teaching lower sec N(A) and N(T) will reli shorten my lifespan... gosh... i'm reli dyin soon... urgh... my 1A3 today... reli made life a total hell for mi... no matter how hard i try to get dem to settle down... shout n shout oso no use... haiz... talked to kok thye and roseza a bit jz now... but seems like no use lei... even dey dun seem to haf much effect over 1A3...

my 1B2 isnt tt bad... dey seem to b quite afraid of mi... at least dey bother to listen to wad i haf to say... tho some jz cant seem to take a hint la... =S sheetal n i had a gd luff at dem jz now durin tpi... my 1B2 aimed to collect $50 for their games stall... i laughed until i nearly peng san... omg... sheetal oso laughed at dem... in e end raised till $200... e food stall wuz more ambitious tho... their target wuz $600... woo... haha...

my 2A2 is my worst class... i can't shout at dem cuz dey will react veri negatively... yet dey jz go all out to make life a living hell for mi... yuan shuai jz totalli defies mi in clz and slps thruout my entire lesson... gosh... it wasnt dis bad when i took those takin express maths... gosh...

as for my 2B2... well... dey're slightly betta den my 2A2 la... cuz dey're afraid of mi shoutin at dem... but oso doesnt seem to haf much effect on dem la... ppl like kamen and gregory jz dun seem to gif a shit in my clz... onli noe how to disrupt the clz... i can so see myself threatenin to complain to ms ayu to get her to fix e seatin arrangement... cuz she allowed dem autonomy on where to sit in clz, provided they can behave... guess dey can't... brenban actualli oso quite disruptive in my clz... but at least he's willin to pay attention at times...

gosh... r my expectations of discipline too high of my lower sec classes... shld i lower it? haha... tt is if i can convince myself to lower it in the first place... reli cant stand ppl disruptin mi in clz or slpin... yet i noe tt i can nv haf 100% attention in class... except mayb for classes like 3D1... but even those angels can't possibly give mi 100% attention... now n den sure will talk or get distracted de la... but at least dey dun push it to e extent tt i'll blow up la... haiz...

i've been bloggin so much abt my teachin life recently... do i haf so much to bitch abt? haha...

gotta go prepare stuff to send in to MOE for dem to consider my scholarship application... do i see a ray of hope? >.< chant for it ba...

afta takin my sec 2 N(A) classes... im REEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLYYYYYYY startin to appreciate my sec 3 N(A) kids... gosh... miss dem loads too...

my 3A2... my best-behaved class... dun reli haf much problem teachin dis class... except for mayb ppl like enoch... but otherwise... dey're reli v nice ppl... =) but sadly i dun feel a veri strong connection wif dem tho... but itz an ez clz to teach...

my 3B2... can say itz my favourite class ba... tho as a tchr u're nt sposed to haf favourites... but can't help it la... =p dey're such warm ppl... can tell dey're reli desperate for improvement in chem... so much for e horror stories frm choon mei... dey're in fact my favourite class to teach... jessica was pleased to hear tt, i cld tell... ^_^ i miss even ppl like poh teck, whom i sometimes reli wish i cld haf a resoundin smack across his face to make him wake up... den most of 3B2 is actually reli nice... ppl like jason... nt a bad kid at all... mite b cheeky n all tt but he's reli a v nice boy underneath it all... i reli miss 3B2... =(

as for my 3C2... well... dey're actually quite ok de... but oso depends on their mood la... dey reli can gif mi hell sometimes... even tho i've taught dem b4 in jan... i tink jia hao has left e deepest impression in mi ba... for someone whom even the principal knows... he's reli the angel of my class... pays so much attention in clz to e extent even i get freaked out... haiz... even till now i still dun haf exactly a veri gd impression of dem... dey reli haf gotta change their attitude... otherwise dey're nv gona go far in life... my 3B2 has e right attitude... despite their weak academics... 3C2 is reli extremely complacent...

all in all... havin taught lower sec normal stream for just ONE day... i cant bliv how much it has made mi appreciate my upper sec... 3D1... 3A2... 3B2... 3C2... oh gosh... u tink im exaggeratin? wait till u see e hell my 2A2 and 2B2 can give mi... it wasnt tt bad when i gort all e angels frm e express maths class... at least dey cld b shouted at... my 2A2 reacts veri negatively to shoutin... ppl like yuan shuai... learnt tt i cant shout at him at all... even tho he shouts at everybody... surprisingly i hit it off quite well wif montano... even tho he was one of e more notorious ones... den e guys at e back... talk throughout my entire lesson... shld i b glad tt i wun b seein my sec 2s tml? my 2B2 can b shouted at... but sometimes can b quite futile... gosh... wonder how jen-sin can handle dem...

