another 45 mins to the new year... 4D1 goin out to watch fireworks... bet itz another one of those idiots who have nothing better to do den to make fun of mi again... shld b clarence and jun xian ba... haha... oh well... typical of dem... shan't let myself get angry over brainless things lidat...

been thinking abt dis for some time le... dunno if i've said this before... one who feels inferior and cowardly inside will do his best to laugh, tease and bully others to make them feel inferior and afraid, so as to raise their own esteem... in their opinion, offence is the best defence... make someone i tink i can bully feel inferior of himself so that i don't feel so bad inside... a psychological thing... i jz choose not to react to dem... believe mi, it wun b a pleasant sight if i did... =)

every year everyone talks abt new year's resolutions... but i noe itz usually sth u sae n forget one wk afta tt... so didn't bother to make ani new year's resolutions this yr... if i see a need to change something, be it myself or the surroundings, i'm sure it'll come naturally... no nid to do all this on purpose...

doin midnite gongyo later... first time doin it i tink... haha... too lazy in e past...

let's see... how has this past yr been for mi? well... firstly, being my a's yr i guess e stress has been a major factor of it... but along with the stress came e laughs and tears and pain... but everything was worth it... i still haf yet to do my human revolution in terms of my control of my emotions... my emotions still tend to fluctuate very very easily... veri bad of mi... must learn to haf more control over them... must learn not to react to every little silly thing tt pops up in my life...

tt's it for now... HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

Prom night rocks!!! hahaha... had so much fun!!! ms p said in all her years of teaching in cj, rj and jj, jj does it wif e most style... =p hahaha... love all those guys to bits... e food was onli moderate la... i tink most of us jz paid e $45 to take pics... LOLZ!!! mei yin lost her voice le... as usual... afta e chalet... so durin e prom her voice was like ah du... get well soon!!! ms p oso... her wrist injured le... afta tryin to break a fall... you take care too!!!

I've also been accepted by CTSS as a relief teacher le!!! can't wait... hahaa...

the worst thing that one can feel is that when one experiences any particular feeling, he is not allowed to express it... be it bliss, fear, fury, pain, sadness... the worst thing one can be forced to do is to put on another expression to mask what he is feeling inside... maybe it's high time i started thinking about her... she's been through so much in her entire life... she's also doing the same thing yeah? she's going through so much now... for heaven's sake, have some consideration for her... there must be some reason why she doesn't allow you to go... you don't understand her enough la, despite being with her for 18 years...

had a similar talk with alex couple of hours ago... No one understands the heart of The Entertainer... so true... all you see is the funny antics and the wide smile stretched across the entertainer's face... u can never see what's hidden on the inside, can u?

this is like the last one for the next 2 years... yet i'm forced to miss it... whatever...

i'm forced to fight with myself inside... it's really like having a split personality... when one argues with the other and the other argues back... and you have to listen to it play over and over and over and over and over... wish i could just knock myself out sometimes... maybe that's why i enjoy sleeping so much...

hope the others will respond to the ASD study daimokukai and study buddy programme... first time organising something like that... must be a success!!!

shall update abt kenshu now... hahaha...

let's see... hmm... missed e sd exam in e mornin... onli went at 2pm... den chose to go morigasaki 1... tt's my grp la... den played e lame concentration game afta chantin... even my ic agreed tt it wuz lame... -.-''' hahaha... same grp as jun hui... long time nv c tt guy le... hasn't changed... lolz... met thomas... onli saw him once b4 i tink... din even recognise him dis time... hahaha... quite a chatty guy, once u get to noe him... lolz... afta tt went to haf dinner n chatted wif e asd peeps lorz... missed those guys... hahha... gort benny n qs to write in kenny's bdae card... hope u like tt shirt kenny~!!!!! hahaha... went to listen to reverend watanabe afta tt... soooooooooooo inspired n touched by wad he shared... muz get to talk to him one day... hahaha... veri veri nice guy... learnt so much frm him... den came e NHR nite... veri encouragin n inspired to see all of us together work so hard to do our best... a few hiccups here n there... but otherwise it wuz terrific!!! ^_^ sposed to slp afta tt... but still had personal guidance... 2.30am... sheesh... so went down to basement to sit wif e asd peeps there... played a couple of games we used to play at purple-light district... lolz... had such a lot of fun... wei han cldnt get most of it... haha... feel so evil now tt i tink abt it... jiayang came down at 3... talked for a short while abt my future endeavours in gakkai... reli muz achieve all tt... all tt's standin in my way is whether i'm willin to do it or nt... afta tt went back down to basement to learn chingay dance... i can onli rmb e 1st 3 8s of e dance... =P... but looked quite fun... shld i join? naren came down soon afta to chase us up... went back to IPA to chat wif timothy, nicholas and wei han... so cold upstairs... but nice la... haha... finally cldnt take it... slept for 20 mins... went to listen to qi sheng's 'piano recital' at e stage...

END OF DAY 1

sounds borin... bliv mi, u've gotta experience it urself... it reli was one of e best times... sad tt itz over so soon le...

DAY 2 comin soon...

anyone wana watch Eragon?

jz came back frm kenshu prep... bin doin e same things la, so shan't sae much here... except tt we're improvin quite well n mani r no longer readin frm e script... WOOHOO!!! hitched a ride on jiayang's car... talked a lot... he's right... since i can't tink of anithin else... mayb there reli is nothing left to b done abt it... i shld let nature take its course...

bin playing FFXII recently... luv e graphics... haha... my rate of playin is obviously slower than a snail, since i dun spend hours in front of my PS2, unlike my bro, who is leaps and bounds ahead of me in the game... but jz take my own sweet time wif it... tt's e gd thing abt playin slowly... anithin duno jz ask my bro... when it comes to games he's e pro... ;)

suddenly gort a cravin for oldies again... heard dancing queen and another day in paradise in jiayang's car jz now... it'll be another day for you and me in paradise... find tt some of these songs gort so much more meanin den e crap we haf nowadays...

to all who are goin tekong tml... JIAYOU AND TAKE CARE!!! will join u guys in a couple of mths time... =D =P