I'm getting pre-Monday blues... hahaha... i mean u can't exactly blame mi... goin to e office to waste my time... =.= can't wait for uni man... lolz... but i muz make e full use of my 2 yrs la... kip tellin myself dis... so much stuff to learn... my jap course startin soon... muggin on basic drivin theory... n nt to mention how to use e damned open office... URGH!!! hahaha...

ndp preview ytd... gave my 2 tix to anson... dun look at mi lidat... im nt mad... cuz i've alr seen e first NE show le... haha... at least he had a reli gd time wif......... *ahem.... haha... tt's most impt... e tix weren't wasted... =) fireworks seen on tv jz totalli sux as compared to seein dem live... take it from me... hahaha...

I HATE MY LIFE!!! urgh...

i reli haf to cut back on my spending... u're not earnin much... but u spend like mad... r u out of ur mind??? u nid tt money for uni u idiot!!! nt to mention u're nt feelin physically well... n u're still gorgin urself on all tt crap tt's gonna make u sicker... IDIOT!!!

y muz i feel dis way... gosh...

being sick sucks... tho at least i dun haf to report to camp for these 2 days... zzz... shld haf jz asked dr ling to round it off to 3 days... den dis whole wk no nid to report liaoz... aniwae whether im there or nt oso nt much diff... zzz... wonder if i'll b well enuff to go nina's hsewarmin dis sat or nt... zzz...

im trying veri hard to kip up a positive attitude towards army... but wif wad i'm doin now, i reli can't help but feel tt it reli is a blardy waste of time... i cld b doin so much more wif my life in uni for instance... or in teaching... urgh...

attended his funeral yesterday... cldnt help myself... my tears fell... i nv realised tt wuz e way he had impacted his family, frens n colleagues... i may nt haf known him veri well... but frm wadeva tt i do noe, he reli is a veri veri nice guy... like tt time when i wuz askin for his advice on insurance... he wuz jz so patient n sincere... made sure to explain everythin crystal clear to mi... shows his excellent working attitude...

but enuff abt sad stuff... i reli nid sth to turn my mood ard... guess tt'll b e long-awaited arrival of harry potter and the deathly hallows ba... reli wana c how j k rowling ties up all her loose ends... she'd betta do a gd job of it cuz i reli haf v high expectations of dis final bk... so mani qns in my mind... she'd betta ans every single one of dem...

20 mths to ORD... LOLZ...

im still shaken by his death... saw his story reported on the straits times n the new paper... e impact has now fully struck mi in e face... n it sux... he wasn't rdy to go at all... he wuz lookin forward to so much... n it reli means tt it cld b ani1 else nxt... you... me... him... her... so pls... to all out there... cherish all tt u haf... e ppl tt u haf... e things tt u own... haf u always had a big crush on dis guy/gal tt u've bin dyin to ask out? take tt chance... go for it... y save yr best perfume? use it when u tink u want to... haf no regrets in life... cuz u nv noe when you mite nt haf a chance to remedy tt regret animore... rest in peace my friend...

life is really just so unpredictable and cruel sometimes... these few days has just been one of the most horrible ones I've had to experience so far this year...

firstly, my mum... these few days she's been looking very very down... i know it's a sign that something's troubling her... i really want to be there for her... but how can i if she chooses to remain tight-lipped about it!!! the pain, sadness and frustration that i feel now just really SUCKS BIG TIME!!! thank goodness she's much better now...

secondly, a friend of mine just passed away... died in an accident apparently... still very shaken by the news... not a very close friend... but it's still very shocking... just rendered me speechless and totally shocked... if this is the kind of reaction i'm getting... imagine the reactions of his family members... his sister actually cried so hard she fainted... really just made me appreciate the fact that it could be me next... or you... or him... or her... that's life... it seems kind of impossible that he was just talking to me a few weeks ago... oh gosh... and now i'm experiencing chest pains so often... it could be me next on the line...

