is this wad band does to u? everyday when i go out or m jz doin nth in particular, i can b doin 1 of 2 things... one, my mind can b tinkin of sth... anithin... reli... it can jz wander far n wide n i can jz sit n stone until i noe i haf 2 do sth else... two, my mind turns to player mode and it starts playin all e music i've heard in my life... can b anithin... rangin frm a flute solo to a duet to jay chou to phantom of e opera... no nid mp3 player or walkman... haha... jz sit dere n let e melodies n tunes churn demselves out... im at peace wif e world...

band resumin dis wk... cant wait... reli miss those guys... band rox my world!!!

today's chi rox la... sat beside kenneth in e last row and he wuz crackin all those lame but still farnie jokes thruout e entire lesson... laughed until my asthma nearly came up again... den my chi tchr read chu long's essay n he himself wuz smilin n luffin while readin e essay... woots... haha... s8 rox la... pity we exist in cliques nt as an entire clz...

gort back gp today... paper 1 31.5/50... paper 2 26.5/50... total 58/100... sux lyk shit la... but quite pleased wif my paper 1... still managed to get dis score... nt too bad le la... jz nid to improve on my pts n structure ba...

if i were to die tomorrrow... my greatest regret would be that i nv told u how i felt abt u... but i noe veri well... u're out of my league... but u're still e ger i cant live without...

bin chattin loads wif vanessa ytd... n chattin wif her again now... bin so nice to jz talk and talk and talk lyk we used to... haha... gr8 feelin...

sposed to do outline of op for shankar by tml... looks lyk itz jz gona b blank... sianz... lost my momentum for serious work afta promos ended... reli jz feel lyk slackin totalli rite now...

reli hope i can do well if i can take my 4 subs again nxt yr... muz work reli hard... jc life is terrible... dun wana get results lyk DEAD ever ever again... jolly well get betta results frm now on...

looked at chem promo paper... heng i nv take... hahaha =p

life's pretty slack now... bio spa screwed up a bit... but betta den my previous one... come to tink of it... my first 3 spas for each sci haf bin quite screwed... but oh well... cant do anithin abt it can i? jz make sure my future spas do a lot betta...

feel lyk cryin all of a sudden... wad's wrong wif mi?

not thinking of you everyday has already become an impossible task... so near yet so far... torture all right...

Jz gort back frm celebratin mr chiang's bdae... 4D1'04 ROX MY WORLD TOTALLY!!! missed u guys so so much and 2dae even tho we din do much, i still reli enjoyed myself... we reli jz slacked ard n had dinner tgt at sumoya (gosh tt place brings back memories) but still, itz e company tt counts... afta tt went home wif yi yi and jie sheng... but yi yi gort off at je... js took 242 wif mi... haha... thnx a lot dude... appreciate e company... talked a lot... mainly abt him n cheng joo... lolz... us guys oso were teasin n askin him lotsa things abt how it happened... >.<... so envious sia... tt devilish smile he sometimes has... LOLZ!!!

b4 tt had briefin abt China OUAP... sianz... we comin back a dae late for band fest rehearsal... tt means all e gd old intro and stuff over... mayb pickin of solos and duets oso gone... i wana plae!!! haha... BHB~! but reli... if i gort e chance to plae a solo in esplanade concert hall... *eyes mist over... im reli veri veri excited abt dis band fest... much more excited den i m for dis OUAP... goes to show how much i love band n my wife and mistress... my tone now sux lyk shit la... esp on my piccolo... nv plae my darlin for so long liaoz... till now starion still haven return mi... win liao lorz...

bio spa nxt wk... urgh... but life rox now... esp since promos are over...

thinking of you... pleasant torture...

Today's my big day!!! hahaha... thnx to all hu remembered and haf sent mi their well wishes and greetings... haha... shant name u guys here... dun wana miss out ani1... cant sae thnx enuff times... reli appreciate it guys... touched...

all e same... itz reli super shitty to haf to study n mug on yr bdae!!! tml phy paper la... oso e end of my promos... mite b e end of my life too... duno... haha... still haven finish muggin... despite havin chem exemption... yi yi jz now still call mi to waste my time... well, now im still wastin my time... haha...

oh well... we'll see wad happens tml...

Maths was completely shitty... cant b blamed... i din study... but reli veri tedious... y do i always end up lyk dis for maths? i reli wana do veri well for my promos... now left onli phy... i reli wana jz pia for promos... i reli wana take back my 4 subs nxt yr... take my chem s paper... i luv chem... my mom tell mi nt to lose heart... geng li oso encouraged mi a lot ytd nite on e way to e mrt station and on e mrt... he reli talked and talked and talked a lot for such a long time... haha... but i reli appreciate it loads... geng li if u read dis thnx a lot for yr help... reli reli reli appreciate it... i will work!!! i will do my best for dis comin hols... siaoz la... obviously i nt gona try veri hard... hols ma... as long can kip my 4 subs den will slack... always lidat de... hate myself...

nitemare... haiz... i lyk doin parametric eqns... den pian pian 2dae duno how 2 do... f***... tt's y i dun lyk discussin e ans afta e paper... cuz i noe sure gort a lot of qns i gort wrong... n itz usually cuz of e s2pid s2pid careless mistakes... ARGH!!! and sometimes itz nt i duno how 2 do lorz... den will demoralise mi... den no more gung-ho spirit for e upcomin papers le...

talkin to lao da now... veri worried... haiz... y m i such a worrywart? but i haf cause to worry... cuz im nt disciplined enuff to whip myself into studyin... kip havin dis mindset... hu's gona gif a shit abt whether ure gona noe wad ish e sum of e arithmetic series in e future? hu's gona care if e ball retains itz kinetic energy afta collidin wif another ball? hu's gona care abt sin cos and tan animore? reli muz change my way of tinkin... strugglin lyk mad wif myself...

happy bdae clement!!! n early happy bdae to shawnrick!!!