Today had ASD outing... Still managed to go despite mi nt feelin well... ^_^Y... But still had quite a gd time there... Games weren't too bad... Reli had a great day there... Haha... dun reli noe how to describe it, so onli a short paragraph here...
My mind's been thinkin too much again lately... Like Elizabeth said, some things are juz nt meant to b... and sometimes it reli makes mi accepts things more readily... even tho, in my heart, i still do feel kinda bitter and sad abt it... but i still do my best to accept it wif a smile... jz realised i cant reli take failures veri well... wheneva i fail i reli dwell on it for quite a bit of time...
Another thing i jz found tt i cant take veri well ish teasin, which i find hyper odd, considerin i've bin teased eva since i cld rmb, so i've bin tinkin all this while i shld haf gotten used to it and shldnt mind it animore but strangely enuff i still feel a bit hurt when teased... tho im quite ok when i make fun of myself... sigh... wad m i mutatin into? i feel so weird and scared of myself now... hahaha...
My asthma has bin actin up again... shant b able to dance at e rehearsal tml... sigh...
Project work oso seems to b gettin worse too... haiz....
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Why muz i haf fever now? It peaked at 39.2 ytd.... Siao de... Missed the HQ3 daimokukai, missed ctsb band camp.... I'd betta get well soon... I dun wana miss my performance... Tho afta watchin the yuhua and rv combined alumni band perform i gort no face to perform liaoz... dey damn gd la... zzZzZzZzZzzzZzZZz....
Oh btw... To those who duno how to go to the auditorium for my concert... Here are some instructions... I can't haf dem ani clearer le....
1. Alight at City Hall MRT Station
2. Walk to Singapore Arts Museum. It's about 5 mins walk.
3. Find Waterloo Street. It's juz nxt to the museum.
4. Look for YMS Centre. The auditorium doesn't stare at u in the face, so do look out for the building first.
5. Walk to YMS Centre.
6. Go in.
7. Find me at the reception counter. =)
8. You're there.
To all those who haf tix wif dem, esp timothy, pls do go for my concert... Dun waste ur precious $5.... thx a lot guys...
Oh btw... To those who duno how to go to the auditorium for my concert... Here are some instructions... I can't haf dem ani clearer le....
1. Alight at City Hall MRT Station
2. Walk to Singapore Arts Museum. It's about 5 mins walk.
3. Find Waterloo Street. It's juz nxt to the museum.
4. Look for YMS Centre. The auditorium doesn't stare at u in the face, so do look out for the building first.
5. Walk to YMS Centre.
6. Go in.
7. Find me at the reception counter. =)
8. You're there.
To all those who haf tix wif dem, esp timothy, pls do go for my concert... Dun waste ur precious $5.... thx a lot guys...
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Sigh... I duno wad or how to feel these days... Reli sooooooooooooo stressed up la... Mq, dun wori k? we'll all pray for u to continue comin for ycf...
It's nt tt i dun wana tag or i dun care... i do care... a lot more den wad u c on e surface... i jz wana tink abt how to help...
it's nt tt i dun wana do my hw... i do... ok im lyin... but hu wld wan to?
it's nt tt i dun wana turn up for ur concert... but i do haf my restrictions... esp in terms of $$$...
it's nt tt i dun wana agree wif u... nt tt i wana side wif anibody... jz tt i wana kip my frenships as dey r... jz tt i wana live wif and love my frens as we are rite now... ='(
it's nt tt i dun wana forget her... it's jz tt my heart refuses to do so k? WHATEVER!
these probs reli fill my head... fills it to itz burstin pt... hu else to talk to dem but myself? n ppl sae itz bad to talk to urself? i find it so relaxin and relieving sometimes... im e onli one hu can understand mi and even den, itz nt always... yet ironically.... i try to........
Feel like I'm losing my mind.... wun b surprised if i do.... lalala~... i still jz wana remain cheery and happy and bouncy...
