Totally in no mood to study my Maths now, even though I only have five days left to it. It's my last paper, so I really hope I don't lose my momentum. Looking at Prof Chew's past year papers only serves to demoralise me at this point of time.

I'm still dwelling on CM1131. I know I should stop thinking about it because it's not going to be of the slightest help even if I do. But I really can't help it. I'm really so afraid of getting a C or having to repeat this module when I think of the answers I wrote and realising that most of them are wrong. I'm going to have an anxiety attack soon if I don't stop dwelling on it.

Speaking of anxiety attacks, I nearly had one yesterday. Nearly couldn't finish my GEK1535 paper on time. Almost had a heart attack when the examiner announced time's up. But I thought the paper was ok. Certainly one of my better ones, if not the best one, out of the four I've taken so far.

Am I cut out for uni?

Just finished CM1131 today. I think I'm going to have nightmares about it soon. I've never felt so much pressure for Chemistry as I have for this module, which, strictly speaking, isn't all Chemistry. I have this very deep fear of repeating this module. Billy told me Daniel did only two questions and got a B for it, which makes me feel a bit better. But when I think of what I wrote for my exam, any minute good feeling I might have vanishes on the spot. For the first time in my life, I was scared of discussing the paper after it ended. I was really very afraid to find out my answers were wrong, given that I really didn't write much for this paper. Billy also said the grade for CM1131 will be our Christmas present. Hopefully I'll want to come back to Singapore after seeing it. Everyone tells me bell curve will help. Let's hope it really does.

The prowler stalks his second victim, lurking in the black shadows. Chloroform-soaked handkerchief in hand, he pounces on his victim and brings the handkerchief to his victim's face. His victim goes limp after a few seconds' struggle. A flash of silver in the dark alley across his victim's throat. A surge of scarlet bursts forth, staining his clothes and forming a morbid puddle on the floor. His lips curl upwards as he walks away, letting the blood drain from his victim.

Really totally wrecked after today's papers...

Firstly, econs. Econs wasn't good for me since mid-term. Now, I think it's worse. SU? I think very likely. But I really don't want to waste an SU this semester.

Secondly, CM1101. Totally destroyed my morale. I blanked out for my MO diagram, screwed up my units conversion and couldn't get my Lewis structure right. There goes my A.

Let's see if the rest of my papers are going to be as screwed as this.

Operation 4.7? Ha...

He prowls behind his unsuspecting victim, wearing a grim smile on his face. Slowly, he edges towards his victim. His victim finally senses him and turns around. A gloved hand covers his victim's mouth, muffling the screams as he plunges the knife in his hand into his victim. Once. Twice. Thrice. On the third time, he twists his knife hard before yanking it out of his victim. Leaving his victim lifeless on the floor, eyes staring where they cannot see, he cackles, turns and walks off.

Is having past year paper solutions a good thing? Eric called me to discuss the past year paper solutions for CM1131 and we both got kinda agitated over it. Don't get me wrong, we were both agitated against the same thing: the shitty standard of the answers. Apparently, seniors struggle with CM1131 as much as we do by the look of their answers. =S CM1131 shouldn't be a level 1000 module!!!

Final term exams are in 3 days time. Do I feel prepared? To be honest, I don't know! I've done the past year papers for all the modules that have past year papers available on LINC but I also know those questions are not going to repeat themselves, so will I be able to solve the questions set this year? Mugging just doesn't seem complete without TYS. The past year papers are what come closest to the TYS but somehow I just don't feel too secure and I can't seem to do anything more about it.

A lot has been happening at home, physically. I finally don't have to share a room with my brother! Imagine, having my room for the first time in 21 years. Kinda sad hor. Lolz. But it's really great having my own room and privacy. My bro's got the TV in his room but honestly, I don't care. He's the one who's hooked on KBS world, not me. I've got my own room, my own bed and my own MacBook. I'm happy =D Really, all the TV I wanna watch can be found online, so what's the point of having a TV?

