covers you like a cloak... when you suffocate and gasp for air... when you smell that sulphurous smell... when you hear that mirthless laugh, dripping with evil, thirst and madness... when the last strand of hope is brutally torn apart... when the drop of liquid tumbles down and lands on the floor with a deafening crash... pain beyond words...

bio spa tml... sianz...

had band 'orientation' ytd... reli had loads n loads of fun... hahaha... suhaila asked mi wad wuz alex's name... said he wuz always smilin and lookin so cheerful... i muz sae i agree... always see him flashin tt bright smile of his... haha... but i tink e best fun wuz when we had e snortin performance at e end of e orientation ba... let's see... mi... jia feng... deqi... kent and ah roy... deqi did most of e snorting la... jia feng cld snort wif her nose... kent cld snort lyk he wuz scoldin someone n i cld snort lyk a lion's roar... ah roy wuz beside us, paralysed wif laughter... literally cryin wif laughter le... we oso la... look n hear how each of us did it... i laughed till i coughed, cried n my asthma nearly came up again... it reli wuz tt farnie... guess u gotta b there to experience it... lolz... we bonded... ^_^

band pracs n weekends... salvation... haha...

we made mrs leong cry ytd... reli feel veri guilty... esp since afta tt i still had e cheek to hand in my maths file wifout corrections... itz reli solely our clz's fault lorz... she's still willin to mark everythin n anithin we hand in late n she has to tolerate all our nonsense n wad not... she can stand us till dis pt i reli veri pei fu her alr... we reli shld apologise... but dey all... haiz... y is s8 lidat? reli feel veri sad for dem...

hu's goin in tml? jj, gengli, chun yiu n winston... gd luck guys... muz jiayou n take care in dere...

tml's another long day... again... decided to quit alumni band... as in stop goin for practices altogether... i noe nili will b disappointed but dis time i reli muz put my foot down... i noe i cant contribute much... reli nid to start focussin... itz nt april onli... itz already april...

wonder how'd it'd b lyk when i go into e army... tears, tears n more tears i spose... hahaha... when i go thru e torture inside... sheesh... oh well... lalala~

chem spa skill a is quite ez... wish bio wuz as ez... haiz...

bio spa tml... sianz...

jj n gengli goin tekong dis fri le... gd luck guys... muz survive n tell mi wad itz lyk in dere... haha...

still gort ms. p's AQ to do... sian la... wadeva we do, she reject... haiz...

random tots jz flowin out again... so b prepared to read a disjointed entry...

talkin to weihan again... bin chattin wif him quite often nowadays, even tho i dun reli noe him... hmm... mayb tt's y im gettin along so well wif him online? haha...

mayb i shld get alex to come down to perform for e sd concert yeah? his piano quite gd lei, considerin he has absolute zip zilch background... pachelbel canon... joy to e world... guan huai fang shi... the entertainer... yep yep... shld consider... haha...

reli muz stop slackin lyk dis... itz reli veri veri dangerous... haiz... i kip tellin myself dis yet i jz cant push myself lorz... lyk jaymie said... im stressed bcuz im not stressed...

analogue electronics? wad's tt?

bio spa dis fri... sianz... duno wad im sposed to do... haiz...

phy spa nxt wed... surprisingly i feel more confident of it as compared to bio... miracle hor?

sent huiqin to her tuition centre ytd... surprisingly near my hse... sad tt i still had to take such a long time to find it... -.-'''

band 'orientation' tml... woots~!

tt ms p. ar... haiz... stepped into e clz 5 mins b4 e civics period ended and wanted us to finish sth we were sposed to do durin e hr she wuz absent... doesnt apologise... doesnt explain y she wuz so late... wtf?

ctsb flute section gatherin? haha, i'll wreck chloe's hse if we go dere for bbq...

