Ok, I'm feeling kinda tired now but I think I'll blog a little now. Central library is so comfortable, hahaha.

Yesterday was our SYM rehearsal, the first one after CNY. The dry run was a little awkward no doubt, but I thought the actual run was pretty good, just that we screwed up the fan dance REAL BAD. =P And I think Shi-li reeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaallllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy took my words to heart. She didn't have enough chemistry with Lionel at first but after my teasing and advice, the directors said they had very good chemistry, to the extent they seemed to be whispering sweet-nothings to each other rather than speaking at one point. Hahaha! Ok, can't post any pictures here cuz it'll spoil the show. =P

Today has been a real drag too. LT27's aircon was either spoiled or not turned on. Jap tutorial TA didn't go well AT ALL. It's funny that I should keep stumbling in Morita sensei's class. Urgh. Gotta chiong CM1111 tutorial when I get home later. Gonna see dear Sreenivas tomorrow. *roll eyes. Lots of things to prepare for Jap as well... Gotta read up Practical 2 for LSM1401... HOW AM I EVER GONNA CLEAR THIS MOUNTAIN LOAD OF WORK?

Yes, I still feel disappointed. Very, in fact. Do you need to know? Guess not.

If there really was nothing inside me the whole time, then why do I feel so disappointed?

With that, Chinese New Year 2010 is officially over. Surprisingly, this year's visit to my paternal grandmother's house was a better than expected one. My cousins and I had a great time talking crap with each other, as we always do. It's really a shame that we only meet up once a year. My grandmother told me to bring my girlfriend to see her when I have one. I told her she had a long way to wait. Hahahaha! I love my grandmother so so so so so much la. She's such a caregiver. Throughout the entire day I see her doing nothing but walking around doing this that and the other, to the extent that I have to shout at her to get her to sit down and eat something. I really love her so much. ^_^ Well, I wasn't kidding when I said I was going to bring my girlfriend to meet her when I actually get one. I'd probably tell her before I tell my mum. =P


I've been totally unproductive so far in my recess week. I'm supposed to be catching up on revision, plenty of it, and I haven't. I have 3 mid-term tests to study for spread out over 3 weeks and I haven't started on a single one. Woohoo. Speaking of which, I set my target for this semester last month, which is another high one but hey, where's the challenge if you set too low a target yeah? So here goes...

CM1111 - Basic Inorganic Chemistry: A-
CM1121 - Basic Organic Chemistry: A
LSM1401 - Fundamentals of Biochemistry: A-
LSM1302 - Genes and Society: A
LAJ2201 - Japanese 2: A+

Average CAP this semester: 4.8
Average CAP: 4.35

Sure looks ambitious, doesn't it? I refuse to set a target anything lower than an A for my CM1121, which is my organic chem because organic chem happens to be the reason I got my A for my 'A' level Chemistry and I refuse to let that fact change now, despite the horribly difficult content which I have to memorise and familiarise in a matter of weeks. Genes and society is also important to me, as a large chunk of it (Prof. Hong's part) was 'A' Level Biology and I recall most of it. The newer part, the one Prof. Sawada is teaching now and what the last lecturer will teach, will irritate me a little more, but I think I should be able to handle most of that pretty well, especially since I find Prof. Sawada's explanations clear, albeit his accent does require a little fathoming. Hahaha. As for my LAJ2201, I really will take it personally if I don't get this grade for it. What would I have studied for for the past years if I don't get it?

As such, I have high hopes for this semester because it's the first semester when I've been able to pick modules that I love AND am capable of scoring. Usually, one comes without the other. Look at last semester. I slept in Dr. Lee's class half the time but I scraped an A- for his GEK1535. I went for all of Connie's lectures and a majority of Macro lectures and what did I get? B. See what I mean about one not coming with the other? I really like my electives and, amazingly, my core mods, this semester. But liking them isn't going to be enough for me to get the results I want. I really need to get my ass moving. zzzz...

Ok, going to SYC to make the souvenirs for the SUJ students tomorrow. They're coming next week! SO EXCITING!!! Finally gonna be able to practise my 日本語 again!

I wonder what would happen if Cupid got shot by one of his own arrows...

The recess week has come!!! I guess recess week this semester is better than last semester, even though my CNY break has been eaten up as NUS combined it with recess week. But at least I don't have exams crowding up the week immediately after recess week, thank goodness... Really must study my ass off during recess week. So much to catch up on. Surprisingly, my weakest module now is my LSM1401. Eugene was right about having to shade the bubble form for LSM1401 with two pencils at once. I can't imagine how I'm going to solve Prof. Seow's questions at the rate of 2 minutes per question.

