suddenly mid-autumn festival feels more real now that it's actually coming... really looking forward to seeing that big bunch of peeps again... like i said, how many people still can say their primary school friends still meet up on such a basis? haha...

CFG tomorrow. Sigh, i've really let nicholas down.

i really want ASD to cut an album. i really really really want that to happen!!! ASD has created so many wonderful tunes and songs and it really would be such a terrible waste to use it just once and forget all about it! we could cut an album and send it to Sensei! he'd really be happy to see and hear it. music transcends all languages!

went to Friday rendezvous yesterday. wonder what made su xin write such sad lyrics.

Yes Janet, mid-autumn festival is coming~! haha, to all those readin this post with a -.^ expression, my pri sch frens usually meet up during mid-autumn festival. last yr was so much fun~! this yr all betta gather oso hor! haha...

supposed to organise outing for e rts b4 reks leaves for england again... but everybody's so bz nowadays... gona b a little difficult...

CFG is coming~! haha, everything is more or less falling into place. i've also given away quite a number of invitations. really want all my members to grow from this.

got a lousy 74 for my mid-term test for my Jap class Intermediate 2 course. my lowest score so far. but apparently it's quite a gd score for my class le la, since ms torinomi said there were quite a few others who didn't do well at all... jap really isn't as easy as it looks... zzz... some more i'm sitting for JLPT 4 at the end of this year. really must go and practise liaoz... apparently the listening comprehension is a killer, considering the rate at which japanese speak and the fact that the recording is only played once. sianz... but i'm sure i can pass la! challenge JLPT 3 next year~!

oso met a student from Soka University of Japan last saturday at district 4's zadankai. he said i speak very good japanese... >.< ok la maybe that's cuz not many singaporeans can speak japanese... but when i speak to him oso bits and pieces here and there la, cuz honestly the level which i've studied till simply isn't enuff for fluent conversation. haha...

prelims are coming soon for my o lvl students. all of u guys must jiayou jiayou jiayou ok? after prelims den full steam ahead for o's le! rmb dun burn out after prelims. peak during o lvls not prelims!!!

i'm a lousy teacher... urgh~

wow... today has just been the most gruelling day... well actually not really la haha... here goes...

woke up at 9.30am today... got nagged by dad a while den toppled back to bed... dragged myself out of bed at 11.30 to do morning gongyo... den headed down to syc to meet nicholas n his new fren... sposed to b at 1pm but ended up his fren came v late... so i cld onli spend a few mins wif his fren b4 headin up to e cic mtg upstairs... SOKA UNI STUDENTS CAME OVER!!! i wish i cld haf brought them to my zadankai but sadly the places had been taken up le... so angry... some more dey're livin in NTU nw lei... it'll be so ez for them to go back hostel from my zadankai... albeit my zadankai is chinese-speakin but i'd haf bin more den willin to translate... lolz... but no sense complaining now la... chant hard to go for the SEP in NUS den i can see soka uni students all i want... wahaha... but all was not lost... managed to make a fren... pretty gal called Takako Urabayashi... japanese somehow r always veri impressed tt someone can speak their native language n she reli did seem quite impressed... i was quite impressed with her command of english too... not all japanese who bother to pick up english can speak it that fluently... i really want NUS Faculty of Science to set up connections with Soka University so that it will be part of the list of universities i can choose from if and when i apply for SEP in future!!! LOLZ!!! tt reli will be wonderful... muz chant v hard for tt to happen...

ASD daimokukai nxt fri... still haven planned anithin yet... >.< i'm really slackin v badly in asd...

I WANT TO ORD!!! I WANT TO GO SOKA UNI!!!

i want to hold you in my arms, stand at the edge of the sky and feel the wind blow...

after hearing about Qing Rui's death i must admit i was shaken. heard about it from zhenhui the day after he passed away, which was quite a number of days ago but felt compelled to pen down my own thoughts after reading a blog entry. a guy my age has just been embraced in the arms of the Grimreaper just like that. when zhenhui first told me about it, it really gave me a shock. the guy who was in my sec sch and jc just passed on like that. i don't know him very well, just know that he existed but still, it undoubtedly shook me. just how fragile is life? who suffers more? the one lying there? or the ones crowding around the one lying there?

but what disturbs me more is how we take people and the things we have for granted all the time. we always assume people will always be there for us, so we just carry on with our lives like that. only when the Grimreaper pays a visit do people really open their eyes and see. people are all like that, aren't they? we look but do not see. we hear but do not listen. we touch but do not feel. after the Grimreaper has visited, people open their eyes for a while, only to let them slam shut again and continue with their lives. who is more cruel? the Grimreaper? or is it Time? Time, who trudges on steadily without stopping, leaving a trail of destruction, despair and regret, with us trailing behind it, struggling to keep up. sometimes, i don't feel it's the Grimreaper who's the cruel one.

the fastest way to lose your ideal impression of someone is to know their true impression of you. that's what happened with my 4D1 today. apparently i'm known as 'the matrices guy' to them. hahaha. not that it's a bad thing, but dunno y made me feel a little down. today was the first session of night focus with my new students. actually i quite like them, cuz they were pretty much attentive, though, as usual, i was talking at the speed i would with a pure science class. i feel so stunted with the amount of content covered in a sub science class too! gosh, there're so many things i wanna tell them but because practically all of it is not in their syllabus and i don't wanna confuse them so i gotta leave it out. zzz...

so much for my passion for ASD. i've seriously been neglecting my members and haven't even found out whether they're going for the student peace lecture tomorrow or not! lidat how to be cic? zzz... gonna get scolding from teck kiang if he found out. haiz... don't know what's gotten into me these days. my schedule is like so freaking packed and i don't know how to manage my time properly. 2 weekday evenings taken up by tuition for justin... another 2 weekday evenings for night focus at ctss... that leaves me with 1 weekday evening to relax and my weekends... sunday evening i have jap class. weekend mornings i luv to sleep until v late, even though my mom always screams at me when i do that. =p ok so my life is really nothing short of cramped up and overflowing at the moment. gotta save some time for my CFG and yongsha activities. haiz... really v v tired sometimes... but no choice... must go all out! otherwise how to be a worthy disciple of ikeda sensei?

meeting the guys for breakfast at jp mac tml... wonder if i can wake up early enough or not... hahaha~!