shld i continue contributin to ctawe? im lyk e onli yr 2 in jc over dere now... i reli nid to focus on my work... dis yr is an extremely impt one for mi... i tink itz reli time for mi to put my foot down n tell nili i reli cannot commit to contributin to ctawe, esp in e ex-co... i reli feel i cant contribute much lorz...

sore throat? hope nt...

started bk 3 le... bk 2 surprisingly onli took mi 2 mths to complete it... nt bad sia... reli treated it lyk a Pensieve dis time... hope bk 3 will clear at dis speed too... faster, if possible... hahaha...



onli posted one pic of e daimokukai held at my place last fri... lazy to post e rest...

is it jz mi bein paranoid? or is it reli happenin? i reli duno... fear e worst... i've been feelin chest pains and tightness... not to mention dizziness... my head feels tight too... is my body finally wreakin revenge on mi, afta wad i've made it go thru these past 17 years? itz nth to joke abt... my family has a history of it... will i inherit it? fear... grippin my heart... literally... why does dis haf to happen? cuz i've been no different frm a pig these past 17 years? i guess so... itz wad i deserve i guess...

had ms p's lesson dis aftanoon... learnt a lot... afta tt went over to jp for lunch... at 3.30pm... lolz... den teck kiang called mi... supposedly a dialogue but mostly his monologue la... haha... didnt nid to sae much... talked for abt 20 mins... den went over to bossini and giordano to look see look see some shirts... i noe im a libra n we're sposed to b fickle-minded but dis is ridiculous... i spend more den 30 mins lookin for a shirt tt i like n e poor shop assistant was tryin his best nt to lose his patience wif mi... hahaha... haiz... total sucker when it comes to choosin my clothes... sheesh... e material of e polo tees were quite gd tho... mayb i shld gif it another chance...

loads of work to do... so little time to do it... yet i still can spare e time to come online n blog? hahaha... dun we all? well... piggin out at syc tml... hope it'll b sufficient time for mi to slave thru e work im sposed to do... esp ms p's aq... eeks...

if i do haf hypertension, wad wld i do? reli duno... muz pray hard i dun haf... n tt i will nv haf... see la... onli worry when e problem comes... now worry no use de boy...

As he heard the unforgiving sound of his body slamming against the concrete slab echoing indefinitely, a mirthless smirk etched itself across the face of the Grimreaper. Evil in its purest state. Inching forward to claim its reward, the Grimreaper extended a bony arm and curved a finger. Immediately, his soul was ripped from his body, coursing through the air like steel to a magnet. The smile widened. The shell, still oozing the crimson puddle it was bathing in now, lay still. Eyes bloodshot. Cracked skull. Lost soul. Drip. Drip. Drip. Drip. The Grimreaper turned. Smiles. Licks its lips. What a reward. Wait. What was that now? The smile widened. The Grimreaper rotated about the point, sensing additional incentives. Was that sorrow? Anger? As the two gimlets swivelled, they sensed the source of radiation. Trickle. Trickle. Trickle. Trickle. Once more, the finger curved. Evil was fed. But wait! What was this? The Grimreaper stumbled, a poison so strong coursed through it like a vicious snake. Dark fire ignited. The Grimreaper was gone.

Dun get freaked out. Just wrote this out of a sudden inspiration. It is my own work this time. Hahaha...

jz held daimokukai at my hse... IT ROCKED!!! hahaha... had so much fun and we had such a wonderful dialogue... pity it had to end so soon... talked abt so much... friendships... bgr... studies... laughed lyk mad... sk and jiayang shared a lot abt e bgr part... stacey shared sth too... reli learnt loads frm dis dialogue... hope e others benefitted too~! dey said dey had fun... haha... ure welcome guys~! guess today's probably e last time im gona c jj wif hair... until e distant future... cuz he goin tekong trip for haircut nxt fri le... gonna miss him loads... haiz... caught up wif him, became quite close frens wif him and now he's gotta go off... sianz...

seein ms. p tml... sianz... finishin her exercises soon...