Been thinking about relationship problems quite a bit these few days, both my own and of others. Sometimes I wish this part of life wasn't so complicated. Doesn't everybody want to love and be loved? Lolz. Now that I look back at all the advice I've given to friends so far, I wonder if any of it was useful, considering I have like zero experience in it. Lolz, is this the effect of Valentine's Day nearing? Ok fine, I won't deny that I want a partner in my life too, especially when I see happy couples sashay past me. But now that I seriously think about it, sometimes being single isn't all that bad too, I guess. Hahaha. And no, it is NOT sour grapes. =P

Supposed to be going out to meet NUSSD for KTV later at 10pm but I'm still blogging. Oh well. ^_^

Can't help but look forward to next SYM rehearsal. Can CNY pass faster so that SYM rehearsal can come faster? LOLZ!!! But then again, once SYM rehearsal comes, it'll signal the end of recess week and the onslaught of mid-terms. Whee. Lolz. Talk about being in two minds.

I will open the path for humanity, for you and for me...

Ok, thanks to Dad's loan of the car, I've managed to come home a bit earlier than usual from sectionals, hence I've got the time to blog. Haven't had time to blog at all on Monday and Tuesday considering I had to rush my Genes and Society assignment on Monday and my lab report on Tuesday. Really heaved a sigh of relief when today ended. Really has been so tiring. Hope my future sems won't be like this.

I find myself looking forward more to SYM rehearsals than Chinese New Year! Omg, really can't stand being away from those people for sooooooooooooo long!!! It's so much more interesting now that most of our lines have tunes to it. For some reason, I've been humming Lynette's part for the past few days non-stop. Why? Is her part very catchy? I need to hum my own part, for heaven's sake. I'm really looking forward to the part where Lionel and Shi-li have their duet. I think if they memorise their lines properly I think it's going to look and sound incredible! It's sad that SYM is going to be over so soon... Barely one month plus... Just when I was getting to know all those people from TPSD too... They're really an incredible bunch of people and it's them that have made me not mind so much that most of ASD and NUSSD are in the chinese cast while I'm in the english cast...

あなた　が　だんだん好きに　なっていると　思う。時々、あなたは　僕と　思っているかな？

First post in a week. Hmm...

I'm starting to feel really bad. I'm supposedly a senior but I can't seem to figure this one particular junior out. He's really a very important junior and friend in my life but I seem to be only seeing one side of him, as do many around him. I really want the best for him but I don't know how I should guide him. He's one of those who've left a footprint in my heart and I really really want to help but what can I do? Well, of course there's plenty I can do but what should I do? I'm really at a loss... I hate feeling this helpless...

My life condition has been spiralling downwards again. Has been since the beginning of this semester. What the heck is wrong with me? Where has all my fighting spirit gone to? I'm not putting any effort into my studies, I'm letting YouTube take over my life, I'm reproaching myself for things that aren't as bad as they seem or aren't really my fault. What the hell is going on with me? I don't have time for this! It's already week 5!

On the other hand, I signed myself up as a YOG volunteer to help out with the overseas athletes who are coming over in August. The problem is, I have to commit myself to it for 3 weeks in August, when term has already started, for three whole weeks. And by that, it also means no school. Wonder if they'll still pick me when they know about that. I'm really keen on this, especially since this will be a wonderful chance for me to practise my Japanese again and I have a good feeling it's going to improve by leaps and bounds because unlike those who come over from Soka University of Japan, these guys are going to be a little less well-versed in English, meaning I'm going to have to speak in Japanese most of the time, that is, if I do get the job.

たくさん問題　があるのが　大嫌い！僕の頭と心が　すごく痛い。それから、かのじょがいたら、僕の頭と心は　もっと　よく　なると　思う。馬鹿ね？

Ok, chialing's been bugging me to blog again. Blogging in John Yip's lecture. He's useless in teaching CM1111. Period. Nvm his accent but can he like at least talk a bit louder into the mike? If he continues like this, the only way I'm going to be able to hear him is with a stethoscope!

My jap homework is due in 3.5 hours and it's still nice and blank. My CM1111 tutorial is due tomorrow and it's still nice and blank. My CM1121 lab report is due this Wednesday and it's barely half done. Why am I doing this to myself?

Have I really gotten so used to holiday life that I'm totally unwilling to get my ass moving? It's already the start of week 4.