POC lohz!!! im now officially a private!!! haha... like big deal... gettin my postin on 22nd june... hope i get into saf band...

these past 7 wks reli haf bin eventful... tho reli totally slack... lolz... itz bin tough bein e section ic... but somehow i've survived... gdness... lookinat all e idiosyncrasies of my section mates... lolz... but i muz sae i reli had fun these 7 wks... thnx so much guys...

cant bliv im actualli typin dis out wif my eyes closed... so tired...

goin out wif 3d1 tml and my flute section on sunday... busy wk huh... jz went out wif my bunk mates ytd... sakura intl buffet... gosh... nearly puked... den went kino afta tt... bought 3 bks... splurged on dem... abt $50 lei... T.T but itz worth it la... ^_^ i reli nid food for e mind... gosh... bein in e army reli makes u leave ur brain at home... >.< but readin 'Myths of the Ancient Greeks' reli made mi realise a few things... firstly... hell hath no fury like a woman's jealousy... secondly... e greek gods' lives revolved mainly ard sex... =.=

im startin to tink whether there reli is sth wrong inside mi... nt physically... but mentally... i mean... seriously... like wad aaron pointed out, n i tink he's got a pt there, i'm kinda like in denial over quite a bit of stuff... like my weight... my size... my emotions... i kip jokin ard wif my weight... i binge when i feel down... i feel horrible afta i binge n it makes mi feel more down... my emotions swing like a pendulum... reli feel like im goin mad sometimes... AM I JUST SIMPLY EMO? duno la... but e feelin sure sux... e root of e problem? im nt even sure of it myself...

i love Baby Blues!!!

i wonder..................................

my nose is running like mad... gosh... sucks to haf flu... lack of vitamin c? can't b wad... i pop vitamin c pills everyday lei... haiz...

went for saf band audition today... duno if i'll get in or nt... duno if i wana get in or nt... sigh...

dun even noe y im bloggin now... reli in no mood to blog at all...

dun haf anithin planned for my block leave... wonder if 3d1 will invite mi to their clz outin... wonder if s8 will haf another clz outin... wonder if i'll get to c my flute section again... cmon ppl... TAKE A HINT!!! lolz... boy do i sound despo...

POC on 12th june... woots...

why must this happen to me? i really wanna figure out my feelings for you... yet i dun get the chance... juz sucks big time... ARGH!!!

i've been accepted to get the MOE teaching scholarship!!! but somehow i dun feel veri happy now... lookin thru e info kit dey sent mi... well... i feel like i'm gona b under a lot of stress in uni... bleahx... govt's money nt ez to get... but it reli is my gd fortune tt i've gotten it... all my uni fees paid for... 6K allowance a yr... 6 mths attachment programme... loads of goodies... but i muz keep a GPA of 3.50... omg... lolz... loads of other things to comply as well... i oso wana go back CTSS to teach... but i duno if my chances r high or nt... doubt so... haha... but i reli miss tt place... went back e other day n i jz felt so at home there... gosh...

funny how u can haf 100 contacts online on msn but nt b able to talk to a single one?

i nid to relax...

cant bliv my sat jz passed lidat... m i reli nt treasurin my wkends? my buddy said i wuz heng i wasnt in camp ytd... my platoon gort scolded like mad... does tt mean dey're gona screw us frm now on? hope nt...

im reli feelin guilty... haf i nt been spendin enuff time wif my family? tml gort asd institution mtg... den i goin somerset wif s8 for makan... m i reli nt spendin enuff time wif my family? stayed at home for e whole day today... hmm... guilty...

suddenly my life feels so empty... i reli hate change... now tt im no longer teaching n stuck on tt island so far away, i reli feel super empty inside... miss everything so much... jz waitin for e days to pass by jz lidat so aimlessly... lookin forward reli eagerly to seein my 3d1 n flute section in june... provided dey actually manage to get e outin planned... LOLZ!!! haiz... my flute section ar... tsk... tryin to ask dem out is like waitin for 30th of februrary to arrive... my 3d1 tryin to organise chalet at dis time of yr... incredible... hope dey can actually get it... some of my 3d1 actually did quite well in mid-yrs... so proud of dem! lolz... top n second in humanities both came frm 3d1... quite impressed...

mood swing again... sianz... im quite sure she aint e one... tt's gd... dun wana let myself spiral away again...

i nid to relax... i reli nid to relax n stop worryin so much... >.<

finally updating... cant believe i survived 3 weeks in tekong jz lidat... finally got tekaned by my sergeant ytd nite... my platoon la actually... haiz... we reli asked for it la... slackest platoon in e entire company... other platoons gettin tekaned like mad by their platoon sergeants but ours like so slack... he's a first sergeant mind u... but it wuz our sergeant (3rd sergeant) tt eventually tekaned us... i'm reli so grateful tt all my platoon's sergeants n commanders r veri veri nice ppl... heng we nv kena mus n nick... otherwise sure die... field camp nxt wk liaoz... so fast... sianz...

went for moe scholarship interview today... it went quite well actually... one of e interviewers was mrs angela ow... she reli wuz a veri nice n amiable woman... I MUST WIN THIS SCHOLARSHIP!!! I MUST SHOW THIS GREAT ACTUAL PROOF!!!

bin tinkin abt her for some time liaoz... do i reli haf tt feeling? hmm... cld dis b number 3? we shall see...

long wkend thx to my interview... missed one of my most impt ifc lessons tho... haha... see how ba... mayb get tiong to teach mi again... dreaded goin to platoon 1 cuz he always gives tt reli strict face... but he's reli a veri veri nice n approachable person...

i've gort so much to blog abt... but as usual... lazy... bleahx... emman called mi a recruit... haiz... which, sad to say, i am... but i muz appreciate bmt life... dey say life in unit is harder...