6 days left to GP... i really dunno how i want to feel now... really all mixed up inside... i dun even know how i should go about preparing for my GP... i've been reading up whatever i can... then today consulted ms. p... once again, i got tekaned by her... but i appreciate it... better now than later... yew hien and chee kiat said we're going her house this saturday... hmm... better go there prepared... and get ready for what she is going to say... i don't care how much she scolds or laughs or nags anymore... i need it... i'm desperate and i need to do well for this exam...

today consulted mr chu again... this time i think i really irritated him le... tho he never show it la... but somehow can tell... but he's really mr nice guy la... no matter what i asked him he has the patience to write out and explain to me... think i've said this umpteen times le... but i dun get tired of it... he's really been a great help... dun be afraid of long questions in maths... they just might be the easiest ones to do... dun let the long long lines of words cheese you off... keep calm... read the question properly and you'll be able to do it...

met chee kiat and yew hien after gp consultation... talked a bit about maths and gp... we need to bring up the queries and arguments to ms. p... but we still lack the courage... simply because we're still afraid of her shelling... LOLZ... actually no laughing matter la... must prepare and go in for the exam with the best state of mind...

again chatted with mummy for quite a while just now... as usual, she really inspired me and helped me see a lot of things... same with wan xiang yesterday... msged him after the asd daimokukai... he really also took the time to explain a lot of stuff and shared with me an experience which really inspired me la... very very grateful that i have this great good fortune to have these wonderful leaders around to guide me during this crucial period... i came to JJC on a mission... i did not leave ACJC for no good reason... i'm sure i came to JJC on a mission adn that mission is to shakubuku kelvin, bin hao and meng qing... just like i keeping praying everyday in my prayers... i must achieve ultimate victory in this examination... i must show this great infinite power of this mystic law... i will bring this faith to them by showing them this great actual proof which i will show through my success in this examination... that is the faith which i have...

there's still time... one week is still time... i will accomplish it~!!!

finally received my enlistment letter a few days ago... 27th april 2007 BMTC school 2... anyone else enlisted on that day can please tell me? urgh... so far haven't been able to find anyone else that has the same enlistment day as me lei... so far all of my friends enlisted in december or november... hmm... haiz... maybe cuz i pes C9? aiya whatever la... but just as well... i want to go into relief teaching in my 3.5 months of free time... see if i really want to make a career out of it...

mugged with vanessa and you shun today... haha... piaed gp and physics... urgh... must push my physics up much higher... really cannot afford to do badly in it... so little time left... i really am cutting it a little too finely le...

been falling sick quite frequently recently... the running nose has been coming on and off on and off... sianz... must be in tip top condition to sit for my exams... not getting enough rest... not surprising considering i've been sleeping late these few weeks...

starting to burn out as well... really getting very sick and tired of looking at my tys and notes and goodness knows what... i really just want to do this and be over with it...

on the bright side... got quite a number of activities lined up during the december hols... dunno if i've mentioned it... gort s8 chalet... gort 4d1 chalet... gort prom... dunno if they intend to have an after prom party... vanessa's clique going clubbing... wonder if s8 wants to go clubbing... haha... drag kelvin out of his house and go... LOLZ... really looking very forward to it... ^_^... oh and of course... before i forget... there's the sd kenshu... wahaha... last year at syc... this year migrate to jurong kaikan... hahaha... it's like THE place for me can? hope kalel can make it... last year's was fun!!! and this year i'm sure is gonna be even MORE fun and meaningful... just make sure i don't catch a cold like last year... =p i still haven't forgotten the tissue... hahaha...

i'm going to keep my spirits up... not going to sink into a state of worry... this is just 'A' levels... i'm going to emerge victorious... ULTIMATE VICTORY~!!!!!

just received my enlistment letter... 27th april... omg... so late... but just as well... now i can go into relieve teaching and see if i really want to make it my lifelong career... den can slowly tink abt it in my 2 yrs in army... hmm... also will determine my choice of course in uni...

muggin out wif van tml... reli hope it'll be constructive because i have already wasted so much time at home and i still don't feel worried about it...

my head is starting to spin again... is my blood pressure rising again? should be, i guess... especially since i've been doing nothing but eat and slack at home these few days... the only exercise i get is by walking to the kitchen...

i will achieve ultimate victory in my 'A' levels!!!

mummy just talked to me for so long... really very inspired by her... and i've finally learnt to let go of this heavy weight in my heart after so long... i'm not going to worry about my a levels anymore... i'm going to chant hard and mug to the best of my ability and go in for the exams... give it my best shot and don't regret... i still have the power to change my future... i must cherish it well... i'm sure i will walk the path that is most suitable for me in all aspects...

still haven't gotten my enlistment letter yet... sianzation... dunno why ar... i'm feeling so excited about receiving my enlistment letter... lolz... really hope i'll go in in january... mid or late january... not too late not too early...

can't help but feel envious at times... it's inevitable k...

meeting van this sat to mug... woohoo... haha... finally found a mugging mate... haven't seen her for such a long time le... hope she'll be a good one to mug with... i'm sure she will la... she wants good grades just as much as i do, i'm sure...

nerd alert... geek alert... haha...

can't believe i'm still blogging so often when i'm lagging behind so much... only did 3 papers today... i'm actually getting my maths papers done faster than my GP papers... woots...

and i've been getting these splitting headaches recently... urgh... just throbs and throbs like nobody's business... sanshoshima at work... i'll throttle it~!!!

i must learn to make love to the subjects i detest... GP... physics... maths... the more i detest them, the more i will embrace them and make love to them... know their every inch like the back of my hand and make sure i score like nobody's business in these papers... watch me~!!!

should i ask mdm chee for consultation this week? do i have anything to consult her on? plenty i believe... but like mr low said, i'd better collate my stuff first before going to him... not that i'll approach him anymore, for that matter... -.-''' still peeved with his attitude when he gives me consultation...

should i invite ms. p to go for the Gandhi, King, Ikeda exhibition? i think it's really an excellent exhibition for her to take a look at, considering that she teaches GP... speaking of which... an interview with Dr. Lawrence Edward Carter Senior was aired this morning on Primetime Morning... talked about whether peacekeeping through ways like dialogue is still relevant in today's world... then Dr. Carter aired his views about how Dr. Daisaku Ikeda was one of the most, if not the most, active people who has been promoting peace through peaceful measures such as dialogue since 1960 and he has been leading an entire organisation present in more than 188 countries and territories in the world in this movement for peace, known as the Soka Gakkai International, and has been carrying out actions for his beliefs towards peace, rather than NATO... and most people have overlooked or have refused to look at all that this great man has done... and just when Dr. Carter was getting into it, they cut him off, claiming that they had 'run out of time'... so you arrange with a famous professor from Georgia for an interview and you give him a measly 10 minutes? how sensible...

i will achieve ultimate victory!!!