Totally in no mood to study my Maths now, even though I only have five days left to it. It's my last paper, so I really hope I don't lose my momentum. Looking at Prof Chew's past year papers only serves to demoralise me at this point of time.

I'm still dwelling on CM1131. I know I should stop thinking about it because it's not going to be of the slightest help even if I do. But I really can't help it. I'm really so afraid of getting a C or having to repeat this module when I think of the answers I wrote and realising that most of them are wrong. I'm going to have an anxiety attack soon if I don't stop dwelling on it.

Speaking of anxiety attacks, I nearly had one yesterday. Nearly couldn't finish my GEK1535 paper on time. Almost had a heart attack when the examiner announced time's up. But I thought the paper was ok. Certainly one of my better ones, if not the best one, out of the four I've taken so far.

Am I cut out for uni?

Just finished CM1131 today. I think I'm going to have nightmares about it soon. I've never felt so much pressure for Chemistry as I have for this module, which, strictly speaking, isn't all Chemistry. I have this very deep fear of repeating this module. Billy told me Daniel did only two questions and got a B for it, which makes me feel a bit better. But when I think of what I wrote for my exam, any minute good feeling I might have vanishes on the spot. For the first time in my life, I was scared of discussing the paper after it ended. I was really very afraid to find out my answers were wrong, given that I really didn't write much for this paper. Billy also said the grade for CM1131 will be our Christmas present. Hopefully I'll want to come back to Singapore after seeing it. Everyone tells me bell curve will help. Let's hope it really does.

The prowler stalks his second victim, lurking in the black shadows. Chloroform-soaked handkerchief in hand, he pounces on his victim and brings the handkerchief to his victim's face. His victim goes limp after a few seconds' struggle. A flash of silver in the dark alley across his victim's throat. A surge of scarlet bursts forth, staining his clothes and forming a morbid puddle on the floor. His lips curl upwards as he walks away, letting the blood drain from his victim.

Really totally wrecked after today's papers...

Firstly, econs. Econs wasn't good for me since mid-term. Now, I think it's worse. SU? I think very likely. But I really don't want to waste an SU this semester.

Secondly, CM1101. Totally destroyed my morale. I blanked out for my MO diagram, screwed up my units conversion and couldn't get my Lewis structure right. There goes my A.

Let's see if the rest of my papers are going to be as screwed as this.

Operation 4.7? Ha...

He prowls behind his unsuspecting victim, wearing a grim smile on his face. Slowly, he edges towards his victim. His victim finally senses him and turns around. A gloved hand covers his victim's mouth, muffling the screams as he plunges the knife in his hand into his victim. Once. Twice. Thrice. On the third time, he twists his knife hard before yanking it out of his victim. Leaving his victim lifeless on the floor, eyes staring where they cannot see, he cackles, turns and walks off.

Is having past year paper solutions a good thing? Eric called me to discuss the past year paper solutions for CM1131 and we both got kinda agitated over it. Don't get me wrong, we were both agitated against the same thing: the shitty standard of the answers. Apparently, seniors struggle with CM1131 as much as we do by the look of their answers. =S CM1131 shouldn't be a level 1000 module!!!

Final term exams are in 3 days time. Do I feel prepared? To be honest, I don't know! I've done the past year papers for all the modules that have past year papers available on LINC but I also know those questions are not going to repeat themselves, so will I be able to solve the questions set this year? Mugging just doesn't seem complete without TYS. The past year papers are what come closest to the TYS but somehow I just don't feel too secure and I can't seem to do anything more about it.

A lot has been happening at home, physically. I finally don't have to share a room with my brother! Imagine, having my room for the first time in 21 years. Kinda sad hor. Lolz. But it's really great having my own room and privacy. My bro's got the TV in his room but honestly, I don't care. He's the one who's hooked on KBS world, not me. I've got my own room, my own bed and my own MacBook. I'm happy =D Really, all the TV I wanna watch can be found online, so what's the point of having a TV?

I'm really looking forward to the end of exams. Should I attend Torinomi sensei's farewell dinner? It's on the same day as Maths. Not that I really care, especially since it's the last paper. But my clique has a long day planned. Hmm, see how ba.

Ok, surprisingly long entry. To all having exams, JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After chionging 110 MCQ questions today, my brain really feels like a wrung sponge. I'm going crazy with all the stuff I have to memorise for macroecons. I HATE MACROECONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next week, D-Day arrives. That will mark the success or failure of operation 4.7.

Expecting me to push and strain my brain like that after two years is really nothing short of ridiculous. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear readers, I will most probably go on a hiatus till after exams. Till then, ciaoz.