I'm really looking forward to the end of exams. Should I attend Torinomi sensei's farewell dinner? It's on the same day as Maths. Not that I really care, especially since it's the last paper. But my clique has a long day planned. Hmm, see how ba.

Ok, surprisingly long entry. To all having exams, JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After chionging 110 MCQ questions today, my brain really feels like a wrung sponge. I'm going crazy with all the stuff I have to memorise for macroecons. I HATE MACROECONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next week, D-Day arrives. That will mark the success or failure of operation 4.7.

Expecting me to push and strain my brain like that after two years is really nothing short of ridiculous. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear readers, I will most probably go on a hiatus till after exams. Till then, ciaoz.

刚刚看完"18禁不禁"第18集。在片尾，男主角的一句话我觉得非常有意义，各位男读者也可做参考。

兄弟们，想把妹，就一定要三心二意。要贴心、用心、细心，还要有诚意。最后，就要看天意。

看了觉得很有意义，想和大家分享。

今天就分享到这儿。晚安! =)

2 weeks left to first paper. Will I be ready?

RJC top scholar coming over on Wednesday to teach me Econs. LOLZ!

真想继续写我的"邱毕恃的失误"。

"je'taime vous" 这句话我什么时候才会有机会说呢？而听我说的那个人又什么时候才会出现呢？我看, 就只能随缘吧。

Ok, just got my grade for my CM1101 mid-term test, which is a crappy B+. Very disappointed with myself, cuz this is one of my stronger modules. Guess not. Not going to let it affect me so badly this time round. This is only 5% of my overall grade. I still have 70% to score in. OPERATION 4.7 WILL SUCCEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just received my letter for JLPT 3 today. Taking it at SMU this year. It's exactly one month from now and I haven't started revision for it. Woots.

My holiday plans are a little screwed up. =S

Choosing to blog now even though I'm dead beat. Couldn't get my CM1131 revision done as planned today, all thanks to the CM1131 mass tutorial, which, sad to say, I can't do everything. My end-of-term exam weightage for CM1131 is 70%. Woots.

The fact that I have less than 20 days to my final exams is getting to me. Seeing how I only just started revision a couple of days ago, I don't know how I will pull through for these upcoming exams. I can't seem to push myself to study, which is strange. I usually feel the pressure when exams are near. Isn't 20 days near enough?

Thinking back on what happened today. I'm actually doing all my learning of macroeconomics in tutorials. I learn when I realise what I do wrong. Will it be sufficient for end-of-term exams? Time will tell. Time to approach Connie for consultation soon.

My dear PC just died yesterday. Now waiting for the technician to come and revive it. Thank goodness my MacBook won't die on me so easily. Love Mac. WOOHOO!!!

Stress is increasing exponentially. I need to find a way to log it back to normal.

Mid-term tests are history. Whether I've done well in them or not, it's already cast in stone. Now I need to focus on what I can change.

I WILL NOT SHORTCHANGE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!

絶対大丈夫だよ！！！！！

我真的好不甘心!!!!!!!! 为什么我为了数学那么努力, 那么拼命, 考出来的成绩却是那么烂呢？每堂课我都上, 每次都努力地听, 习题也都有做, 但却有这种下场？难道不去上课, 习题不做就能考得好吗？这样公平吗？真的好不甘心。。。

我就只能当凡人吗？

Sigh, it's about 20 days to my end-of-term exams and I haven't started preparing for them. Woots. I haven't been able to follow what my dear lecturers have been talking about for the past few weeks but I don't seem to particularly worried about it. Think I'm going to crash and burn for my final terms.

Haven't been able to do any work today except my lab report, which, I'm happy to say, I've finished. My CM1131 tutorial simply cannot make it because I have to plot so many graphs for it. Urgh. Trying to figure out what I should do and how I should do my CM1101 assignment, which is due on the 9th. Thank goodness I've finished my GEK1535 term paper. I can't imagine how it'd be like if all 3 of them were to crash together on me like that.

I'm really in no mood to do any more work tonight. I tried pushing myself to do my CM1131 tutorial but I just can't seem to get moving. I think I'll go watch my 18禁不禁 now ba. =P