It's been more than a fortnight since I last blogged. Been busy? NOPE! Been too free? DEFINITELY! I need ways to kill boredom.

Just finished watching 模范棒棒堂 2008 where they had their graduation ceremony and I wonder if my own ASD graduation will be as tearful as that. Will I even have a graduation? Lolz, I hope so. It might be even more tearful, considering I spent 4.5 years there. Definitely very painful for me to leave. And I barely have like 1.5 months left there. Maybe it'll be better if I just go quietly to NUSSD and save the tears. But honestly, I really don't want to think about it. I daresay my body will go over to NUSSD but my soul will remain in ASD. Nobody in my batch, I can quite safely say, feels as attached, bonded and close to ASD as I do. My dear fellow ASD comrades, I've said it a lot of times and I'll say it again, I really love you all from the bottom of my heart and I really am going to miss you all like crazy.

But sad things aside, we also need to look forward. 4 years in NUS awaits me. Just applied for hostel stay a couple of days ago. Omg, a thousand over dollars for a year. >.< The room I'm getting had better be clean and the mattress had better be new and everything. Make sure everything is worth my money. Can you imagine, a thousand over dollars just like that? Zzz...

Anyway, sent Kazu off on Monday morning. Another teary farewell. First time seeing Kazu cry. Really hope he'll go back to Japan and do his best for kosen-rufu there. I'll go over and visit you in about two years time bro~!

And to round up my entry, I guess I can be a little emo ba. Like I told Sinyee (at least I think I did), nobody has more patience than paper (or something to that effect). Similarly, who has the patience to listen to emo talk or emo moods? Only paper. That's why I've translated all my emo-ness onto paper, in story form. Sad stories. Only paper will have the patience to let me write everything down in full, no matter how corny or how silly my stories are. ^_^ And the best part is, I wrote my stories in Chinese. Omg, don't know how many donkey years never write in Chinese liaoz. Really didn't want to lose touch with my mother tongue, so I tried my hand at it. Somehow I feel like I'm writing a script, given the amount of dialogue I put in my stories. Well, it's going to be a series, entitled 邱比特的失误. As you can probably tell, it's going to be a series of love stories. Actually, I've been saying stories stories stories. The fact is, it's only storY, at the moment, because I've barely finished writing one. Hahaha. I write only when my emo moods haunt me, so it's a good sign that I don't have a lot written, I guess. =)

Ok, it's 2am (yes I've been sleeping at around this time for the past 2-3 weeks ;) amazing, huh?). Need to get some shuteye. Ciaoz ppl.

Boredom kills. Period.

Omg, I've got another 2+ months more time at home to kill. I think I'm gonna get killed before uni starts. Killed by Boredom. Boredom with a capital B. Well ok, I suppose it hasn't been 100% boring. Been entertaining myself with idol dramas and stuff. Lolz. Goes to show the extent of my boredom. And I've been chanting really very hard to down pes. I know I shouldn't be doing so but I really can't help it. I really don't want to do IPPT every year. IT'S A DRAG AND A PAIN IN THE ASS!!! But other than that, life's been pretty boring. Initially thought had that cambodia cip trip to look forward to but now that's been scraped too. Haiz. I suppose the next exciting thing is the induction programme for my scholarship ba. I really can't wait to get started. And I can't wait to buy my laptop! I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY MACBOOK PRO! WAIT FOR ME I'M COMING! Finally gonna own a laptop that belongs solely to me, myself and I. Can't wait to personalise it. ^_^

Life's also been quite boring now that Gakkai activities have been cancelled due to swine flu. ASD May Institution Meeting gone down the drain liaoz. I doubt we'll even have Connexion. I don't need to graduate from ASD liaoz hahaha.

Been cracking my brain over which hall to apply for in NUS too. Gonna apply same hall as Wei Han. Hopefully can get in, then at least got zhao ying ma. I heard hall also a good place to make friends and most importantly, have a space that I can really call my own. I really feel excited about getting my own room. I guess this is what getting my own flat will feel like in future ba? Hahaha! But I scared when I get my own room I'll just laze in my room all day. Those who know me well will know I have no qualms about locking myself in my room for hours on end if I have enough food and entertainment. Snacks and laptop = great way to spend in my room all day. Wahaha~! Ok, I know I sound like a couch potato. Well, face it. I AM!

Should I go get a job? NAH~! Enjoy a well-deserved break...

又到了我分享的时候了。。。不知道是不是最近偶像剧看太多了，心情跟着感性起来了。 说到偶像剧，它们会那么受欢迎是因为他们的剧情所描述的是大家心里所期盼的吗？男主角在人生发生了某些事情，而这时候女主角就正好出现在他的生命里。或刚好相反的，在女主角的生命里发生了什么事，而这时候男主角就会莫名其妙地出现来替她解围。如果不是解围，就可能是在她的身边默默地守着。当然，在偶像剧里怎么可能会少了三角恋呢？最终，男女主角会和好永远在一起，而第三者会被踢得远远的。这些情节，说实在的，如果是有看偶像剧的朋友， 都是一而再，再而三地重复。但为什么还是有那么多人会想要去看呢？是因为这都是我们私底下会希望发生在我们身上的事吧。谁不希望能够与上她的白马王子或他的真命天女呢？然后这样永远过着幸福的日子。但这种事情往往都不大有可能发生在我们身上吧。所以呢，大致上的人都会把幻想寄托在偶像剧里，然够由偶像剧来完成自己的幻想。当然，偶像剧里头的都一定是我们所追求的完美对象。我们也正好能够把自己幻想成偶像的对象和他对戏，又或者如果是一男一女的搭档组合，也能在银光幕上看见你所希望的配搭呈现在你眼前。我想这都是大家爱看偶像剧的原因吧。但看归看，事实和幻想还是总得画个清楚的界线，不要让自己陷得太深。这也算是对自己的一个警告吧。不要应为看了太多偶像剧而音响到自己的情绪。