still tinkin if i shld go into teachin... somehow nt feelin too sure now... =p tho i honestly cant see myself walkin ani other path...

jz wad is wrong wif mi... omg... reli dun wan it to b dis way... sigh... internal battle ba... i bliv wif prayers... I WILL SUCCEED!!! listened to so many testimonials today... also shared a bit of my own =) itz reli bin veri encouraging... which is y i enjoy listenin to dem... i can do it de!!!

takin over jen-sin for dis comin wk... gona c my 2a2 and 2b2 again... dis time includin all e devils... onli taken e more angelic ones so far... let's see how i handle e real deal... gona teach sec 1 as well... for e first time in my life... eeks... 1a3 and 1b2... i've always had much more experience wif upper sec... now lower sec nids mi to change my mode n tune totally... woohoo...

to b honest itz reli depressing sometimes to jump ard so mani different classes... my most enjoyable teachin stint so far has been in january, when i took janet's load... omg... she's so lucky she's gort those classes la... 3D1... dey're like e angels of e sec 3 cohort... havin tot 3 out of 4 of e sec 3 exp classes... yes i can safely say dey r angels... reli love dis class... tho whether dey love mi is another qn altogether =p... ppl like julian (who e heck writes imsuck n displays it on his table?)... ppl like han kiang... tt guy doesnt look like a mapler AT ALL... tt's y i gave him tt choker... 3c2... actually dey're v nice kids... e onli prob wif dem is their attitude... once dey can correct it dey're reli great... same goes for e other 2 sec 3 N(A) classes... in 3C2... i've been warned off ppl like jia hao... for certain reasons which i shant mention here la... even mrs tan has heard of him... but he reli is an angel in my class... talk a bit now n den la... but nt as bad as e others... b it maths or chem he always seems to pay a lot of attention to mi... lolz... as for my 2C1... actually dey're nice kids... jz tt somehow i cldnt connect wif dem in my 3 wks wif dem... onli towards e veri end did i manage to get along betta wif dem... shame... ppl like saville and jin ping... dey reli can irritate mi a lot in class... cuz dey nv seem to pay attention... but whenever there's hw to b handed in sure gort theirs de... saville even manages to pick out certain details others dun... which is sth i cant stand la... u dun pay attention but can produce high standard work... dammit... den of coz we haf ppl like chin kai... both ruth n i dun haf a gd impression of him... tries to act pro but isnt... enuff said... lolz... as for my 2AB2... well... like i said... i gort all e angels... ppl like emman and shaheer... always pays very careful attention in my class... ppl like sheila... e loudspeaker of my clz... esther oso... sometimes la... ppl like my 2B2 boys... esp brenban... always make a lot of noise in my clz... out of tt grp... onli andy nv seems to talk... lolz... but itz these ppl hu make my teachin life veri veri memorable... =)

darrin jz told mi i taught chem wrongly to 3C1... I TAUGHT CHEM WRONGLY TO 3C1? CHEM IS LIKE SUPPOSED TO BE MY NICHE AREA!!! gonna thrash it out wif dem on monday... I TAUGHT CHEM WRONGLY?????????? HOW CAN THIS BE? OMG.........

everythin seems to be cloggin up inside... woohoo...

seein my flute section again on april fools' day... aj band concert... cant wait to c u guys...

jz finished watching the phantom of the opera... watched mainly for e music la... makes mi tingle wif pleasure... lolz... n e plot is nice too... omg... reli sad i cant go for e musical...

i cant handle so mani things at one shot... teaching's a much more responsible job than i pictured it to be... HELP!!!

met the new untrained tchr hu's comin to take over mi... a guy... tho it aint necessarily mean gd news... he looks exactly like e type hu my 3 N(A) classes will take advantage of... lolz... softspoken... a bit shy... doesnt look like e type hu will shout at all =.=... is dis a male version of choon mei? reli hope nt... my 3 N(A) classes reli deserve betta... sigh... reli gona miss dem... surprisingly dey actually can b a joy to teach...

still cracking my head over my application for uni... urgh... pure chem or applied chem? shld i go ahead to take life sciences as a minor? so mani qns... so little time...

i love teaching. period.