It's nt tt i dun wana tag or i dun care... i do care... a lot more den wad u c on e surface... i jz wana tink abt how to help...
it's nt tt i dun wana do my hw... i do... ok im lyin... but hu wld wan to?
it's nt tt i dun wana turn up for ur concert... but i do haf my restrictions... esp in terms of $$$...
it's nt tt i dun wana agree wif u... nt tt i wana side wif anibody... jz tt i wana kip my frenships as dey r... jz tt i wana live wif and love my frens as we are rite now... ='(
it's nt tt i dun wana forget her... it's jz tt my heart refuses to do so k? WHATEVER!
these probs reli fill my head... fills it to itz burstin pt... hu else to talk to dem but myself? n ppl sae itz bad to talk to urself? i find it so relaxin and relieving sometimes... im e onli one hu can understand mi and even den, itz nt always... yet ironically.... i try to........
Feel like I'm losing my mind.... wun b surprised if i do.... lalala~... i still jz wana remain cheery and happy and bouncy...
Monday, June 06, 2005
We Were Friends Once Before
We were friends once before
You thought that was all
But I wanted so much more
Unwittingly I showed you the poem
As I tried to act so solemn
You asked whom I desire
Your queries never tire
Reluctantly I gave my answer
Of whom I really admire
Much to your shock, disgrace and bother
Ever since we never talked
Out of our friendship you walked
Ever since we became apart
With you went my heart
All our friendship could do is stray
As you ignored me everyday
Which made me feel
If I should conceal
My love I should say
And wait for another day
But you asked so sincerely
To reveal my secrets so dearly
To say what is true
The one I love is you
But can you handle the fact
Because the same feeling you lack
As you treated me so cold
As I tried to be so bold
And now it seems the end
Of being EVEN your friend
But please girl, think about this
Of what I dearly miss
What damage have I done?
What mutiny have I won?
To make you hate so much
When I needed a friend as such
Have I hurt your pride?
Or some feelings reside?
Which rule I didn’t abide
It’s you who hurt me inside
Now I can only regret
My feelings out I let
And wait for Nature to set
Now there’s a guy in your life
Intending to make you his wife
What can I do but sigh?
As my dear friend passes me by
Not turning for a single look
Not a greeting you took
As I am left sadly behind
As memories clouded my mind
Of times we had together
Which I once hope were forever
But good things couldn’t last
Those things were now the past
Sliding down a single tear
Wishing you were near
Struggling so hard to cope
As I lost every one hope
Strangely I didn’t pretend
If you’re happy I’m content
I now wish you all the best
May your life with him be blessed
I know I’m just a pest
If I entered your fanatic fest
I’ll just stand away and cry
But if you’re happy so am I
Doesn’t matter now that you don’t care
Not a single grudge I’ll bear
As my feelings apart you tear
Times of hardship you didn’t share
And with that guy you pair
I’ll just wait for the feelings to wear
I now know why I’m not wanted
Why my hopes must be aborted
Of what seemed like an enigma
With a smile I left my dilemma
As I tried to act so brave
But thanks for the joys you gave
Though they were never meant to be
But it helped to make me see
What character was in me
And what a loser I turned out to be
Doesn't matter if you don't accept me
Doesn't matter if you don't see my way
Know that I'm always there
To hear what you say
Just give me a chance
To wait for you each day...
-Crixilver
Another poem by that senior of mine... And if some letters dun turn out right, dun blame mi... itz the blog's fault...
Been feeling dis way these couple of days... Is stress making mi act dis way? hahaha... mayb ba?
Celebrated lao da's belated bdae ytd... Was reli fun... we sabo lao da!!! smashed cake in his face... den we gave him a t-shirt and a bk on the fine feelings of love... was tt the title? cant reli rmb... but yea... we hope to attend his banquet soon... ^_^... You guys rox!!! Thnx for buyin all my tix!!! But buy le muz come hor... dun later all stand mi up and waste your money... hahaha... dun wori, i'll inform one of u on how to go to tt place... i wun forget... hee~
Didn't noe givin tuition wuz soooooo tiring... Teach for 5 hrs i rdy to b snatched away by my dreams le...... haha... but still managed to teach properly.... sky was late for an hr but nvm la... im a patient guy... ^^
Extremely high pile of work awaiting mi... Onli done a little bit of it... but cant b bothered... itz e hols and im gonna enjoy it to e fullest b4 i haf to adhere my nose to the grindstone again....