可恶。。。怎么又开始感性起来了。。。算了，还是去想我的鬼鬼好了。。。^_^ 要看她的照片吗？

羡慕吧？她只小我一岁哦。。。不错吧？也让我好好地去幻想幻想吧。。。下次再聊吧~！

it's late but i feel like blogging~! hahaha... did i have a great day today? well, i guess you could say so ba... time spent with 4D1 '08 is always great~! ^_^

went for ctss carnival today... to be honest it wasn't really great la... so few stalls... den the weather was like so damn hot... i've heard of global warming but this is ridiculous... looks like mother nature is already dropping a few not-so-subtle hints... went for 2 rounds of lucky draws... didn't win anything... an old auntie won the grand prize... canon cybershot camera... lolz... some of the 4D1 people went to queue for the haunted house but seriously, the only thing that's scary about it was the queue... really horrible... i heard one of the parents telling her kid, "if they don't let you in, i'm going to complain until they let you in!" haha... cuz i think they queued for very long den still can't enter... n brandon told me aftawards there was nth exciting or scary abt it... met sinyee before going for the carnival... gave her jap tuition for about an hour before going over to the carnival... hope i didn't confuse her lolz... really a bit of information overload in that hour... hahaha... but she's very excited about learning it and i'm very excited about teaching it so ya... lolz... can get carried away hahaha... but it was fun teaching la... hopefully can get to teach again soon... so fun! afta we left the carnival, a grp of us trudged over to subway for dinner... i managed to get the student meal from subway... so i still look young after all! wahaha... den we stayed n crapped n laughed until my sides ached n cheeks cramped wif e guys until abt 8pm... tt's y i always love going out wif dem... i feel so relaxed n happy... reli can just talk cock wif dem... e gals beside oso... talking, singing and laughing away like siao za bor lidat... but tt's their nature la i spose... mother lau shin fen! hahaha...

hectic week coming up... ORD IS FINALLY NEARING! FINALLY A SINGLE-DIGIT FIGHTER LE... omg waited so long for dis day to arrive... now nxt prob... i nid a job... anyone got lobang to recommend?

i've also decided i want to write a dark novel... maybe something to do with a killer or a reaper... something that can really unleash my dark side completely... let my imagination run loose for once... the WRITE programme in ctss was reli loads of fun for me... tt got me in touch with my dark side... actually knowing that such creative writing cld b employed... hahaha... of coz, u've gotta haf a crazy enuff tchr... ms tan yi ling... lolz... she reli taught me so much in creative writing... miss her lessons like crazy sometimes... in jc it was just essays essays n more essays... yucks~! my creative juices all dry up le...

炼狱天使的故事会继续吗？ 堕落的天使会继续用终生与人换取灵魂吗？ 炼狱天使能够再次找回白色的羽翼吗？ 炼狱天使如果找回了白色的羽翼会愿意再次接受它吗？

Ok, so many things have been happening recently and I need to compose myself to think it out clearly...

Firstly, Jasvinder's farewell... well, what can I say? Lolz... ok because of tuition with Melanzzo I was late meeting 4D1 '08... had a good time chatting with my pokemon gang on the bus to can't-remember-where but i know we walked to kenny rogers eventually, where we met up with more people... had a great time laughing my ass off with Chubby, Jasvinder and Mitchelle... 2B1 rocks~! ^_^ afta tt went over to talk to zhenning, darrin n e other guys... can't rmb wad we talked abt liaoz... =P but i think the most fun was when we actually entered Kenny Rogers... i sat at the end of the table with hansen, darrin, zhenning, nic wee, brandon and samuel... as usual, we threw our jokes around and i honestly laughed until my sides nearly split... am always so high whenever i go out with these guys... aven and yilin came much later, almost didn't haf enuff seats for them... we told dem to go sit outside where they had a 2-seater next to the fountain hahaha... n jasvinder said, " Oh now we know why they're late. She was busy MAKING her own shirt!" in case you're wondering, yilin was wearing this:














and another incredible laughing point was when grace hong arrived near the end of our meal and sat down at the guys end... she turned and looked at aven's shirt and said, "omg, your robot has a dick!" and if you guys don't believe me, here's what aven was wearing on that day:















ok enough of the sick shit... but all in all we really had a super fun day and jas, if you read this, i don't care how many times i've said it or how many times u've heard it but you're really going to be sorely missed... =\

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and recently i've been feeling down, even though ord is nearing... haiz... am i in the wrong? or are they? or are we both in the wrong? i really just feel so bitter inside... am i just unwilling to see the right thing? is my selfish desire clouding up my vision?

于是天使褪下了白色的羽翼， 变成了炼狱天使。 难道这就是我的宿命吗？ 难道我就想这个经不起火烧的炼狱天使吗？ 我知道我的白色羽翼有多么珍贵， 怎么能够这么轻易地褪下呢？ 但有时候我总觉得这就是最简单的办法。褪下羽翼吧， 把灵魂给我， 变得和我一样， 成为地狱的天使吧！