well, finally churned out e latest draft of my script. URGH~! lolz... itz reli bin a super tough job. i wish i cld say itz e final draft but i noe too damn well it wun b...

first time writing such a long script. honestly, 18 pages of arial font size 10 is no joke. keeping the spirit of mentor and disciple while desperately tryin to make sure my audience wun fall aslp. gosh...

but on e bright side, at least e roles for toda and shin'ichi have been tied down. honestly i pity them, cuz i dun haf ani idea how dey're gona memorise so mani lines in such a short time, esp shin'ichi.

i reli want this to b a success. my very first major production. >.<

been doing my best to rush out the script for the HR Festival. actually have i been givin my best? sigh... i'm bloggin when i shld b puttin dis time into writin e script.

barely past act 2. strugglin like crazy bliv me. it used to b so ez to write scripts cuz i wrote dem purely frm imagination. but wif e HR, i haf to adhere closely to e storyline n make sure i can still bring out e spirit within n avoid distortin e facts. gosh... muz challenge sia... reli...

read chris's blog ytd... SEP... reli wana try out for SEP in NUS... sounds gd... bin checkin out e jap universities tt liaise wif NUS... reli hope i get chosen... it'll b gr8 to b able to spend a couple of mths there... esp if itz durin winter or spring... den i can either get to see snow or cherry blossoms... too bad Soka University isn't one of e unis hu liaise wif NUS otherwise it'll reli b gr8... e cost of livin there apparently is quite high but i tink it'll b a reli gr8 experience to live there for a couple of mths alone... it'll sorely test my independence tho... haf to handle everythin on my own... food... lodgings... laundry... studies... gosh... >.< n in case u duno yet... i'm a slob...

feel like snoozin now...

kudos to jixiang for helping me wif my blog... lolz... im reli hopeless wif html... thnx dude~!

ltc edmund n mr ng r both nt in office... so im like practically free now... which explains y im bloggin at dis kinda time...

itz a race to e finish to finish readin HR... i've reli bin feelin extremely reluctant to read it these days... haiz... inner darkness... but i reli wana make dis upcomin event a tremendous success!!! reli happy at e enthusiasm my fellow 'cols' haf bin showin...

n to those hu duno wad those funny lookin characters r after every post, it's how my name is written in japanese... haha...

bin feelin a bit emo these days... but nt as bad as wad i've bin feelin in e past la...

yawnz... e roti john jz nw wuz gr8... feel so slpy now... lolz...

so gona get a macbk for uni... ;)

i never imagined tt there wld b so much to do for our upcoming HR festival this coming May... omg... 8 wks to draft out e script, prepare the logistics, recruit actors/actresses etc etc etc... e mtg ytd i tink all of us got a bit agitated la lolz... esp when a grp of strong-headed, hard-headed n hot-headed teenagers gather together to discuss sth... lolz...

reli cant wait to get my driving licence... wuz a bit difficult gettin mr ng to agree to gif mi off for my driving... esp since itz sth private... chingay wuz sth different u c...

reading "I Believe You" made me feel emo all over again... lolz... tho honestly speaking when i look at some couples on e street sometimes i smile to myself or even laugh out loud... is it sour grapes? cuz sometimes 1 look i can tell tt particular couple ish cmi de... cfm... haha... since when haf i become an expert in dis area?

can't wait for my jap clz to start again... lolz... reli yearnin for it to start... mani things to achieve dis yr... HR Fest... Chptr GM... driving... JLPT 4... slim down? successful rship? haha... mayb kiv e last two la... hahaha...

bought this neck cushion cum speakers thingy ytd... i tink itz quite worth my money... itz like a normal neck cushion... den u connect ur mp3 or wadeva to it n it jz plays e music right nxt to ur ears at a suitable volume... loud enuff for u to hear it but soft enuff nt to disturb those ard u... great isn't it? nw can reli chilax (chill n relax) in e office le...

gonna gif it my all for this HR festival... GGRRRRRR~~~~~~~!!!!!!!

sometimes i can't help but think what do i actually post on this blog? have i always been ranting endlessly on and on and on about the things in my life? this blog has been with me since secondary school days. it's seen so much of me and been through so much with me. it probably knows me even better than i know myself.

what kind of a person have i been all my life? have i changed in any way? have i bothered to change? well, physically, i guess i haven't changed much. those who've known me for long should know that. lolz. what about emotionally, mentally and spiritually? have i grown as a person in all these ways?

why the sudden emo entry you may ask. was reading through shi qi's blog just now. realised that in a few months, -teen will turn to -ty. what will i have achieved by then? what do i want to achieve from then on? it's already been almost a year since i enlisted. have i been living my life to the fullest? sometimes we shun away from something and eventually come to realise that it was actually the best thing for you. by then, it'll have been too late to turn time round. so why not make the most of what you have now?

i look back on life and always yearn to go back to certain times in my past, having missed it so so so much. as a result, i miss out on certain great and precious times that i have at present. how many times have i made this mistake? i shudder to think.

life is short, and it's constantly getting shorter. think about what you can, should and will do with what's left of it.