Finished my blog entry... Kinda bo liao actualli... Cuz i made my entry follow a certain pattern... see if u can spot it... itz afta e poem of coz... hahaha... tt's wad happens when ure super bored and bo liao and haf lotsa free time to dis kinda thing...
We were friends once before
You thought that was all
But I wanted so much more
Unwittingly I showed you the poem
As I tried to act so solemn
You asked whom I desire
Your queries never tire
Reluctantly I gave my answer
Of whom I really admire
Much to your shock, disgrace and bother
Ever since we never talked
Out of our friendship you walked
Ever since we became apart
With you went my heart
All our friendship could do is stray
As you ignored me everyday
Which made me feel
If I should conceal
My love I should say
And wait for another day
But you asked so sincerely
To reveal my secrets so dearly
To say what is true
The one I love is you
But can you handle the fact
Because the same feeling you lack
As you treated me so cold
As I tried to be so bold
And now it seems the end
Of being EVEN your friend
But please girl, think about this
Of what I dearly miss
What damage have I done?
What mutiny have I won?
To make you hate so much
When I needed a friend as such
Have I hurt your pride?
Or some feelings reside?
Which rule I didn’t abide
It’s you who hurt me inside
Now I can only regret
My feelings out I let
And wait for Nature to set
Now there’s a guy in your life
Intending to make you his wife
What can I do but sigh?
As my dear friend passes me by
Not turning for a single look
Not a greeting you took
As I am left sadly behind
As memories clouded my mind
Of times we had together
Which I once hope were forever
But good things couldn’t last
Those things were now the past
Sliding down a single tear
Wishing you were near
Struggling so hard to cope
As I lost every one hope
Strangely I didn’t pretend
If you’re happy I’m content
I now wish you all the best
May your life with him be blessed
I know I’m just a pest
If I entered your fanatic fest
I’ll just stand away and cry
But if you’re happy so am I
Doesn’t matter now that you don’t care
Not a single grudge I’ll bear
As my feelings apart you tear
Times of hardship you didn’t share
And with that guy you pair
I’ll just wait for the feelings to wear
I now know why I’m not wanted
Why my hopes must be aborted
Of what seemed like an enigma
With a smile I left my dilemma
As I tried to act so brave
But thanks for the joys you gave
Though they were never meant to be
But it helped to make me see
What character was in me
And what a loser I turned out to be
Doesn't matter if you don't accept me
Doesn't matter if you don't see my way
Know that I'm always there
To hear what you say
Just give me a chance
To wait for you each day...
-Crixilver
Another poem by that senior of mine... And if some letters dun turn out right, dun blame mi... itz the blog's fault...
Been feeling dis way these couple of days... Is stress making mi act dis way? hahaha... mayb ba?
Celebrated lao da's belated bdae ytd... Was reli fun... we sabo lao da!!! smashed cake in his face... den we gave him a t-shirt and a bk on the fine feelings of love... was tt the title? cant reli rmb... but yea... we hope to attend his banquet soon... ^_^... You guys rox!!! Thnx for buyin all my tix!!! But buy le muz come hor... dun later all stand mi up and waste your money... hahaha... dun wori, i'll inform one of u on how to go to tt place... i wun forget... hee~
Didn't noe givin tuition wuz soooooo tiring... Teach for 5 hrs i rdy to b snatched away by my dreams le...... haha... but still managed to teach properly.... sky was late for an hr but nvm la... im a patient guy... ^^
Extremely high pile of work awaiting mi... Onli done a little bit of it... but cant b bothered... itz e hols and im gonna enjoy it to e fullest b4 i haf to adhere my nose to the grindstone again....
Finished my blog entry... Kinda bo liao actualli... Cuz i made my entry follow a certain pattern... see if u can spot it... itz afta e poem of coz... hahaha... tt's wad happens when ure super bored and bo liao and haf lotsa free time to dis kinda thing...
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