love the people around you, more than you have ever done before because you will never when they will not be around to feel your love anymore... appreciate life... be grateful... be like Pollyanna... if you're complaining you have to walk because your car broke down, be glad you can still walk... if you're complaining that your mother is nagging at you all the time, be glad she still has the energy and lifeforce to nag at you... if you're complaining about the boring desk job that you have and the demanding boss, be glad you're employed... if you're complaining about myopia and astigmatism affecting your vision, be glad you're not blind... when you're pitying yourself because you only have one dollar to your name, think of the person who only has ten cents to his name and you will be ten times happier... when you have a packet of Oreos, share it with two people and your happiness is doubled...

choose life, your way...

been daydreaming about teaching recently... again... lolz... bin chattin wif my students again and itz jz totally HILARIOUS!!! OMG!!! hahaha... poor jun wei... oh well... sayang... betta luck nxt time ba... ;) but seriously... i've reli bin tinkin and tinkin on wad kinda methods i'm gona use wif my kids in e future... wad kinda antics i'll use to make sure i get their attention... stuff lidat... im reli tt hyped up abt teachin n sometimes tinkin tt 6 yrs lie btw mi n teachin reli does get mi down quite a bit... for the umpteenth time... I LOVE YOU 3D1 '07!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MISS TEACHING YOU LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS, EVEN THOUGH I ONLY TAUGHT YOU GUYS FOR BARELY 3 WEEKS BUT I REALLY REALLY HAVE FORGED REALLY STRONG BONDS WITH YOU GUYS!!! i sound mad here but bliv mi... i haven't stopped dreamin abt teachin u guys... u guys reli were a JOY to teach... no matter whether u were weak or strong, u guys were jz incredible... e same goes out to my other 3 classes k... reli miss u guys loads...

haiz... like i said... i reli let my emotions rule me... shldnt haf said wad i said in my previous post... but i reli am still veri veri angry abt it... dammit... u noe damn well i dun like spoilers n u still purposely tell mi... nvm... u watch out... hopefully itz false info... pls let it b false info... gosh...

sometimes itz reli ez to feel happy... jz tink happy tots!!! it reli helps... jz came back from the NDP preview... FIREWORKS WERE AWESOME!!! hahaha... on e way back jz kept goin over happy stuff in my head... my pri 1 form teacher... e ppl in my flute section... andrew... nv felt so close to a fren somemore... so lucky to haf found a fren whom i can treat as closely as a brother... chloe... e fun n joy of the section... cant imagine wad life in e section wld b if she wasnt in e section... and loads of other stuff...

nid to haf betta control over my emotions... reli feel tt i let my emotions rule mi too much too often... yet i cant help it... tt's e way im built...

and to all spoilers... FUCK OFF!!!

i've jz seen sth reli funny... here u go...

PARADOX OF OUR TIMES

Today we have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences , but less time

We have more degrees, but less common sense; more knowledge, but less judegement

We have more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness

We spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast , get too angry to quickly, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV to often and pray too seldom

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too little and lie too often.

We've learned how to make a living but not a life; we've added years to life, not life to years.

We have taller buildings; but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints.

We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbour.

We've conquered outer space, but not inner space. We've split the atom, but not our prejudice.

We write more, but learn less; plan more, but accomplish less

We've learnt to rush, but not wait; we have higher incomes, but lower morals.

We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies, but have less communication. We are long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestions; tall men and short character; steep profits and shallow relationships.

More leisure and less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition; two incomes, but more divorce; fancier houses, but broken homes.

That's why I propose, that as of todady, you do not keep anything for a special occasion, because every day that you live is a special occasion.

Search for knowledge, read more, sit on your front porch and admire the view without paying attention to your needs.

Spend more time with your family and friends, eat your favourite foods, and visit the places you love.

Life is a chain of moments of enjoyment, not only about survival.

Use your crystal goblets. Do not save your best perfume, and use it every time you feel you want it.

Remove from your vocabulary phrases like 'one of these days' and 'someday'. Let's write that letter we thought of writing 'one of these days'.

Let's tell our families and friends how much we love them. Do not delay anything that adds laughter and joy to your life.

Every day, every hour, and every minute is special. And you don't know if it will be your last.

jz went for flute section outing last sat... SO GREAT to c u guys again afta so long!!! missed u guys so much... wuz reli gr8 to c all of u guys again... dun sweat the block tests... u guys will do great!!!!

stuck in my office... slacking... wanting to leave this crappy place for good so i can enter uni or go back to teaching... someone pls deliver me!!!